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what did you expect from a girl named after an ending?

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i can feel the angst coming, however, i fear the moment i will be SOBBING is when they have their first love confession.😔

there def is no jaegersed version of y/n and eren without angst But! i will say there’s something v exciting coming soon. next 1 or 2 chapters me thinks 🤭

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Love Is Only a Feeling by Joey Bada$$ is so Y/n and Eren coded

lord u know ball. deemed it one of my fav songs. had it on the playlist i made for my ex and sent it to my ex-situationship so its a little doomed for me. maybe its perfect for y/n and eren ????

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heyyyy

just wanted to say this new chapter was genuinely so cute. can’t wait to see what else you have in store!!

hiiii :) thank you thank you i’m revving up for something exciting in the next few…… 👀

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chapter 19: once in a blue moon

babies are back

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hiii,

bury the moon has such a special place in my heart. honestly it's my favorite eren college au. i'm transferring from a community college to a university in a few months, and reading your fic has made me less anxious about the move. your writing is so beautiful, and has honestly helped me get back into creative writing myself. no other fanfic has made me feel so immersed and connected, because your y/n is so much like me in so many aspects. and your characterization of eren is hands down my favorite i've read. all i have are high praises for you, and i hope you're doing well. <3

hello hello hello anon!!! you have warmed my heart to a state of inferno i hope you know that. i wish you the absolute best of luck at university!!!! uni, despite the absolute harrowing part of assignments and exams (which is the whole part but whatever), holds some of the best memories in my life! don’t be afraid to reach out to random people and talk everyone’s ear off because boyyyyy most people are in the same anxiety boat and want want want connection. nowww in terms of btm—i’m actually gonna cry. your perception of y/n and eren mean the world to me and… fav eren characterisation?????? might just print this off and stick in on the mirror in my bedroom as a daily reminder. thank you darling and wish you the best <3

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😔💔when are you coming back??

if i say in the coming week will i not be scolded 🥹

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one year…..since submerged….ENDED.😭😭😭😭😭😭😭i feel like i just finished it yesterray.so sad.i feel so maternal towards rhis book.

also HAPPY BIRTHDAYAYAY ily

omg it’s marked and everything….. this is so special to me. time has flown by so fast 🥹🥹 ur my og, hope you’ve been well <333 AND THANK YOU omg u remembered my hearttttt love u love u love u 🥰

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my queen, pls come back where afe u💔💔💔 i am sitting here like a woman waiting for her lover’s letter whos been drafted to war. i miss ur writing :(

but jokes aside, how are youu? i hope you’re doing well, and everything’s alright at your end <3

i’m gonna come back i swear !!!! just been feeling a lil unmotivated and down while simultaneously applying for jobs (big girl ones) so my attention has shifted a lot. sending u my love, i’m sorry <3

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(honest) update on life:

- haven’t written in a while and i don’t feel good about that (boo)

- starting ritalin on monday so hopefully that gets me out of my slow decay (yay)

- little snippet on ch. 19 (yay)

- snippet is depressing (boo)

two yays and two boos so we’re in a liminal space of equilibrium (see you guys soon hopefully 😋)

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Hiii queen, I’m so late with this (I’m the biggest procrastinator)😓 how’re you doing?

FIRST OF ALL, this was perfect, you just keep raising the bar, I fear we’ve reached triton moon-wise with this one!

I love how with this chapter we got to witness such a contrasting transition

I’m listening to sun bleached flies as I write this, and it feels uncannily aligned with what I want to say about fear / acceptance, about their quiet and inseparable duality.

I’ve always been drawn to the way fear is portrayed in media. It’s something universal; everyone has, in some form, brushed against it. What fascinates me most is how people build resistance around fear without recognizing the dual nature it carries, how it can both confine and shape us, suffocate and define us at once.

Acceptance, whether chosen or imposed, is rarely part of that conversation. We tend to overlook it, especially when we speak about negative experiences. And when we do acknowledge it, we often soften it, giving it a muted, almost hopeful tint — as if acceptance must always lean toward healing or something inherently positive. But imo that isn’t the only form it takes.

What I’m trying to articulate (what this chapter, and the one before it, have come to represent for me) is the other shade of acceptance. The quieter, heavier one.

For me it’s like a withered tree, long stripped of life, now overgrown with new vegetation: something continues, something adapts, but the original form remains rigid, unmoving. It is the stillness forced upon us by circumstance, the quiet surrender to what our experiences have made of us, even when our will strains in a different direction than reality allows.

It’s the internalization of what once oppressed us, how fear seeps inward and reshapes acceptance into something dense, something suffocating.

And yet, within that same emotional space, another response begins to surface almost immediately after this portrayal. An impulsive and contradictory reaction to past fear that resists the stillness… Eren, admitting that she had reminded him of himself.

And in the space between these two responses, two more perspectives begin to emerge.

One comes through Colt, who embodies the many faces of fear when it silences us. His is not just hesitation but a sort of non bodily paralysis, the kind that comes from knowing exactly what should have been said or done, and being unable to act anyway. It’s the quiet weight of inaction, the lingering ache of a moment that passed while you stood still, held back by something you couldn’t quite grasp (+++the momentarily lack of the underlying disgust this usually comes with).

Then there is the ambiguity within Porco’s perspective, which feeds on the very fear he helped create. In him, I feel like there’s a fleeting inversion, an unsettling shift where the one who once inspired fear begins, even if only for a moment, to feel it himself. Predator becomes prey, and in that reversal, something fragile and revealing takes shape.

I’ll never shut up about how you describes all of this!!

Dare I say yn and her relation/perspective shaped around porco remind me of David by Lorde (screaming crying throwing up)…

ANYWAYSSS I adore how the tone softens, how it lets the harshness of those emotions slip slightly into the background without ever fully erasing them. It feels like this steady flow of duality that never quite hardens into a strict dichotomy.

I think we tend (as a generation) to divide everything too cleanly, to treat things that aren’t truly separate as if they exist in isolated fragments. I’m not even sure if that fully makes sense, but it feels true in the way we experience and interpret emotions.

What you’ve done, though, is create something much more fluid. There’s a quiet, beautiful connection between the two of them. How their experiences have shaped them into something strikingly similar, even if their approaches differ, even if they arrive there from opposite directions. They feel distant and close at the same time, like reflections that don’t quite align but still belong to the same surface. And like I said before… if perfection were something tangible, I think it would look a lot like what you keep creating🤗

I’ll end this by saying that yesterday I somehow managed to convince my mother to watch aot with me, arguably the hardest task ever but also the most we’ve gotten along in a long time. So far she really likes mikasa my woman, even though she can’t remember anyone’s names yet😭😭

Sending you the biggest hug & lots of love bby, take care, ily!!!

hello hello! i missed this in my notifs but i’m glad i caught it!!!! i’m doing good lovely, how are you??

i have said this from the beginning but colt is such a special character for me. i think he’s hyperrealistic and morally grey from what we’ve seen thus far. idk if i want to condemn him or understand him; idk if i want the reader to understand him just yet. colt is run by fear and so is porco if you really think about it.

DAVID by LORDE i could scream. “i made you god cause its all i knew how to do” – yn’s desperation to be acknowledged from her parents (figures who ur meant to look up to) x porco giving her a sliver of that kind of acknowledgement and succumbing to that no matter the consequence. i can also see the “i don’t belong to anyone” being a set point in her psyche after moving to trost which…… could make someone want to be closed off so they don’t go back into ‘belonging’ to someone and having history repeat itself (hmm) is she ever gonna love again?

i really didn’t wanna make them be people that come from the same circumstance. i think they’re the exact same and total opposites at the same time. i won’t say much but we’ll see the disparities more soon enough.

aot is such a good anime to watch w family that’s so cute!! but also i’d be at te edge of my seat looking between my mum and the screen every time a plot twist was about to happen i’d make it so obvious lmfao. she knows peak stanning mikasa #mommy. enjoy the rest of the show with her and sending you love <33

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bury the moon honestly feels like a breath of fresh air…the latest chapter is so intimate it makes me not fear it :) i love how well you write your characters—no matter their flaws (it truly makes them human) !! forever in love with your writing and how good the characters are!!! love love love your version of eren sm in this (maybe even more than submerged eren?? idk i loved him there too)… thank you thank you for writing!!! i will wait for months again if i have too :”)

oh…. :’)

never be scared because love conquers all !!!!! and i can’t thank u enough for sticking around and reading my silly little words on a site <3

btm eren is so much softer than submerged eren i’ll give him that, or at least, he deals with his trauma a lot differently (better) than submerged eren (less projective? less duplicitous?) i also suppose they’re two different people in different circumstances blah blah blah ramble ramble ramble—again, thank you <3 <3

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I MISSED UR STORY I MISSED U SO MUCH OHMYGOD THEYRE SO DOMESTIC AND JUST THERE FOR EACH OTHER :”))))

it feels so so so so good to be back i actually had a big moment yesterday where i fell in love w them all over again so i can only imagine what it feels like to be them, living in it, together (fuck my life i’m gonna cry)

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chapter 18: breath for breath

17k words because i love them

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inject it (untitled chapter 18 wip)

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every morning i wake up and think of you and how much i’m dying to read your writing and your thoughts. when can we hear from u again queen imy :(( come back im not okay

i'm sorry anon i know it's been a while but i finished the rough draft of the next chapter of btm today funnily enough !!! still a wee bit to go though because i wanna get it as close to perfect as i can

since this is anon i can't add a pic to this reply but i'll post a tiny little something rn

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I LOVE YOU AND YOUR WRITING SO MUCH. OH MY GOD

hi my darling :)))) thank you sm & sending love ur wayyyy <3

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How are you?

hi anon :) i'm doing good, how are you?