Caught in the Middle

Jamie Shafiq. 5th Year. Ravenclaw. Halfblood

[jamielost]

emmcsvances​:

she should know better than to let someone get under her skin and yet her patience was waning just like any chances of a decent mood were, “i was till you got here” she muttered, closing her book - she had a feeling she wasn’t going to be able to concentrate anymore –

“it was a joke” blunt as she eyed the girl carefully, “clearly you don’t have a sense of humour as everything is literal to you, don’t you have O.W.Ls to be studying for or would you rather waste time on my apparent embarassement?”

“You assumed I was judging you, but it probably would have been the same for whoever passed by. You were looking to defend yourself.” Jamie felt too comfortable with making the assumption, which was really more of a truth she’d learned in all her years of observing the students.

“You didn’t laugh.” She put bluntly, monotonously to the older student. When met with mentions of OWLS, she barely gave a shrug. “Seems I’ve got time for both, multitasking you see.”

[jamielost]

074. What is your character’s favorite game?075. Is your character ticklish?

074. What is your character’s favorite game?

She probably likes wizard’s chess as she likes anything with strategy. She probably grew up playing muggle chess with her father. As a pretty shy kid, it was a good game for her brain that let her interact with the world in a way she was comfortable with.

075. Is your character ticklish?

We’ll never know because she’s not gonna let anyone touch her long enough to find out. 

[jamielost]

078. How emotionally stable is your character?

Jamie can control her emotions almost only because she’s never really had the option to let them loose, that was taken away from her around age 12. 

When she was told about her parents, she had a burst of incidental magic that flooded Dumbledore’s office and literally exploded most of the books of the shelves and cracked most of the tables. That was really the signifier to the Shafiqs to hold onto her as someone who’s capabilities may outweigh her blood status. 

But Jamie can boil in her own rage, just accept it as part of her being. It’s channeled through her techniques in dark magic, ones that she barely wants. So at that point, it’s better to try and not feel anything at all.

[jamielost]

Turquoise: What is something that you’re afraid to say out loud?

“Cruciatus is ‘urting less when the spell-caster is a bi’ distracted, jus’ a word of advice.”

[jamielost]

why are you so rude to everyone? what are you afraid of? what's your biggest secret?

“Better to keep you away than see wha’ migh’ ‘appen if you get too close.”

“More people don’ need to be hur’. No’ worth the risk.”

[jamielost]

diivnna​:

“that’s an extremely cynical worldview.” she commented, she certainly hadn’t complained to fit in, or whatever that meant. she was a bit confused with the other, and shrugged in frustration, choosing not to deal with it instead of arguing. “fine.” she said simply.

“Wow, you catch on fas’.” Jamie condescended, turning back to her own book. It wasn’t a matter of patience, she could sit in agony with a complete look of calm on her face if she had to. It was about students’ constant urge to repeat every little nuance about daily life. They all experienced it, no one was special because they had an exam. 

[jamielost]

andrcmedcs​:

            ❝   so   you   don’t   study   at   all   then   ?      for   any   test   ?      preparation   always   helps   .      the   world   is   out   to   test   us   ,      no   reason   to   give   anything   but   your   best   ❞      insufferable   ,      that   was   the   only   word   for   it   ,      the   girl   was   insufferable   .      but   andromeda   forced   herself   onwards   ;      the   slightest   ,      almost   imperceptible   crease   to   her   brow   .      ❝   maybe   it’s   just   easier   for   you   to   think   that   ?      that   no   one   can   play   their   game   better   than   them   ?      makes   the   fact   you   maybe   haven’t   been   able   to   all   the   more   palatable❞

“The world isn’ going to play fair with a tes’ in school or out there. Flitwick can pu’ anything on his exam, le’s be ‘onest, and if I didn’ know i’ before I’m no’ going to know it’ hen.” But she already knew plenty, which Andromeda did not need to know. “Sounds like everyone is playing each other so again, seems pointless anyway. You care too much about things tha’ won’ matter in a year.” She assumed they wouldn’t and she would never let anyone know that she actually cared about it. Caring was a connection she wouldn’t afford herself. “If they wan’ you dead, married, or both...they’ll take whatever means...same as you. Tha’s why I don’ care.”

[jamielost]

ivytravers​:

“Let is a relative term, James- I’ve got my own money and I’m of age, I’d fancy seeing them try and stop me.”

“They’d pro’lly pu’ an imperius curse on you.” Her bluntness shone through, but it was all from personal experience. If underage magic was easier to get away with, she’d already be mid-way through other plans. “You’d have to pull a brillian’ oblivation charm or ge’ a glamour going strong enough to las’ till you’re dead.”

[jamielost]

emmcsvances​:

“i’m not the one lacking self control” the statement was a tad more defensive than she’d like to admit, but that tended to be the emotion whenever josephine vance was involved – her grandmother was one of a kind in that sense.

she would call this exasperation if it didn’t sting as much as it did – she wasn’t wrong, was she? half the time she was worried about the secrets that she kept for others, a boyfriend that was not so much her boyfriend at the moment - her fears – “i don’t recall asking for your advice, but thank you for your opinion” she muttered, turning the page as if she was actually focusing at this point. 

Jamie could have grinned at the girl’s quick response. “Only because you’re so calm righ’ now.” She was rarely in the mood to play with others, it was better for people to stay at a certain distance.

“You though’ I was judging you for reading tha’ book jus’ because you were sitting there and ‘olding i’.” Shoulders shrugged through a mass of curls on her shoulders. “My opinions means nothing accep’ the value you already attributed to i’ through your own...self-indulgen’ embarrassmen’.”

[jamielost]

diivnna​:

“perhaps i am, or maybe i’m just lamenting like others are, perfectly normal.” she agreed tenuously. dianna wasn’t stupid and she was allowed to be stressed like everyone else, so what was the point of calling her names? “i never said i had low expectations, perhaps you shouldn’t put words in other people’s mouths.” she shot back.

“Per’aps everyone complains over nothing because they think it will make them fi’ in more.” School social structures were set up for failure, Jamie convinced herself. “And I told you to no’...never said tha’ you said i’. Seems you’ve pu’ words in my mouth instead. You should think before you speak.”

[jamielost]

allaircss​:

            ❝   you   really   think   i’d   bother   ?      that   if   i   somehow   had   some   advice   you’d   actually   listen   ?      everything’s   always   about   you   and   your   struggle   ,      isn’t   it   ?   ❞      jamie   could’ve   been   fun   ,      could’ve   been   an   ally   and   yet   here   they   were   .      ❝   i   was   asking   how   you   felt   about   your   owls   ❞

“How I....? I don’ feel about my owls.” Jamie turned away from the girl who was insufferably attention seeking. The funny part was that she was positive she never really spoke to Ellie about her... ‘struggles.’ She barely thought of them to be so, it was just the facts of life dealt to her and sitting around doting on them did no good. Actually, the only good they did was when she felt the urge to nag at Aveline. If anything, Jamie relished and found joy in the weaker parts of this world. That’s where she was likely going to break through if they didn’t get to her first. “Make conversation if you must.”

[jamielost]

emmcsvances​:

“it’s not as pathetic as it looks –” she promised - sheepish smile at her lips, she could feed the curious gaze on her and she had a feeling that it had something to do with the book in her hands – Living With Legilimens: Choose Your Minds Wisely. it wasn’t that she frowned upon on self-help books, merlin their intent was nearly always useful, but the fact that she was eagerly trying to finish it before the year ended said a lot. 

@petrificusstarter​​

“I’ just looks like you don’ ‘ave the self control for i’.” Jamie shrugged, turning back to the book shelf. She wanted to dabble in occlumency and legilemency  sooner than later. After all, it may...help. “Or per’aps you ‘ave terrible thoughts and you never wan’ anyone to know. A’ that poin’ you should seek other ‘elp.”

[jamielost]

diivnna​:

“i thought exams in sixth year were supposed to be easier.” she grumbled, taking a step away from her studies to stretch her legs.

“Per’aps you’re jus’ stupid.” She had little tolerance for complaints. “Don’ ‘ave such low expectations.”

[jamielost]

“‘ere to instruc’ me as well?” Jamie muttered at the other girl’s entrance. Between Allaires, Shafiqs, and apparently now even Blacks, it seemed Jamie’s place in the world was changing and she didn’t really care much about it. “Dark spells and party formalities aren’ really something you do well.” @allaircss​

[jamielost]

ivytravers​:

“Fair enough, who would you bother if I was swept away because you choose to poison me” Ivy winked with a laugh. “I’m sure I’ll figure out some type of plan… maybe get a flat.” 

“I don’ bother people, they bother me.” While Jamie understood that poisoning your friend wasn’t the most serious thing in the world, not with good cause, she was still surprised this was something to laugh at. “They won’ le’ you probably. Can’ imagine i’ ‘appening for any of your lo’.”

[jamielost]

Pepper Imps: How do you feel about spicy foods?

“I don’t really care. I cannot express how much to you that I literally just don’t care.”

[jamielost]

hedgehog - favourite wild animal?

“Hyenas”