Hi tumblr, did you know that 9/10 times the first ever love you will find, will always be stuck in your head?
Damn, do i hate it that my first was such a hypocritical b*tch. I am a person who want's to know everything about you, so i understand you. But Jill, Jill was totally different. She never wanted to share her feelings, her thoughts or anything. We were dating for half a year now, and i knew her just as well as if she was a new friend of mine.
I never forced her to speak. I wanted her to be comfterble, but we knew eachother for 8 months and we were dating for 6 months now. Out of curiosity i asked why she didn't talk about those things.
Well i tell you this, she wasn't really greatfull for my interests. She got anoyed by me and wanted me to stop asking that so much. (It was the first time. the only times i asked about her "feelings" was whenever i asked how she is doing.)
Apperantly i had alot for her to change about myself, while this girl always used to say and i quote "You should never change the way you are. I love you and fell i love with you for who you are. So don't change" I mean.. does this means she was lying?
She said she loved me for who i was, and still she wanted to change me.
Next part tommow.
xo J













