The Crows Nest

Just a lonely crow cawing into the night. Rather it's poetry or songs, I know not how far they will reach or whom they will inspire. As I lay staring into the night atop this spire.

[jammasterjman]

Change

Tell me can you fix the damage that I have inside.

Another day goes by still I can't change my mind.

Will there ever come a time where these memories will disappear.

Or will I be left alone and be consumed by fear.

Back then every tear I shed was from my own heart bleeding,

And Looking back I realize all of this was from my darkness feeding.

Even right now, my past has paved another path that I no longer am needing.

So I keep my head up and tread carefully all those words I've been heeding.

Never give up

Never turn back around

No matter how far gravity pulls me down

I wont let the past consume all that I have now

I know theres a cure but I still refuse to take those words of wisdom.

Not because I'm stubborn but because I'm starting to crash and burn.

Why can't things be normal?

Why can't I ever learn?

When will the events unfolding start to turn.

All I can remember are the days I was still afraid to say what was needed to be said.

So I locked my heart, and kept my emotions

Hidden inside my head.

No more exposing strings that anyone can pull as they will.

But I fall back to those words I keep hearing still.

To Never give up

And Never turn back around

No matter how far gravity pulls me down

I wont let the past consume all that I have now

I'm waking up more and more with every truth I uncover.

Even though my skin is starting to harden like stone.

I'm feeling cold, and alot of people are starting to notice.

Will you still able to save me?

When I look into the mirror, the person I saw before is no longer worth fighting for.

I'm happy for who I am, and I've come to understand, I've become a stronger man.

Because I wont bleed without a fight and I wont let these words out of my sight.

So I'll Never give up

Ill Never turn back around

No matter how far gravity pulls me down

I wont let the past consume all that I have now

- Jammasterjman

[jammasterjman]

Memory

Im all alone

Sitting here beside myself

Thinking somethings got to change

I cant stay around this place any longer

I keep looking up

I keep heading north

I'm heading somewhere

That I've never been before

Each new day that passes me by

Keeps me growing stronger

I won't be held down any longer

struggle with my chains on

But every now and then

I slip through time

Losing my mind

Buried deep in thought

Where am I

I'm lost again

Somewhere within my memory

I'm staring out

Im holding back

Fighting to be free

I'm all alone

Tossing and turning

Trying to get my self

Back together

I move on

Turn away

But still the memory

Fades back into my existence

- Jammasterjman

[jammasterjman]

Moving On

(Intro)

When times were tough,

You were never around.

Too many excuses,

Too many lies.

Then one day I heard from a far,

You'd rather be with someone new.

My heart was torn, shattering to pieces,

Hearing I didnt mean much to you.

So much time and experiences wasted away,

I feel the tears falling beside me.

Too many memories walking out that door,

So few strands of hope, aren't worth dying for.

(Chorus)

Sometimes life never goes the way you plan,

You have to stand up, and be a man.

Somedays you just have to realize,

That you can't look back.

I got to keep moving on,

Stop pretending that nothings wrong.

Break apart those feelings and move along,

Because all that we had, has long been gone.

Day by day, I hear your voice,

Ringing through my ears.

For a moment I stop to look around,

But you were never to be found.

I start to think was this all planned out,

To many arguments inside I lost count.

Was I not there enough or already through,

Was it all that I've done, were my feelings not true.

I wonder now, where I could have been,

If I hadn't started on the road we began.

Don't worry, it will all work its course they say,

Just gotta live for tomorrow and forget yesterday.

(Chorus)

Sometimes life never goes the way you plan,

You have to stand up, and be a man.

Somedays you just have to realize,

That you can't look back.

I got to keep moving on,

Stop pretending that nothings wrong.

Break apart those feelings and move along,

Because all that we had, has long been gone.

(Bridge----)

You never move on with a broken heart,

You have to repair yourself so you dont fall apart.

If I could have told myself time again,

That once you forgive a mistake, it will happen again.

(---Bridge----solo)

(Chorus)

Sometimes life never goes the way you plan,

You have to stand up, and be a man.

Somedays you just have to realize,

That you can't look back.

I got to keep moving on,

Stop pretending that nothings wrong.

Break apart those feelings and move along,

Because all that we had, has long been gone.

(Outro) (voice fading)

I got to keep moving on,

Stop pretending that nothings wrong.

Break apart those feelings and move along,

Because all that we had, has long been gone.

- Jammsterjman

[jammasterjman]

MOVING ON

(Intro) When times were tough, You were never around. Too many excuses, Too many lies. Then one day I heard from a far, You'd rather be with someone new. My heart was torn, shattering to pieces, Hearing that I didnt mean that much to you. So much time and experiences wasted away, I feel the tears falling beside me. Too many memories walking out that door, So few strands of hope, aren't worth dying for. (Chorus) Sometimes life never goes the way you plan, You have to stand up, and be a man. Somedays you just have to realize, That you can't look back. I got to keep moving on, Stop pretending that nothings wrong. Break apart those feelings and move along, Because all that we had, has long been gone. Day by day, I hear your voice, Ringing through my ears. For a moment I stop to look around, But you were never to be found. I start to think was this all planned out, To many arguments inside I lost count. Was I not there enough or already through, Was it all that I've done, were my feelings not true. I wonder now, where I could have been, If I hadn't started on the road we began. Don't worry, it will all work its course they say, Just gotta live for tomorrow and forget yesterday. (Chorus) Sometimes life never goes the way you plan, You have to stand up, and be a man. Somedays you just have to realize, That you can't look back. I got to keep moving on, Stop pretending that nothings wrong. Break apart those feelings and move along, Because all that we had, has long been gone. (Bridge----) You never move on with a broken heart, You have to repair yourself so you dont fall apart. If I could have told myself time again, That once you forgive a mistake, it will happen again. (---Bridge----solo) (Chorus) Sometimes life never goes the way you plan, You have to stand up, and be a man. Somedays you just have to realize, That you can't look back. I got to keep moving on, Stop pretending that nothings wrong. Break apart those feelings and move along, Because all that we had, has long been gone. (Outro) (voice fading) I got to keep moving on, Stop pretending that nothings wrong. Break apart those feelings and move along, Because all that we had, has long been gone. - Jammasterjman

[jammasterjman]

Promise

Two years ago I failed a promise to keep And now its haunting my dreams every time I try to sleep There’s no amount of words to describe what I feel inside I’m just so angry that it was just a waste of time

These feelings I have felt long before Have resurfaced and it’s not something I can ignore Its times like these that it’s hard to keep on track Now it’s hard for me to tell who won’t stab me in the back.

And I’ll go, far away To find the place I’ve long for To find the person I’ve always been searching for

And I’ll go, far away And I won’t stop till my dreams Become my reality

I know my life has been a series of mistakes And I can’t tell you enough how hard it’s not to break These choices that define the person who we may be All come with consequence that not of us can see

Everyday we keep moving further from our past And soon these regressed memories no longer last I’ve seen enough to know where my life Has gone And I’m not going to keep standing here when I can move on

And I’ll go, far away To find the place I’ve longed for To find the person I’ve been searching for

And I’ll go, far away And I won’t stop till my dreams Become my reality

(These memories I hold) (the past that shows) (will never burden me) (and soon I’ll be set free)

And I’ll go, far away To find the place I’ve longed for To find the person I’ve been searching for

And I’ll go, so far away That no chains will bind me And all I have are my dreams right beside me

— Jammasterjman

[jammasterjman]

Who Am I Suppose To Be

I don’t know what been going lately inside my head, But if I don’t get a hold of myself I’ll be left for dead. I can see the reflection of a man whose lost his way, And day by day he struggles on to not remain a stray. Is it me, or is it what I’m fighting for, Is it me, or is there something I’m not seeing anymore, Is it even worth me caring for... Can you see inside of me. See who I’m suppose to be. Break these chains and set me free. Or will I become my own worst enemy. When the morning comes and the sun breaks the night, Will it be enough to reach me to help me see the light. I know I’m far from the place I once was before, But day by day I keep searching to return once more. Is it me, or is it what I’m fighting for, Is it me, or is it something I’m not seeing anymore, Is it even worth me caring for... Can you see inside of me. (inside) See who im supposed to be. (who am i) Break these chains and set me free. (set me free) Or will I become my worst enemy. (enemy) Is this happiness to far away. Is it worth the words they all say to me. And once I find this person im suppose to be. Will it be enough to set me free. -- jammasterjman

[jammasterjman]

I Could Use a Little Help Today

Dear God, I have a favor to ask today. Lead me to the path I need to find, And help ease my mind. It’s been such a long walk, And I’ve just about given in. It all just feels too dark, Can you help reignite my spark. Through the embers where my journey first began, I need to push further than I know I can. To learn from my mistakes, To bury my heartaches. It’s been such a long walk, And I’ve given up. I’m here praying on my knees, Fixing problems no one sees. No matter how much I endure, I fear the worst there is no cure. A war I fight on two sides, Tearing out my insides. Dear God, I have a favor to ask today. Lead me to the path I need to find, The one that will finally calm my agile mind. - jammasterjman

[jammasterjman]

Heartbreak

Tell me how am I suppose too , Keep living without you . Since the day we’ve been apart , I’ve tried to contain my feelings in my heart. Now there’s nothing left inside, Another chapter left behind. Now I have to start a brand new life, And You’re words still cut just like a knife. Of all the history we shared together, Why weren’t we the ones to last forever. Now I’m screaming tearing at the walls of heartache, Trying to stay alive not trying to break. All this time I’ve been thinking about you, I wish things could go back to the way they use too. I never thought I’d have to feel this pain again, I wanna go back to the moment you were always my friend. But now I truly see now why it’s over, Your curtains are down there’s no where for cover. Its taken a lot for me to see through your diguise, From the way you look into someone else’s eyes. For a moment, I loved you for who you are, But at this moment, I realized who you really are. I don’t want to keep following a dream that’s shattered, Now I have to start thinking about what matters. I hate starting over, I hate trying to find someone new, But what is there left for me to do, I tried saving a lost dream, I’ve had through and through, But you’ll never see of how much I really thought of you. Tell me why is it ever worth going through this pain, There’s really never a reason and nothing left to gain. Should everyone be told the reason why things end, Or should we seek out another reason to begin again. ---- jammasterjman

[jammasterjman]

Forever Never

I’m in shambles, running out of time I can’t breathe, trying to stay alive Lost inside without doubt, no I won’t be fine All I have left are wounds since you these cut ties Take a number and call my name I can’t believe I became another game Never real just false answers, guess I'm to blame It's never been so easy when all you have left is pain How can I survive another day when you ignored everything I say But when you look back my way I’ll keep holding my head up high from the hell you made me pay and I'll walk away How Will I Survive? How Can I Sleep? How Will I Carry On knowing you’re not here! Ah forget it just pour me another Beer This ruined soul branded with a tortured heart separated miles far apart But I guess in a way It’s for the best so I can find someone else another day I don't want a letter, or an apology The tables have turned clear over and I can barely see I'm tired of having these emotions constantly consuming me I just want some space right now so I can be free.

--- Jammasterjman

[jammasterjman]

Trapt

I know I’m trapt and out of time Living without you is far from being dead or alive

I’m fed up with this world right now I’ve become agitated it doesn’t matter how I’m done with this game living in shame Will someone come to me and call upon my name

I don’t need your sorrow to get by I can stand on my own two feet From the beginning till the end Its all the same my friend

Now I know I’m trapt and out of time Because living without you feels worse than being dead or alive

I don’t want to hear your voice It was apparent when you stuck with your own choice You shattered what was left of me You pulled my strings and destroyed what was meant to be

Now I’m moving forward with repressed guilt From the commitment we made that you never ever felt I’m done with living one big lie Its time to carry on and let it die

And because of you I know I’m trapt And out of time Getting rid of you now feels better than being dead or alive This is the best feeling ever No more strings to pull me down I can search for a new horizon And find someone that will treat me Like I deserved. from the beginning

For myself I’m sorry for the mistakes I’ve made But being alone means standing strong and not afraid My journey on this road begins a new Searching for someone better than you

Because I’m not trapt or out of time I’m moving on I’m getting by I feel so much better that I’m alive (it feels so much better now)

– jammasterjman

[jammasterjman]

How Will I Survive?

I’m in shambles out of time I can’t breathe when I’m alive Lost in doubt I won’t be fine I have these wounds since you cut ties Take a number say my name I can’t believe I fell for your game No more answers no more shame I still have to live with this pain

How can I survive another day when you ignored everything I ever say When you look back my way I’ll keep my head up from the hell you made me pay

How Will I Survive? How Will I Sleep? How Will I Carry On knowing you’re not ever here!

A ruined soul a tortured heart separated miles far apart But I guess in a way It’s for the best so I can find someone else another day

[jammasterjman]

Keep moving forward

Tossed into a world so cold I struggle to hold on to those words Hang on, don’t let go Keep moving forward and never fall into the unknown Go live and love Don’t give up go out and survive I’m being dragged down by my demons But I’m not letting my anxiety get the best of me You won’t see me face the dark alone As long as I have someone to fight for I will always have a home There’s nothing no one can change I’ve never felt so awake and alive I will survive and Keep fighting the good fight I will keep moving forward into the night Until I find the one who will show me the light

[jammasterjman]

Goodbye Friend

I feel the road we take is always better for what you make and no matter how far I’ll always be there in your Heart

I’m glad to have met an awesome friend till the next time we meet I’ll want to see you again For a long time I wish we were more but that doesn’t matter to me anymore

Like a steel frame encased around my heart I won’t let anyone tear what we had apart through thick and thin we will always be there for each other in the end

There’s been a lot on mind and I hope the next person that you find will give you a happy life and make you a proud wife

Till we meet again I’ll see you next time.

[jammasterjman]

Just Keep on Holding On

Someday, I pray you find your way. Fighting for a brighter day, living your life not caring what others say.

You’ve been lost for so long, Waiting for someone to guide you all along. But what your missing is a need, To come back!

I’ll keep on binding my time, for the one day I see who you truly are. But for now keep your head held high, Till you control your demons inside.

You say your life was a mistake, Too much pain, from these heartaches. Never thinking through the choices that you make, And yet you still challenge your fate.

Never lock away your heart, Keep it beating for as long as we’re not broken apart. Up till now you’ve been holding back, All this potential inside you.

I’ll Keep binding my time, for the one day I see who you truly are. But you for now keep your head high, Till you can control the demons inside.

[jammasterjman]

Through Her Eyes

She’s walking alone with her eyes contended with this day They’re so many tears streaming down that there’s puddles on the ground But deep inside she knows it That I already show it and she doesn’t need words to say because her eyes light up when she looks my way

Because Through her eyes There’s no way I’ll let her fall Through her eyes No harm will come her way And through her eyes She will always be apart of me For as long as I can see I will always be there when she needs me

Now again she’s running home carrying pieces of her broken heart She doesn’t think she can take much more as she’s questions what she fighting for But deep inside I know she knows it That I already show it and she doesn’t need words to say because her eyes light up when she looks my way

Because Through her eyes My fire ignites her will Through her eyes It’s always sunshine and daffodils And through her eyes She will always be apart of me For as long as I can see I will always be there when she needs me

– Jammasterjman

[jammasterjman]

Fire and Lightning

I can feel it The lightning that sparks within your eyes But your paralyzing grasp over my throat Will never contain my flame

As the passion rises within my being You feel an overwhelming sensation that you’re not seeing The hottest of hot, the brightest of stars Together we alone will take what is ours

Sparks and flames engulf the stage as the storm rises so does the inferno All I can fathom is this passion or lust as we continue turning everything around us into dust

Your words electrify my mind as my heat starts to crawl it’s way inside A war zone fought on two ends Breaking apart from where it all begins

Thunderous roars and blazing cries fill the room with endless ties Will we ever finish, will we ever learn When true love shows it’s trust that’s earned

I can’t tell you how many times my flames cooled or how many times you’ve been grounded But I do know one thing When the sparks fly prepare to be ignited

—Jammasterjman

[jammasterjman]

A great reminder to those of us who are still together and that passion is a flame that keeps us burning for more.

[jammasterjman]

Life Experience

I try to get by but there’s no one there anymore I try to stand strong but I feel so weak I can’t even think right now

And Yeah, isn’t funny though how much time you waste trying to make things work And in the end it’s just you talking to a wall causing severe depression till you’re tossing and turning in your sleep Hoping that this time of need becomes a time of passing

I try to be good and you left me alone I cared for your life as it were my own now we’re finished and there’s no place I can call home But I won’t let myself get down for the choices you shown Although these scars you’ve left on me will change my tone

By now you’re probably thinking about how this came to be was it really her or most likely me I was used just like smoke and mirrors, something no one could’ve seen but the one thing running across my mind is that I’m finally free

I know life gets rough from time to time especially when your partner tells you that you’re no longer mine But I want you to know that I’ll be just fine because without you I will forever shine

I try to be good and you left me alone I cared for your life as it were my own now we’re finished and there’s no place I can call home But I won’t let myself get down for the choices you shown Although these scars you’ve left on me will change my tone

Here’s for the final hope that I wish for all of you just take your time to get to know each other before you say I do Or you may one day be trapt within depression trying to struggle on through I will hope for the best and I’ll keep illuminating these wounds that have caused me pain because when these scars heal I will have had enough experienced gained.