Listening to the details of the lives of Janet’s band, Lenora had to wonder what exactly went on when you were a rockstar. Was it like the movies? Was it all drugs and sex and booze? She didn’t see Janet any different than the girl from her childhood, but she certainly wasn’t the same. Was she? The same, yes, but not quite. Lenora couldn’t put her finger on it. She was curious if Janet felt the same staring back at her. Except the look in the other woman’s eyes never wavered. An unfiltered love and devotion that Lenora searched for her whole life. It was the very look her parents gave to one another. “I’m glad Sean’s got the offer. But I’m not sure if that means he won’t be playing much for you?” she checked, eyebrows knitting together and willing Janet to decide on whether her reaction was a positive or negative one. “Freddie will find himself his soulmate. In time. Might not be this one, or it might be. But he will,” the blonde added with a smile to her face, a hopeful one for the man. Even if he might’ve not been looking for that at the time. She wasn’t too sure if he was as hopeless of a romantic as she was, after all. He could very well be enjoying his fame and groupies, and passing boyfriends. “Yeah I figured about Kevin. Just thought I’d ask,” Lenora continued on with a small chuckle. How could she forget their affair for three years? It was a wild one. And one Lenora tried to push away from her memory, no matter the amount of times it was brought up in conversation. “Are you…dating anyone right now?” The last she had heard, her best friend was currently single. However, these things changed in a matter of hours. You never could predict who you’d run into - and fall in love with. Just the other day, Lenora had swooned over the man who worked at the local florist shop. But just like all her brief daydreams of being in love with someone she merely passed by, the image disappeared as soon as he rang her up and she exited the shop. Giggling now at the idea of Janet playing chaperone, the daycare teacher nodded her head next to the brunette. “Oh you’d be surprised. They’re not that...robotic. They don’t just fall in line when you need them to.”Noticing the look again, but louder somehow, in Janet’s eyes, Lenora shifted slightly in the bed,“Am not.” Despite her shy behavior, flattered was the correct tone in her voice. She moved closer, bumping her nose against the other woman’s arm, before resting a hand flat against Janet’s shoulder. Her face slowly rose to peek back up at her best friend - a careful and hesitant expression flickering across her features. Until a smile flickered too and she leaned up to sneak a small kiss to Janet’s lips, lingering in the proximity for a moment, “Sorry…” Her voice was barely a whisper, a confused one at that. “Um… Don’t know why I did that, sorry.” She shook her head until some blonde strands fell in front of it, hiding her embarrassed smile.
Having watched and admired many rockstars when she was younger, Janet had a sense of what her future was like when she grew up... if she was successful that is. Luckily for her, life gave her fame and fortune and more importantly, a career that she never regretted going after in the first place. When she had grown up, her personality became a lot more dedicating towards her career; therefore, she was into the whole sex, drugs, and rock and roll persona. What surprised her was that even though she had everything a rockstar like herself could dream of, she still felt a huge emptiness in her heart. To fill that void, she brought groupies backstage, continued doing drugs, and even had excessive smoking rounds, but even with all of those things, she still felt empty. It was then that she realized she knew exactly what--or who was supposed to fill that void. Deep down, Janet was hopeful that Lenora would have the same feelings towards her in the future, but she was extremely worried about losing her completely. She was the one person that she just couldn’t live without... that she wanted to be with forever. “Yeah, unfortunately, he’s got about a few months left with the band. We might have to hold auditions, unless he bails and he stays with us,” she replied with a chuckle. “Oh I know. He doubts himself a hell lot, but hey, he’s my bud. Someone’s bound to like him sooner or later,” Janet followed up on her bandmate, Freddie. However, when she had referred to Kevin, she knew it would hit Lenora the most, considering she had a romantic connection with him in the past. Janet had to admit, she adored him, but she didn’t love him as much as she loved Lenora. He just... wasn’t a woman. When asked if she was dating anyone right now, Janet sighed heavily and shook her head. “No. Haven’t dated anyone ever since him. I had a couple of flings, but they didn’t last long,” she responded, thinking about how she had hooked up with a couple of girls at the IKAG house, including her best friend, Ruby. Nothing too serious ever came out of the encounters unfortunately. She did have her eyes set on her target for years, and she knew she wasn’t ever going to stop on that one, even if it meant taking risks. As they had conversed about Lenora’s job, Janet raised her eyebrows in surprise, not expecting to hear Lenora’s response. “Really? I’d expect one of them to fall out in the very least. But hey, you’re good at that job, I’d probably cause a hell lot of trouble with those kids. As if I don’t cause trouble enough with Zach,” Janet laughed. She playfully rolled her eyes and tapped on the blonde’s shoulder as if to knock some sense into her. “Come on, don’t lie to yourself,” she said in a bit more serious tone. All of a sudden, she felt the tension between the two of them rise greatly. The fact that they had gotten a little too close for comfort was enough for Janet to panic and shake, but surprisingly, she felt the most comfortable she had ever been. She took a moment to just stare in awe of the woman that was laying next to her, as she probably would never again experience another moment like this particular one. She was lovesick and wanted to do something about it. However, her thoughts were interrupted by Lenora bravely giving Janet a small kiss to which she tried to retrieve time to kiss back but to no avail. Her eyes widened in shock, which she quickly realized scared Lenora. She needed to find a way to calm her down and to make her feel like whatever she just did wasn’t bad at all. In fact, it was truly a miracle. As Lenora profusely apologized, Janet shook her head with a smirk and leaned in to kiss her again, a little longer this time, savoring the moment. “I’m not,” she whispered after pulling away to catch air.
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