Imagine.. Going On Holiday With 30 Seconds To Mars
"Jared, seriously, I'm not going to ask you again.." You say as you put all of the bags into the corner of the room. "Jared!" You say as you try to stifle a laugh, you could never be serious with him. Jared turned onto his back in the bed and opened one eye.
"5 more minutes?" He said is a deep, sleepy voice which made your heart melt. You walked over to the side of the bed, standing over him.
"No! We're already 10 minutes late leaving.. We'll miss our flight at this rate-" Jared quickly grabbed your hand and pulled you on top of him. The stifled laughter came out in little burst in between kisses.
"Just 5 more minutes.. Please.." He said as both of your noses touched.
"No!" You say again feeling his chest vibrate as he laughed.
"Okay.. One more kiss and I'll get up.." Before you could protest Jared cupped your cheeks and pulled you into him.
"Guys I've been calling you for-" Shannon fully opened the door and covered his face with his arm. "Oh for.. Guys, really?"
Jared looked embarrassed as he pushed himself up in the bed as his face flushed slightly.
"Oh yeah - we do it fully clothed that's right Shan." He said as he started to get out of the bed.
"Well, who knows what creepy stuff you're into Jared.." Shannon said with a smirk as he began to grab all the bags near the door. Jared gave him an angry look as he pulled on his grey sweatpants, red shirt and blue converse.
"Well.. Tomo, Mel and Alice are waiting downstairs anyway. Lets get going please!" Shannon sang harmonically as he left the room and began descending the stairs.
You turned you attention back to Jared who loaded his backpack onto his back as he slid his arm around your waist.
"I'm more of a morning person when I wake up next to you." He said with almost a serious tone.
"Well - I'm worried about how hard you find it to wake up when I'm not here." You say with a smile.
"Most of the time.. I don't want to." Jared said as he planted a kiss on your forehead.
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"How long until we land?" Jared asked Tomo with a hushed voice, aware that you were sleeping on his shoulder.
"About half an hour.. Is she okay?" Tomo spoke equally as quietly.
"Yeah she's fine, I told her to sleep and she would feel better." Jared said as you felt him stroke your back with his thumb.
Slowly you blinked awake.
"Hey.. How are you feeling?" Jared said as he grabbed hold of your hand.
"Better thank you, I don't know what it was.. Maybe I ate something bad yesterday.." You say brushing off something which didn't seem big. Jared's concerned eyes stayed on yours for a few seconds.
"Where are we flying over now, Tomo?" You say, observing the bright blue skies and buildings dotted below you.
"We're just about to fly into Phuket.. We're nearly there!" Tomo said, getting excited himself.
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The plane slowly came to a halt as everybody started to stretch their legs. After a long flight, you had finally landed in Phuket in Thailand for your first holiday with Jared, Shannon, Tomo, Mel and Alice. The boys had just finished the Love, Lust, Faith + Dreams tour and couldn't wait to go and unwind. It was coming up to a year since you and Jared had first gotten together and a long time being 'friends' and the last 2 weeks spent in his company had made you the happiest you had ever been.
"Okay, first we go to the hotel and put down all of our bags," Tomo scanned the disgruntled faces of everybody. "Well - there's no way we can carry everything to the beach!" Luckily, the hotel was only a fifteen minute walk from the airport and in the weather that Phuket offered, you really didn't mind one bit.
"I don't think you've stopped smiling since we came to London a 2 weeks ago.." Jared said as he offered to take your bag off of your hands to which you shook your head. You smiled so wide that your cheeks pushed up your sunglasses.
"I mean.. Why wouldn't I.. I have amazing friends.." You say as you looked in front of you to see Tomo and Alice walking together, discussing something that they couldn't stop laughing about and seeing Mel and Shannon walking, for the first time, together and they slowly spoke about something you couldn't quite hear. "I've just finished my first year in university.." You think back to how hard you worked in the year to get your finals up to scratch and it had definitely payed off. "I'm in an amazing country that I've never been to before.." You scanned the area around you that was drenched in golden sunlight and the temperature was so hot you could practically feel yourself tanning. "And I have the best boyfriend in the whole world.." You finished as you pushed yourself onto you tip toes to kiss Jared. Even then, he had to lean over a bit.
"And your fabulous, wonderful boyfriend is finally spending time with you.." He smiled. "Miracles really do happen, right?" You weren't sure because of his sunglasses but you would have put a bet on that he winked.
"There it is.. Just to the right!" Tomo announced as your neared a very grand hotel which had a fountain at the front. In no time at all you were in your air conditioned room putting all your bags down as fast as you could when all of sudden, you froze. You hadn't had time to really look around the room as everybody was in a rush to get to the beach so when you finally looked up and saw the view from your balcony you were speechless. The beach. The sunset. The waves. It was beautiful.
"You ready?" Jared called from the bathroom. When you didn't reply, he walked through.
"Oh, wow." He slowly walked over and laced his arms around your waist without breaking site of the view. He looked down at your awe-struck face and smiled softly. "Now you see what I see every time I look at you.." He whispered as he kissed the top of your hair. This comment pulled at your heart and you had to blink back the tears.
"Okay, let's go." You said, clearing your throat.
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It was nearing 8PM after you had finished your meal and had taken your time walking to the beach. The sand was getting colder and the waves getting quieter as you all slowly walked into the area. You sat up with Jared on top of a huge rock which overlooked the sea. Alice and Tomo sat further up on the sand talking loudly. Mel and Shannon walked on the shore talking quietly.
Jared slowly sighed and pulled you tighter into him.
"What I said earlier.." He began, not facing you. "I mean it, you know?"
"Whenever I look at you I see everything I want to be. I see somebody who inspires me. Who keeps me grounded but reminds me to never give up. Somebody who tolerates all the crappy things I put her through. Somebody who I love and somebody who I actually thinks loves me." He said slowly.
"You don't have to think it." You splutter, trying hard to keep your emotions in check. "You have to know it. I love you no matter what. You have to believe it because it's true." You say grabbing his hand like he did on the flight earlier. His smile said more than any of his words ever could.
"And what you said about not wanting to wake up when I'm not there.." You say, getting more choked up than before. You only managed a nod to which Jared nodded and he understood.
Everybody in life deserves somebody who understands the things we don't say.
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"I swear to God Jared I'm going to kill you by the time this trip's over with.." You say putting all of the diving kits into your huge bag. "Get up!" This time you couldn't help but laugh because you had thrown every items of clothing you were wearing in the evening at him to try and wake him up but instead of getting up he decided to try and put on your bra. Your laughter got louder and louder until you felt something making its way up from your stomach.
Quickly, you ran to the toilet. You managed to get the vomit into the toilet without getting it on the floor.
You hard heavy footsteps run quickly from the bedroom into the bathroom as Jared began to move your hair out of your face and rub your back.
"Oh God.. It's okay.." He slowly repeated as you continued to be sick.
"I'm so sorry.." You say as you begin to unravel some toilet roll and wipe your mouth. Jared stepped away from you to give you some space and lent with one arm above his head on the door frame.
"Oh dear.." You say trying to laugh it off but Jared new how much you hated being sick so his concerning eyes didn't lift. "You'd swear I'm preg-" You cut your voice off short. Suddenly, something you wanted to be a joke looked like a realistic possibility. Yours and Jared's eyes shot open wide.
"..Do you.. Do you think.." Jared voice wavered as he scrambled desperately for words.
"No," You said quickly. "Well.. I mean.. I don't think so.." Jared covered his face with his hand and scratched the back of his neck.
"That's.." Jared's voice started to get higher in pitch.
"Let's go guys.. We're leaving.." You hear Mel calling from outside your door.
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"Okay, I don't know about you guys, but this is what I've been looking forward to most of all.." Shannon said happily as you all walked down to the diving area of the beach. Mel smiled happily as he spoke. Something told you they didn't sleep on their own last night.
"Well we've got everything.. Snorkels.. Goggles.. Jared, did you bring the flippers?" Tomo said as he looked through the bag he had in his hand. You looked to Jared who wore his worried expression and looked a million miles away from here.
"Jared?" You whispered, giving his hand a gentle squeeze.
Suddenly, his shook his head and came back. His smile seemed to convince everybody else but you knew that smile when you saw it.
"Yes, of course we have. Are you ready for this?" Jared said with a voice that tried to convince itself. Shannon piped up once again.
"So bloody ready!" Shannon announced as he busied himself talking to Mel once again.
As you approached the pier like structure sitting above the water, Jared took off his black t-shirt to leave just his black swimming trunks and Shannon didn't even wear a t-shirt, just his red trunks. You looked at Tomo as the boys got their flippers and goggles on.
"You wouldn't catch me in there in a million years!" He laughed.
"Just not his scene, right?" Alice said as if to finish Tomo's sentence.
"Right." He said with a smile that looked at Alice more than anybody else looked at Alice.
"Let's do this thing!" Shannon shouted as he pushed himself up onto his tip toes and then dived into the water. Jared dived in quickly after and splashed the water so it hit you in the lap.
"Come on then you.." He said with a smile that you believe. "Come on in!" He shouted as you did a cannon-ball like jump into the water which covered him in water.
"Thanks!" He chuckled as he wrapped your arms around your waist more gently then he had ever done before. You couldn't help but smile, as could Jared.
"You're missing you Tomo!" Jared shouted as Tomo waved him off.
"He's really not!" Alice shouted as she turned and kissed him hard on the lips which made Tomo nearly fall off the wall they were sitting on. Yours and Jared's eyes met as you both had your mouths open. Shannon surfaced at that point and laughed loudly. Mel surfaced shortly after.
"For God's sake, are we all just in relationships but the people who were together to start with didn't know?!" Jared said with a laugh. Tomo and Alice nodded simultaneously. Shannon and Mel shrugged. "Oh God.." Jared chuckled as everybody erupted into laughter.
One by one everybody went and did their own thing: Tomo and Alice sat on the wall bathing in the sun and rubbing the back of each other's hands, Mel and Shannon kept diving underwater, deeper and deeper every time. As before, you and Jared splashed, swam and spoke quietly.
"I'm sorry about earlier.." Jared spoke quickly, out of nowhere.
"You've been thinking about that all day, haven't you?" You say as you scan Jared's face. He nods sheepishly. "What for?" You ask.
"How I reacted.. God, I was a dick. I didn't mean to be so.. unenthusiastic. I mean I was just.."
"Shocked." You finished. "Yeah, so was I." You say, stroking his cheek.
"Whatever happens.." He began stroking yours. "We're in this together. Nos adversus mundi. Always." You smiled under his hand as he slowly rested his lips on yours.
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As the sun started to settle in the sky, you all decided it was time to go back to the hotel and get ready to have something to eat in the evening. You and Jared hung back as the group walked.
"We're just going to go to the shops quickly," Jared announced as he continued to squeeze your hand tight. "We'll meet you back at the hotel." The others simply nodded and walked ahead as you began to walk to a pharmacy. In 20 minutes you had bought the pregnancy test and with trembling hands you both stood in the bathroom.
"How long do you have to wait with this thing?" Jared bounced his leg nervously as he sat on the side of the bath.
"2 minutes.." You whisper. The minutes dragged on until under your hand that covered the dial - was your answer. You gripped the test hard so neither of you could see. You stood up and quickly Jared came and stood right next to you.
"Whatever happens.." He whispered.
You uncovered your hand and you both held on to each other for fear the world would drift away.
