Jasmine's Corner

Anything and everything, live life to the fullest.

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

With real love, comes no pain.

- unkown

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

This is a deep piece, and yes I wrote it.

Dear God,

You say your my father, my healer, my guidance. You say you know all and see all you can lift the biggest mountains and your a God of love. Well where were you when I was torn apart?

Dear God, you see this world is full of sin and everybody around tries to feel your power with in. You said you wouldn't let anything bad happen to us but where were you then??

Where were you then, when I was ten sitting on the ground crying out loud begging for mercy into a crowd?

Where were you when I was 2 thinking of you with my mother as she left to give me home, you would have known what was going to be happen to me?!?! Where were you then when my innocence was stolen, and now I'm considered broken with words unspoken and prayers as well as questions unanswered. Where were you then?

Dear God, I have prayed to you night and day asking why my life started this way, when I lay in a puddle of my stolen virginity and I'm asking to please GIVE ME SERENITY! I'm crying out because I don't know where to go and I'm asking what's to show for it. I just want to be free from the trauma and memories within me.

Dear God, I was raised to confide in you, to stand beside you and let you guide me to eternity. I was raised to let your voice speak loud but all I see is clouds and thunder so loud that no voice has ever been heard from my ears. Well let's be clear, how can you hear a whisper in your ear, heart or soul, when your voice is supposed to be loud to the whole world. I needed you I cried to you, I screamed for you, I prayed for you. I went to church I got saved but I'm loosing faith so where is the way?

Dear God, how do I know what's right or wrong how do I know if I can still go on. How do I know if I'm okay, how do I know if you will stay. How do I know there is peace. Where do I go from here? Where can I go from here.

Dear God, keep my children safe better than you kept me safe. Let my children know more than what you have shown me. Hold my children closer than how you have held me. If your real then please show mercy. If love is love then why is there still hate. Help me God I don't want this to be my fate. You know what I've been through you've seen my scars shine too. I've been beaten and broken so where were you when I need you most?

Amen

JasmineBlack-(BlueDaisy)

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

!!!⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️!!!

... "Hello there how are you wouldn't you like to try something new? It will make your head spin and make your world turn but I promise you I won't burn."

"Sorry, but I'm fine even though I know it's a lie."

..."Well look at me I come in many forms, take me with you and you'll never be lonely again. Just one bite, just one puff, just one prick it, it won't even hurt."

"If you promise to stay with me and never leave my side even when I'm at my lowest never tell me goodbye."

..."Doesn't it feel good to feel invincible, stick with me and I'll be the new principal to your new life that is. Now that you've had me once you have to have me again.

"My family stopped talking to me ever since they found out about you, what are you telling me that isn't true? My friends tell me to get help but I found you and I thought you helped."

..." Some call me an addiction something you now have to live with, you may try to stop but then you wouldn't be able to cope without it. Now that you have no one left to love you, why don't you come to me and I'll love you eternally, just never put me down and send me away because when you do that's when you know it's true."

"Why me why did I do this, why did I stick to it. I don't feel better I feel like I'm going to loose it. I thought you were my friend but I don't feel as happy when I first tried it now I'm just stuck in a vicious cycle waiting to get through it."

... Addiction... "Welcome to my laboratory where everything is fun and games. I can make you laugh make you smile, and make you see everything burn in flames. I turn everyone against you since you choose to be with me. And now no one else can make you happy. Here I'll always be waiting for you to return even when you quit I know I still burn a scar into your soul. Here's the trick to me eternal demise you have to quit your job, your kids, and even the rest of your life. Now you belong to me and we can live freely aren't you just happy that you finally chose me? Now you've been convicted your finally free of me but once your let loose you tie a noose and pray it's me to save thee. Just remember with your own affliction I am always going to be your ADDICTION.

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

Depression comes in many shapes and sizes.

Sometimes a person like myself can be depressed and not know the reason behind it. It's like a sunny day and suddenly dark clouds appear out of nowhere.

For me its sometimes not eating.

For me it's sometimes not showering.

For me it's sometimes not wanting to get out of bed and be productive.

But Depression for me is also feeling like a apart of you is missing. Sitting alone feeling lonely when the ones you love so dearly leave. Even if it isn't for a long time, sometimes for a few days yet you still feel like they left because they are done dealing with you

For me it's not talking when everyone around me knows I'm known for talking ALOT.

For me it's degrading myself as a mother whole everyone else tells me good job.

For me it's many things, and it's different for everyone.

Depression isn't something to be taken lightly, it isn't something people should make fun of. It isn't a friend it's a dark passenger, it can't be fixed over night. It can't be fixed but "choosing" to be happy. I choose to be happy every damn day, but you can be happy and still be depressed.

-Jasmine Black(BlueDaisy)

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

Love shouldn't speak of death,

For where there is love death always follows.

Where the light touches,

Death will cause it to fade.

Where life is created somewhere,

Death is made elsewhere.

-Jasmine Black (BlueDaisy)

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

Those who truly care wouldn't abandon you.

Those who abandon you who most likely forget you ever existed if you died.

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

"Life is what happens while we wait for our appointment with the mortician."

-Dean Koontz (Author)

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

Be yourself, because there's only one you true you in this world. And no one can compare to your own unique beauty.

-Jasmine Black (BlueDaisy)

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

Being depressed doesn't make you selfish. It's okay to not be okay sometimes.

-Jasmine Black (BlueDaisy)

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

What has life done to you, that you haven't already done to someone else

-Jasmine Black (BlueDaisy)

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

You never understand the true meaning of loss until it happens in your life. Knowing you never said goodbye, knowing your last words can't be taken back. It hurts to know that the person you once knew will never come back into your arms. Being forced to move forward when your world was out on pause while your still trying to figure out what happened. You'll never understand until it happens to you.

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

Beauty is behind that mask you hide yourself behind. Take it off and let the real beauty in you shine through!

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

Sometimes it is okay to not be okay. Once you hit rock bottom there's only one left to go, and that is up!

[jasmineblack-bluedaisy]

If you get up and try again everytime, then there should be no room to give up.

-BlueDaisy