D-24 Break Up ; D-1 No Contact
Today is the 1st day i start comitting not to send him text, call him, check on his social media, whatsapp etc.
I haven't blocked him yet, it's more like he said he want to cut our communication in his last chat before he blocked me on whatsapp for almost 4 days (i had to block him first actually, but i stop my self from doing that, because i still have some issues with rest of my gym sesh with him, whether i'd use them or not) But he felt like i only blame him and didnt understand all of his explanation (like who didnt??? i mean it's him, the one who one sided-ly wanted to end our relationship right at that time without feels the need to fix it. No last 'i love/d you', no last hug, no last kiss, i only could hold his hand for the last time because I BEG HIM to...... he didnt want it actually. His expression, i dont know what kind of expression.... it looked like he's angry....
Yeah i dont have the urge to block him (deep down in my heart i still hope he will call or text me someday, but i know it's stupid and it's impossible)
I think if i still listen to songs i like to listen this year, it doesnt help with my effort to move on. So last night i start listening to songs from 1 or 5 years ago