Tumaruntum @jasmintees - Tumblr Blog

being the eldest daughter is so draining. parents holding you to higher emotional standards than the ones they hold themselves to. than the ones they hold anyone else to. always being so underappreciated for how you've raised so many people even though you're still a child. wanting to get away. wanting to stay for the sake of your siblings because they need you. feeling kinship to your mother for being underappreciated and overworked but wondering why it always has to be you to break the cycle. feeling like you're the parent and being painfully reminded that you're not when you go unnoticed again. wondering if what you want even matters, since no one seems to care about it. learning how to rely on yourself. learning how to prioritise yourself and feeling guilty for it because you don't know anything else. learning how to break cycles again and again and take care of yourself, since no one else is going to do it for you

lanaxs

“Fathers lose their minds a little when they realise their daughter isn’t as forgiving as their wives.”

yonaks

okay but the pure poetic cinematography of The Devil Judge? ep 7 was a work of art!

The scene with Jin Joo when she was becoming greedy for power, and thinking of usurping Yo Han. the way the camera slipped down to her dim reflection on a black surface, indicating how she is falling down into the pit of corruption surrounding them all

Fantastic but NOTHING compared to the scene when Ga On found out the truth, when his sense of justice was shattered. Morality was always the goal in front of him and what he strived for. Now it is behind, foreign and distant

The way he was walking in and out of the spotlight, reflecting him fluctuating between light and darkness, between justice and corruption of ideals

The way he could not find an explanation or an excuse for this, losing the struggle and his sense of what’s right, and being left in the dark

genius, iconic, legendary

sunlightnmoonshine

What's really interesting about the dynamics between Yohan and Gaon is the way the two are each others character foils.

It's very easy to stop and look at how traumatised and tortured Yohan is and think hey let him destroy people who cares and then you have Gaon who is that constant reminder that no, just because you've been through shit doesn't mean you can act out.

At the same time you've Gaon and his self righteousness and symbolism as hope and think hey maybe things should be done right and then you have Yohan revealing the darkness that is the system and you are left thinking who the heck cares about righteousnessness.

It's very poignant character writing and exploration and I appreciate all that but I'm all for the characters struggling with internal turmoil and all out going berserk because we are yet to see either Yohan or Gaon truly lose it. Can you imagine how phenomenal that will be to watch?

I have no idea where I was going with this but I'm just left with the thrill of how these characters are bout to destroy everything in some form.

vintage-kisses

andallshallbewell

inkskinned

a sibling relationship is just “i love you beyond my own life but i’ll never say it” plus “i’ll kill you over a stolen shirt don’t even fucking test me” plus “inside jokes and secret language” plus “i literally do not understand the dark recesses of your mind what the fuck are you made from” plus the occasional “oh my god please don’t eat tha - spit it OUT SPIT IT OUT”