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[javelinbk]

I’m done here, but I’ve been made aware of some recent posts, and I just wanted one last chance to clarify some things.

Like most John Lennon fans, I have always known about his history of physical and emotional abuse, and have never denied or tried to minimise it. I just didn’t particularly want to talk about it on my blog, nor spend energy trying to convince others of it. If other people want to take on that challenge, then they’re more than welcome to, and I have absolutely no issue with thehuxler’s reblog of that post. They blocked me, not the other way round.

I’ve only ever accused one person of plagiarism, and that was after two years of staying silent and watching them deny it when challenged by others. And I don’t use the term plagiarism lightly, but this wasn’t just someone taking other people’s ideas, this was someone copying and pasting an entire fic from another fandom and changing the names, which they have since admitted to. If other people think that my highlighting this is less acceptable than the plagiarism itself, then I guess we’ll have to agree to disagree, but I won’t apologise for trying to protect writers. But they’re still writing and obviously trying to move on, which is why I deleted my posts about them. I think everyone deserves a second chance.

I once laughed at someone because I thought they didn’t know what a mansion was. That was wrong and petty of me, and I apologised soon after. They clearly haven’t accepted that apology, and that’s their right to do so.

I mentioned in the kink meme server that I was taking a break from the fandom, but I didn’t say why - if people have drawn their own conclusions, then that’s on them. But as far as I’m aware, thehuxler has never been mentioned in that server, and I’ve never seen any hate towards them there. If someone says otherwise, then they’re lying.

I haven’t asked anyone to post anything or send any anons on my behalf, and if people have done so then I appreciate the support, but please stop. And I will never support anyone sending personal insults.

I never expected everyone to like me, or my blog, or my shitty gifs or shittier fics. All I hoped for was that the people who didn’t like me would just ignore me. I’ve made mistakes, I’m terrible at putting my thoughts into words, I get too easily annoyed when I see things that I think damage the fandom. If you think that justifies some of the comments that have been made about me in the last few months, then this is clearly not the place for me.

Thank you to all the wonderful people I’ve met over the past 3 years, and I’ll still be around to talk privately to those of you that know me.

Take care of each other, and please remember that these are real people behind the screens - and that includes your enemies as well as your friends.

[javelinbk]

A little bit crazy to me to what lengths people would go to interact with people they do not like or agree with. Like just block and move on bro

Assume this is about my anon from the other day? But yeah, that was my point - I didn’t agree with what anon was saying (John’s physical violence to women is pretty well documented, not to mention the psychological/emotional abuse he put Cyn and May through) although I admit I haven’t seen any of the posts they were referring to. But I don’t see the point of them complaining about other people’s blogs either.

Ultimately we’re all here for our own reasons. For some people it’s a place to debate serious issues, for others it’s a fun escape from real life. I don’t have a problem with either approach, but to stand on one side and throw tomatoes at the other seems a bit pointless.

I think the first rule of tumblr should be follow the blogs you like, ignore the blogs you don’t.

[javelinbk]

Intense staring across the club to the sound of tatu’s All The Things She Said my beloved

[javelinbk]

Is there any sane person here on tumblr where they're not constantly debating on who was the better guy, John or Paul? Like, is there someone that actually shows their flaws, and their good and bad. Instead of saying "well, John was a wife beater" even though that's been disproven MULTIPLE TIMES. Or that Paul never hurt his women even though he was the biggest playboy throughout his relationship with Jane - just like the others

Sorry about the rant, i'm new to the community and it's annoying

I think there’s plenty of differing views here, anon - you just have to follow the people that match what you’re looking for. And remember that just because someone shouts the loudest, that doesn’t necessarily mean their view is more valid than anyone else’s.

[sexchangedotcom]

careless whisper has never been a joke to me and it shouldn't be a joke to you either. george michael is the most serious thing in the world

[javelinbk]

Fic: Mother, May I?

A sequel to Brother Dearest and Father and Son

It isn’t Mendips, isn’t even Forthlin Road, but something about being in Mimi’s domain always makes the feelings of youth come rushing back. Forty-three years old, and John still walks that constant tightrope of desperately wanting her approval and being determined to never seek it. Paul says his ambivalence is natural, given the secret life they’ve lived for so many years, and John knows he’s probably right. But it doesn’t make it any easier to deal with. Just for once, he’d like to be accepted into Mimi’s house with her full knowledge of what he is, and not her idealised version of it. He wonders if he’ll ever know what it feels like not to live a lie.

[javelinbk]

Chapter 4, and we're done!

[javelinbk]

are you just a girl in the world

In some ways aren’t we all?

[javelinbk]

In My Life being used for an Amazon commercial, what has the world come to?

[javelinbk]

Me: The composite ‘Beatle’ at the start of the Anthology director’s cut can’t hurt you

The composite Beatle at the start of the Anthology director’s cut:

It gets worse

[thinkpink-20-deactivated2025122]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

John's living with his trauma and Paul's living with John. They're not communicating effectively (what's new!) and it's all about to go tits up...

[notgrungybitchin]

One of the Beautiful People: Chapter 8

He knew it was pathetic, but he would settle for this if it meant he got to keep that warm feeling in his chest and Paul by his side. And if it occasionally made him feel like shit, well, he was used to that at least.

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[javelinbk]

Paul McCartney talks about John Lennon on Parkinson, December 1999 - part one

Michael: It's still amazing that, all these years after John's death, that there's still this debate about the two of you, about the history being rewritten, revisionist history, John's this, and you're that. First of all... for people that didn't meet him, what was he like? Describe him to us, tell me.

Paul: John? He was beautiful. Very beautiful. Erm... he was a very complex guy, because he had a lot of tragedy in his life, you know, his dad left home when he was three, and he didn't see him 'til he got famous. He went to live with his auntie, and uncle... the uncle died... I remember John telling me he started to think he was a jinx on the male side, you know. And then his mum, John's mum, lived with another guy, who we used to go and visit, because he doted on his mum, but then she got run over by an off duty policeman, I think, one night and got killed in front of Aunt Mimi's house. And then his first marriage, you know, ended in divorce, so he had a lot of tough breaks, really, John, so I think he was very guarded, and I think the wit and everything was always like, you know, the shell that came down. But having said that, you know, that was one side of him, he was a very loveable guy, very warm-hearted, and a great friend, you know.

[javelinbk]

Fic: Mother, May I?

A sequel to Brother Dearest and Father and Son

It isn’t Mendips, isn’t even Forthlin Road, but something about being in Mimi’s domain always makes the feelings of youth come rushing back. Forty-three years old, and John still walks that constant tightrope of desperately wanting her approval and being determined to never seek it. Paul says his ambivalence is natural, given the secret life they’ve lived for so many years, and John knows he’s probably right. But it doesn’t make it any easier to deal with. Just for once, he’d like to be accepted into Mimi’s house with her full knowledge of what he is, and not her idealised version of it. He wonders if he’ll ever know what it feels like not to live a lie.

[javelinbk]

Chapter 3, and we're back with John

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[javelinbk]

For people that didn’t meet him… what was he like? Describe him to us.

John? He was beautiful. Very beautiful.

Paul McCartney interviewed by Michael Parkinson, December 1999 (link)

[windowdust]

Did an animatic to my favorite parts from John and yokos interview with Andy peebles on dec 6th 1980!!