Jaxson

[burningxthoughts]

"It's getting dark outside and inside of me too."

- Elli

[jaxson47]

I’m already dead, I just don’t know it yet.

[slowlydreamingaway]

[valentina-poem]

[deepthoughtsvibes-deactivated20]

At least.

Poem by me (—deepthoughtsvibes)

[erzestelenerzelemm]

[alittlebitmessedupgirl]

Source : Instagram -> @anxiety_within

[jaxson47]

I’m posting this here because nobody I know follows me on here but I’d be lying if I didn’t say I wish somebody that gave a shit saw it

I’ve been feeling fucking horrible. Every day I’m going through the motions and I know it has meaning, I have goals, things I want to achieve. I just feel so stuck. I feel like I can’t get better at anything physically or mentally. I don’t know who I am anymore other than this guy who works all fucking day and has nothing meaningful to show for it. Money is great, I want to be an entrepreneur, that’s not going to make me feel whole. I don’t know why but literally every girl just wants to play these games. I just want something real. I want to be happy, with someone. I’m capable of being happy on my own but eventually it just gets so lonely it’s hard. Nobody to share anything with, nobody to tell the things you’re excited about, nobody to relate to. Nobody to even fucking hug. I’m sitting in bed here all alone with all these thoughts to tell nobody about, and nobody to even just try to talk to so I can distract myself. Why can’t I just find a girl that wants to be treated right? Taken care of? I can be a little clingy but I’ll be goddamned if anyone will ever love you like I may have. I’ve got my flaws but I try. I try to fix them and make things better or do whatever I can and I try to ask what to do if I don’t know and I’m left with “Idk” and here I am, stuck, because I love you so much I won’t leave but I have absolutely no fucking idea how to make things better. We’re at a standstill and it’s for nothing. Without progress anything is for nothing. I can’t even put it all into words but this as descriptive as I’ve been with it, in a long time.

At this point, I don’t know if I give a fuck about anything and I don’t want to be here anymore.

Not like this.

[outside-perception]

[depressedbarbie]

[lamortalite-deactivated20120614]

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

““Yeah, I’m aware,” he tells her, “that both you and I are a mess.” “But hey, isn’t that what life is?” He slipped his hand into hers and gazed into her eyes, “Life is messy, love,” he said quietly, “and I need you.” “I need your beautiful mess, just entirely you.””

— Lukas W. // Forgotten Words #191 // Life is messy, and I still want you

[juansendizon]

“Love your person for who they are and not for who you expect them to be. If you can’t be there for them during the ugly parts, then being there for them during the pretty parts means nothing.”

— Juansen Dizon

[glossharry]

HSNJDJDJSJSJSJ

[vampireapologist-archive-deacti]

these are cosplays. this is a fucking vine con and these are cosplays.

[outside-perception]

[rejected-transboy]

I MISS YOU.

[cutewriterinprogress-blog]

Missing you was never the plan, but here I am.

(late night thoughts, late night lyrics)