p a r a d o x

every hour past five is happy hour until the sun comes up

[jaycaruso-blog]

as yasmin’s gaze reached up, she wasn’t sure if calling out had been a mistake. in the moment, she wasn’t sure how to have a conversation with the person in front of her. after all, how does one slip ‘ hey, by the way, i’m your sister, ’ between asking where the paper towels and chips go? yasmin pushed a thin smile on her face, waving back uncomfortably, “ i guess i’m in luck, i did. ” she then began to remove some things from the bags, trying to make herself busy, unsure of what to say or do. “ i’m yasmin, you’re… ” she paused, as if she had to think about the name, “ jamie, right ? ” a pause, “ was that super creepy ? like, already knowing your name ? ”

Jay watched her awkwardly wave, luckily he felt as nervous as she seemed. He just thought she was incredibly talented and quite stunning. To say that he had a little crush on her would be completely fair because he found himself trying to be cooler than he was. “Jay, actually. I always thought Jamie was kind of a girl’s name,” he replied. “Also, totally not creepy okay. I’m actually flattered you even know who I am because you’re, you know, you,” he gestured to her. “Plus, you know it’s important to know the names of your brother and sisters, there’s only so many of us on the show. Let’s see, there’s you and I, Tyler, Griffin.... I don’t know who else I’m suddenly blanking, but there’s not an overwhelming amount of white people on the show, so it’s pretty diverse.”

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“but now all of america can see that cute face again. and i get my friend back so it’s a win-win in my book.”

“Like I’m the one with the cute face between the two of us, yeah right. But it is a win-win for me too. How was your break? You and Charlie go do anything fun?”

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there was a slight tint to her cheeks as he brought how they had ended the first season. it hadn’t been that hard for the two to basically forget that the cameras were rolling 24/7. with a roll of her eyes, she shot him a smirk. “and who’s fault was that?” she chided. “i’m sure the production team had a blast editing all of that footage.”

“It’s both of our faults, don’t try and push this one on me, V,” he shook his head before pulling her in to give her a little kiss on the forehead. “I’m just surprised we managed to escape the cameras a few times because we said some pretty raw shit that the whole world doesn’t need to hear.”

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“Anyone have a clue as to where our first destination is gonna be? I’m going to  need ample time to pick the perfect outfits to pack.”

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“Honestly, as long as it’s anywhere but here, it’s going to be so much fun.”

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carrying the two bags in, yasmin figured she’d gotten enough food for at least the next couple days with these scavengers. while most seemed to think the food magically appeared, someone actually had to go buy it. hearing footsteps padding by the kitchen “ no shot you want to help me put these away i take it ? ” she called after them, maybe ( and this was a long shot with some people ) it would be enough to get their help.

[jaycaruso-blog]

He had heard someone getting food, so the kitchen was the place he was going to go. He hoped that they bought a good variety of food because some people just sucked at getting it. While he was going to go into the kitchen, when he saw who it was, he got a little nervous. He had heard that Yasmin was going to be on the show, but he didn’t know she would be here right now. He tried to scurry away before she called out, which made him stop dead in his tracks. Pausing for a moment, he tried his best to keep his fan girl to a minimum. After all, it was a show with literally celebrities on it. “Okay Jay, it’s fine, it’s fine. She probably doesn’t know you so just you know, be cool,” he whispered to himself before turning around to go into the kitchen. “Hey, hi,” he sheepishly waved. “I’ll help you, but only if you bought mac and cheese.”

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“hey, you didn’t really step up your game either,” vic chuckled. “let’s be real, you could’ve been a lot smoother than you were jamie and then this would’ve happened a long time ago,” she teased. “poor jim. maybe we should see if they’ll give him a raise for putting up with our bullshit.”

“Me smooth? Not with you, not ever. Anyone else, I make them melt into my hands, but you babe, yeah I’m definitely weak for you,” he shook his head before squishing her cheeks together. “Probably not, but Jim loves us.”

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there was a slight tint to her cheeks as he brought how they had ended the first season. it hadn’t been that hard for the two to basically forget that the cameras were rolling 24/7. with a roll of her eyes, she shot him a smirk. “and who’s fault was that?” she chided. “i’m sure the production team had a blast editing all of that footage.”

“I definitely think it’s your fault for holding out on me for all those years growing up. Imagine, we could’ve been into it the whole time,” he grinned at the thought. “Now Jim just has to suffer again.”

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“who would’ve thought people liked us so much that they were begging for a season two before the first one even finished airing,” the girl chuckled. it had been a nice month off and it was a weird feeling to know that every move they made was being recorded once more. “the break from it all was definitely needed.”

“I’m sure Jim, the camera guy, had to get a break from us all the time too. I mean, really it was a little concerning there near the end,” he nudged her referencing how they couldn’t seem to keep their hands to themselves.

[jaycaruso-blog]

open to anyone

“Oh holy shit, it’s unfortunately real again. I kind of liked not having the cameras around. I turn my head and boom there’s like a whole crew watching our every move again.”

[jaycaruso-blog]

ILL BE HOME EVENTUALLY (tomorrow night) my friends came to town to visit so you know. HMU w plots tho

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ya girl is officially done with undergrad 

I’M CRYING 

just have to make it through the ceremony now

[keiynanlonsdalesource]

[jaycaruso-blog]

@jaycaruso-la-ti-do: do not touch or lick the exhibit 

[jaycaruso-blog]

you guys, i have just two papers and a small portfolio to put together and i’m OFFICIALLY DONE WITH MY UNDERGRAD CAREER HOW WILD.!!!

[jaycaruso-blog]

hey guys!!! 

i’m taking a lil hiatus bc graduation soon and i need no distractions bc the time to procrastinate is slowly but surely dwindling down to NOTHING so 

i’ll be out until next week, hope you can survive w/o jay and sarah

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“i can understand that,” she nodded. after all, she had just spilled her guts out about something she swore to herself she would never speak of. but as jay continued to speak, victoria kept her mouth shut and let him get it all out just as he had for her. his story took her by surprise and she couldn’t help but feel awful that he had gone through all of that on top of dealing with her being gone. if she hadn’t left, who knows how different their lives would have turned out. “oh jamie,” and even though he moved away from her, she was quick to tug him back over and tightly wrap her arms around him.

“You can’t tell anyone about it, Vic,” he whispered to her. “I mean that from the very bottom of my heart you cannot tell a single person,” outside of his parents, she was the only one who knew. “And I don’t like talking about it or thinking about it,” he sort of sunk in to Victoria’s arms. “I don’t even know how to deal with it.”

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lmao i’m having the hardest time with my senior sem because i don’t understand it and I DON’T CARE ABOUT IT AT ALL so rip me graduating l m a o

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stifling a laugh, she shook his hand and nodded as if she was meeting someone for the first time. “well it’s nice to meet you jay caruso, i’m victoria sparks. i was new york’s sweetheart until my crazy mother sold me to a drug lord to pay off her debts instead of being a decent human being which in turn caused me to leave behind my best friend since birth - let me tell you, one of the shittiest things.” upon feeling his thumb brushing over her cheek, she couldn’t hold back a smile. though it faded slightly as he continued to speak. tyler had been right, something she never thought would cross her mind. but two years apart had been rough on the pair and they both needed to figure out who they were apart and together before they could get back to how things were before she had left. “i get it,” vic murmured softly. “we wouldn’t be good together right now. it wouldn’t be healthy for either of us. friends, however, i think i would good. because i can’t imagine not having you in my life and if for the moment that means just friends, then that’s good enough for me. i just need my best friend back. so no more secrets, no more lies. the one hundred percent honest truth with each other from here on out, just like we used to.” clearing her throat, she thought it over for a moment before speaking, “what baggage are you carrying from those two years?”

Jay was glad that Victoria could agree that right now wouldn’t be the best for them as a couple, but there was a small part of him that hoped it was temporary. But when she asked him her question, he froze. “I uh... I don’t really like to talk about it... At all,” he admitted to her. “I mean, it started with the depression, the trauma of thinking your best friend is dead really takes a toll on you as you’re entering your young adult life,” he started explaining to her. “So it was alcohol first and then it was drugs. Different parties, different people, different beds. I was going so fast, my foot just to the pedal and bam,” he paused. “I crashed, I crashed hard,” he paused before thinking about how he was going to tell her his secret. “I uh, actually got into a really bad car accident,” he started to tell her. “Drinking through life and taking drugs to help me feel something other than pain is what I wanted. But when I finally woke up behind my wheel, I woke up to ruin,” a small tear rolled down his cheek. “The only thing worse than thinking your best friend is dead is knowing that you killed someone else’s best friend and that they would never get to say they loved them to her again,” he moved away from her trying to remain stoic.