jay lewn

🖤🥀

[jaylewn]

we sat on your doorstep, was good for a night,

found my words in a bag and a bottle, i was young,

said i love you but your silence was enough.

[jaylewn]

SATELLITE KID

a project that has lived with me and in me for so long is finally out in the world. please take it in when you can. i’ve moved mountains with so many of my close friends and collaborators to make a body of work that i’m truly proud.

SATELLITE KID is a concept record that follows ‘the heroes journey’ and takes place in the summer of 2019. i was in a pretty bad way mentally and had one of the most difficult breakups. the word ‘satellite’ refers to the idea of otherness. just as satellites orbit earth and see the light they are not close enough to feel its warmth. growing up in a satellite town to london, beginning to understand my identity and sexuality i’ve always felt the same energy; close enough but never fully feeling apart of the conversation. i was able to experience the same feelings as everyone else, love, heartbreak etc. but was one step removed and never able to address things head on. SATELLITE KID is how i reconciled myself to these feelings and it’s a shared identity that can resonate with so many people who are simply just trying to understand their place in the world.

thank you to everyone who contributed to the music, i’ve been challenged and inspired by all of you to make the most honest and true art possible.

j x

[jaylewn]

00 - prologue

SATELLITE KID is a concept record that follows ‘the heroes journey’ during a summer of my life.

the word satellite refers to the idea of otherness. just as satellites orbit earth and see the light they not able to feel its warmth. growing up in a satellite town to london, beginning to understand my identity and sexuality i’ve always felt the same energy; close enough but never fully feeling apart of the conversation. i was able to experience the same feelings as everyone else, love, heartbreak etc. but was one step removed and never able to address things head on. SATELLITE KID is how i reconciled myself to these feelings and it’s a shared identity that can resonate with so many people who are simply just trying to understand their place in the world.

i can’t wait to bring you into my universe, love jay x

[jaylewn]

testing.

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crash into my world like its nothing,

and tell me next year, we’ll be clear,

but you never said freedom,

would turn into a free fall.

[jaylewn]

you throw your hands, you hit me right in my chest,

thought i was dreaming, had no time to prepare,

if i'm nothing to you baby, why is nothing worth repeating?

why?

[jaylewn]

sk 4eva.

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lightbeams.

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like you've never seen before.

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been so long, i wonder if you got taller?

i’m not mad, i just needed some time,

look for answers in a bag and in bottle,

so i dyed my hair, bought some clothes,

but i can’t change emotions of mine,

and i’ll have a thousand fights in the shower, i’ll win every one,

cos i’m insecure with a god complex, guess i’m down on my luck.

[jaylewn]

[jaylewn]

bts.

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b l i n d s i d e r .

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nike superstar.

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living we're just blood and bones,

tripping on our pheromones.

[jaylewn]

there’s needs time to think or feel just let this rhythm move you flood your brain,

there’s needs time to think or feel just let this rhythm move you its insane.

[jaylewn]

acting like a saviour lately,

pick your halo up off the floor,

emotional but it won’t phase me,

cos i've seen a black dog before,

raise your bar higher, i’m man on a wire,

throw your daggers, daggers at me,

won’t cut me, no, i won’t bleed,

you give it all that, talk shit at my back,

throw your daggers, daggers at me,

won’t cut me, no, i won’t bleed,

you blindsider baby,

you got me fucked up,

i hate it, but i’ll never say it to ya.