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Jay || Post-What-I-Want Blog

[jaylovsblog]

So I'm thinking about getting a job at a coffee place, but idfk if I should do it because I have social anxiety and I hate talking to people. And I have to greet people when they walk in the door and talk to them in the drive way so maybe I'm not fit for the job.....anyways I just needed to rant about that....goodnight

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Watching the 2nd season of You and I honestly didn't think I would like but.....uugghh I do and I hate myself for it 🤭

[theartisticapparition]

I found a thread and decided… Hm… Maybe a need a little bit of sin afterall…

[sir-subpar]

Someone out there make this show! Please!

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Watching You for the first time and.....I understand why my mom doesn't like it when I use dating apps 🤨

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LOVE THIS #Moxieforever 😝

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BOYS ARE OVERRATED

SOOO!! This guy i used to like just texted me and already has fucking drama which is stupid asf bc i’m friends with the other boy who has beef with him! BUT THE GUY I’M I LIKED WON’T TELL ME SHIT!! LUCKLY the guy who he has beef with told me a little bit about what happened. I really like him but honestly him not being able to tell me shit about his life is pissing me off and i can’t tell him nothing BC I’M A GOOD PERSON!! AND I LOVE HIM HAHAHA!! Jesus I NEED HELP!!

[jaylovsblog]

I feel great that I got this off my chest!!!

So I’m watching Tv with my cousin and I seen this girl play with this guys feelings. And it just brought me back to when I felt like I was special to someone but then they just change feelings in a second. I liked this guy who was in ROC with me and we were friends but he kept flirting with me so I started flirting back. I liked him and he liked me so I asked him to come over to my friends house and he said yes. Long story short....we made out that night, then we cuddled and started having a serious conversation until I started to feel sick and we went inside. He stopped talking to me for weeks then he went over again he confessed his feeling for me but it wasn’t true.....after a few months he hooked up with one of my best friends even though they both knew I liked him. They lied to me for a few months and I had to find out from her mom which sucked big time and I’m not gonna lie it hurt me for weeks like he genuinely broke me to the point where I don’t trust anybody who I talked to bc of it.....I did something bad and did things with him when he had a girlfriend who he was dating for 8 months....I kissed him...I felt dirty, disgusted and just had guilt for a long time and I still think about it to this day of how I could’ve just never met him but then I wouldn’t be the person I am today....That’s how this story ends....I kind of needed to get that off my chest and it felt good. 

[jaylovsblog]

So...It's been a while since I have been on here but I just wanted to let you guys know that I wrote the first chapter of my first ever POV fanfiction!! WOOO HOO!! I'm not finished but I would really appreciate it if you guys would check it out and tell me what you think!

[jaylovsblog]

idk what to do

I met this boy in 8th grade, and the first thing I did was run up to him and tell him he was cute. It was nerve wrecking for me bc I had no idea what he was gonna think of me after that. Well one of my friends called me and asked me to come over bc the same boy got her number and she didn’t know what to say, so I helped her. I was the only one talking to him at first until my friend wanted to ask him a question and his answer wasn’t bad but she got upset bc it was about someone she didn’t like the person he was talking about. So I had to hang up on him after that bc my mom came to pick me up, I got his number and we started talking on the phone everyday for about 3-8 hours all day. It was the best feeling ever to have someone to talk to everyday and we would talk in school but it would be boring from the other things we used to talk about on the phone. There was drama but after a while we drifted apart, but now we’re texting and it’s hard bc he disappears for a while, and I just want to tell him how I feel but I’m afraid that he won’t accept how I feel. I honestly don’t know how to handle this, but I have to figure it out....

[jaylovsblog]

tired....

I have been up all night and I am so exhausted but I have to go to school. Well it’s my fault for not having a normal sleep schedule....just 36 more days and I won’t have to worry about waking up early... you know teachers say if you don’t want to be here then don’t be here but whenever we miss so many days of school, our parents end up getting in trouble and your just like “bruh.. they literally said don’t come like wtf”....Idk it’s weird how we can’t miss so many days and not get in trouble, unless your moving then they probably don’t care. BUT!! enough of that!! GOODMORNING 

[jaylovsblog]

So just something you guys should know about me is that I believe in ghost and anything paranormal. I love ghost stories, I love scary movies, and I love going to haunted places. But for some reason I really want to go to Zak Bagans museum to check out everything that he has. This is going to sound dumb but I am terrified of The Dybbuk Box. Not only bc it has a Dybbuk in it but just bc of the fact if you touch it you will become cursed. I'm debating if I should go there for my birthday..... or should I not go? I need answers

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IM SAD

So i lost all of my friends today for personal reasons and stuff but i’m so sad because they were treating me like shit…i don’t know what to do right now…i’m not going to talk to them because i cant be friends with them right now….they make me feel bad about myself when friends shouldn’t do that to you. I’m so upset and i wanna cry but no tears will fall, i don’t know why they kept bashing on me….they told me i was making excuses, and i’m not going to have friends who treat me like this……i need new friends who will treat me with the respect i deserve instead of being mistreated. Sooooo…….HMU if you want to be my friend!!!!!

[jaylovsblog]

GOOD NEWS!! I am no longer friends with them because they treated me like complete utter shit and I haven’t talk to them for almost 4 months and I’m really happy about it!!

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I’M BACK

Guess who’s back?! That’s right it’s me and I’m really happy to be back 

[jaylovsblog]

SOOOOOOO..........I really like this boy at my school and idk if he feels the same way, and im kinda scared he might.... which is really confusing.... HELP!!!!!!

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SOOOO...........I LIKE SOMEONE AND THEY LIKE ME BACK....WTF DO I DO 😖😖

#yearning #crushing #help #confused

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I...AM...CRYING...EVERY 4 SECONDS

I’m so fucking emotional right now....and i really really don’t want to go on this drive but i really want to see my sister, but i don’t want to feel sick...i was perfectly fine this morning all excited...i was happy but now i’m so sad. I think it’s because i don’t have my friends with me to comfort me and tell me everything is going to be okay...UGGGGHHHAAAAGGGGGHHHHH............WHY DIDN’T I JUST SAY SOMETHING ELSE LIKE WTF OMG....I HATE MYSELF FOR LOOSING THEM WHEN I NEED THEM THE MOST, I’M SO BROKEN :’(  

[jaylovsblog]

IM SAD

So i lost all of my friends today for personal reasons and stuff but i’m so sad because they were treating me like shit...i don’t know what to do right now...i’m not going to talk to them because i cant be friends with them right now....they make me feel bad about myself when friends shouldn’t do that to you. I’m so upset and i wanna cry but no tears will fall, i don’t know why they kept bashing on me....they told me i was making excuses, and i’m not going to have friends who treat me like this......i need new friends who will treat me with the respect i deserve instead of being mistreated. Sooooo.......HMU if you want to be my friend!!!!!