WILDFLOWER.

you want to die for love.

[jazzzly]

im back

He

[jazzzly]

the fact that bennys mum used to call his freckles sun kisses so he’d feel more confident w them n his dad would go on to explain that apollo blessed him .... rlly has my heart 

[daisies-daily]

I’ll stick to bees. At least they know what home is.

[jazzzly]

the signs as feelings

aries: that feeling of excitement when you're breaking the rules, your heart pounding in your chest, and when you're about to get caught but you run, breathlessly, with your adrenaline all pumped up.

taurus: the feeling when you're listening to music that makes you feel pure joy in your heart. the happiness that is so big, that it feels like sadness. so you just feel happy yet melancholic.

gemini: the feeling when you're laughing so hard, that your mouth starts to hurt from smiling too widely, and your stomach starts to feel like it'll grow abs.

cancer: the wonderful feeling of finishing the best book you have ever read, with tears at the edge of your eyes, and the strange feeling of sorrow happiness.

leo: when you found the perfect outfit, and it just fits you so perfectly, and you feel extremely confident. all you want to do is smile as wide as you can, and show the world how beautiful you are.

virgo: the joyous feeling of helping people in need, and having them look at you with bright gratitude in their eyes and thank you. you just feel really proud of yourself for changing someone's life.

libra: that feeling when you love something so much, you can't help but think about it all the time. and you always smile when you think of it, and it just makes your life amazing, and worth it.

scorpio: that feeling when you stare at the stars, observing all the constellations and thinking about how big the universe is. you finally feel hope, because the world is so huge, there are so many opportunities.

sagittarius: that rush of adrenaline when you're dancing to your favorite song, and it's just so fun. your heart is filled with delight, and you're lip-syncing to the lyrics.

capricorn: that feeling of accomplishment when you pass a final that you were so worried that you were gonna fail. you feel done, and sigh with contentment, and you feel like all you need to do now is relax.

aquarius: the feeling of new-found friendship, and you suddenly have a best friend. you have found someone who shares all your interests, and you go on adventures together.

pisces: the feeling when you have been day dreaming about the life you want, and suddenly sink in to that life. you feel bliss, and all you want to do is stay cuddled up in bed, and dream.

[jazzzly]

[ C ] LASSEACT.

           expression   falls   automatically  ,     against   all   will   and   wish .      it’s   as   natural   as   breathing   when   he   sees   the   tears   welling   in   the   other’s   eyes   and   everything   in   him   simply   wishes   to   rebel   against   that   truth .       𝐘𝐄𝐓  ,     𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆   𝐔𝐏𝐎𝐍   𝐈𝐓   𝐖𝐀𝐒   𝐀𝐋𝐋   𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓   𝐇𝐄   𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃   𝐃𝐎 .       dragging   out   the   lie   was   everything   he   needed  ,     and   yet   everything   he   hated   at   the   same   time .      he   looks   down  ,      briefly  ,     gaze   on   a   space   of   the   covers   between   the   two   of   them .      then   it   lifts  ,     and   focuses .         𝐈𝐓'𝐒   𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐄𝐑   𝐓𝐎   𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐔𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐄   𝐀   𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐎𝐍𝐒𝐄   𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐍   𝐇𝐄   𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐈𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐃 .      what   he   could   do  ,      what   he   could   say   to   perhaps   make   the   feelings   worse   were   suddenly   something   abhorrent .       unusually .      𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐒   𝐁𝐄𝐂𝐀𝐔𝐒𝐄   𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐑   𝐖𝐀𝐒   𝐒𝐎   𝐅𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐑   𝐀   𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 .      just   brush   it   off .

             words   are   voiced   as   a   joke  ,     but   underneath   runs   a   tremor   of   self   deprecation .     ❝       then   you   won’t   have   to   put   up   with   me   annoying   you   anymore .       𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐁𝐀𝐁𝐋𝐘   𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐀   𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓   𝐈𝐓   𝐀𝐒   𝐀   𝐁𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆 .      ❞

a blessing ?   what about that would be a blessing ?   there were many things that people could   ( &,   probably,   should )    count as blessings,   such as family,   friends,   the fact that dogs still wag their tails at passersby despite all of the hardships that the world hoists on its shoulders.   blessings were things people gave to married couples and babies.   death wasn’t a blessing;   it rarely gave you a chance to say goodbye.   properly.   even if it was a longtime coming.   trust him,   benny would know.   ❝   don’t say that.   ❞

❝   you’re not annoying   --------------   reckless,   yeah.   charming ?   okay,   i’ll give you that.   but annoying ?   that’s not you.   between you   &   i,   if anybody is annoying,   it’s definitely lachie.   ❞   he’s the one who reaches out this time midst the pause,   a thumb moving to brush against the other’s cheek.   ❝   promise me you’ll play it safe next time   -----   that you’ll come home ?   ❞

[jazzzly]

[ R ] EPORTESS.

A  COCKTAIL  MAN  HIMSELF.    well,   he  certainly  knows  how  to  make  his  customers  feel  welcome.    he  reminds  her  a  little  of  Davey ;   tall,   dark - haired   &   kinder  than  you’d  expect.    ❛  oh  no,   it’s  fine !    I’ve  got  friends  back  home  who  are  just  as  loud,   so  I’m  used  to  all  the  noise.    all  the  ruckus  kind  of  makes  me  feel  at  home.  ❜    she  throws  another  glance  their  way,   a  smile  growing  on  her  lips.    missing  Jack  and  the  boys  whenever  The  Sun  had  her  fly  out  for  a  story  was  something  she  had  gotten  used  to,   but  sights  such  as  that  of  the  group  down  the  bar  just  made  her  excited  about  returning  home  rather  than  elevating  her  homesickness.

when  he  tells  her  the  drink  is  on  the  house,   she  objects,   her  Pulitzer - stubbornness  displayed  in  her  furrowed  brows.    money  has  never  been  a  problem   &   katherine  has  always  been  of  the  opinion  that  if  she  can  afford  to  pay  for  something,   she  should.    ❛  I  couldn’t !               here,   it’s  no  trouble.  ❜    then  she  shoves  the  money  across  the  bar  to  him,   hand  quickly  grasping  the  glass  of  mojito  to  prevent  him  from  giving  it  back.    ❛               is  this  your  bar ?  ❜

the money is graciously accepted,   and he moves to store half of it in the till   &   the rest in a small,   plastic tub that goes towards animal shelters across the state of colorado.   it was refreshing to be greeted with such kindness on a busy night;   a typical workday for benjamin   -----   one that didn’t involved his friends of rather questionable nature,   consisted of a lot of cleaning up of waste   ( yuck ! ),   breaking up bar fights,   and dealing with emotional drunks.  so this:   casual conversation,   getting to know the customer   ----   it was nice.  ❝   it is indeed !   my dad had a bar like this back home.    though,   over time,   it began to turn into a little bit of everything.   it was a bar,   lounge,   pub   ...   you name it,   it was probably there !   ❞

a laugh follows,   and after a fleeting moment of jubilation,   an awkward silence ensues as he racks his brain for something to say.   which was a rarity for him;   speaking was one of his many natural talents.   there is,   however,   a question he remembers that he wants to ask and it was a question that was typically the foundation for most acquaintanceships.   ❝   what about you ?   i mean,   you mentioned home.   where are you from ?   ❞

[jazzzly]

[ C ] LASSEACT.

          he   hears   the   weight   in   the   other’s   words  ,    the   little   admittance   that   might   have   so   sharply   struck   his   heart   if   he   were   any   other   person .     IF   HE   KNEW    .    .    .       IF   EVERYTHING   WAS   APPARENT   AND   CLEAR    .    .    .         maybe   then   he   wouldn’t   be   so   desperate   for   that   company .     but   for   now  ,     it   would   remain   calculated  ,     remain   unreal .     a   single   hand   lifts  ,    and   taking   a   breath   he   lets   a   single   finger   run   gently   down   the   back   of   the   other’s   neck   whilst   he   speaks .     his   fingertip   latches   lightly   onto   benny’s   collar   after .

            ❝       i'm   around   now    .    .    .           i   can   keep   you   company .      ❞       words   are   spoken   quietly  ,     and   as   they   come   to   a   close   he   leans   a   little   closer   and   presses   his   lips   in   a   lingering   kiss   against   the   skin   of   benny’s   neck   once   revealed   with   the   tug   of   his   finger .

he turns,   shaking the other’s finger off   of his attire as he does so,   and he just   ...   sits there for a second,   a moment.   he doesn’t speak,   he doesn’t make any noise apart from gentle,   rhythmic breathing as he looks at his friend with tearful eyes   ------   tearful eyes that have seen too much,   too young.   he takes in every feature,   every nook and cranny and crinkle of jesse’s face;   it was at this point he was glad he was gifted with photographic memory for his face wasn’t one that benny ever wanted to forget if he could help it.   he doesn’t cry,   though.   at least,   not yet.

❝   you say that but   ...   do you have any idea how much you guys scare me ?   how much YOU scare me ?   what if you don’t come back one day,   or you end up in hospital ?   ❞

[jazzzly]

MUSE AESTHETIC   -   SEX   /   ROMANCE EDITION !

BOLD any that apply to your  muse,   italicize any of your muse’s turn   -   ons   /   likes,  strike any of your muse’s turn   -   offs   /   dislikes.   +   REPOST,   DON’T  REBLOG !

TAGGED BY:   nobody,   i saw this on the dash and stole it 8)

TAGGING:   @classeact,   @dreance,   @mirthborn,   @shedeathh !

heterosexual.   homosexual.   bisexual.   pansexual.   asexual.   demisexual.   graysexual.   monogamous.   polyamorous.   long term relationships.   casual relationships.   rough.   loud.   growling.   screaming.   crying.   sobbing.   gentle.   tender.   whispers.   moaning.   touching others.   touching self.   being touched.   lingering kisses.   kisses.  french kisses.   licking.   nibbling.   biting.   scratching.   hair pulling.   dominance.   submission.  switch.  power play.   struggles.   wrestling.   hugs.   cuddling.   shower   /  bath sex.   up against a wall.   being held down.   spanking.   body worship.   breasts.   butts.   legs.   thighs.   feet.  hands.  ears.   love bites.   innuendo.   choking.   breath play.   bondage.   leather.   silk.  velvet.   lace.   being watched.   watching others.   half clothed.   bared skin.   teasing.   indoors.   outdoors.   public.  private.   lingerie.   stockings.   corsets.

[jazzzly]

[ C ] LASSEACT.

               ❝       i   like   the   water  ,     though .       ❞    he   calls   from   the   bathroom  ,     door   pulled   to   whilst   he   clothes   himself   and   fixes   his   hair .    it   doesn’t   take   long  ,      and   in   moments   he’s   in   the   bedroom   again .   THOUGH   HIS   HAIR   IS   STILL   A   LITTLE   DAMP  ,    and   his   face   slightly   flushed   from   the   heat   of   the   steam   lingering   in   the   bathroom .     he   moves   closer  ,     climbs   onto   the   bed    and   crawls   across   it   until   he’s   sat   behind   the   other  ,     legs   folded   beneath   him   and   his   ankles   hovering   over   the   edge   of   the   mattress .

     HE   LEANS  ,    close   enough   that   his   breath   might   tickle   the   other’s   neck   if   he   spoke   and   his   eyes   are   trained   on   the   words   the   other   is   reading .       ❝       haven’t   you   read   that   one   BEFORE  ?       ❞

❝   yup.   multiple times,   actually.   it’s anna karenina.   ❞   an old copy too   ;   the book was bound in red leather,   cracked   &   dry with age.   it was obvious that it had been passed down from one person to another but the sentiment it held was still woven into the spine and what remains of the book’s original stitching is barely holding it together.   he wasn’t really paying attention to it though,   jesse had him well   &   truly distracted with his breath on his neck that sent shivers down his own spine,   causing the bartender to shudder but only slightly.

❝   i like rereading books.   they make me feel   ...   something.   kind of like home,   i guess.   they keep me company when you’re not around.   ❞

[leepace71]

[jazzzly]

[ R ] EPORTESS.

SHE  HATES  SAYING  IT  OUT  LOUD,    for  it  makes  her  feel  like  a  high  schooler  who  has  just  begun  drinking.    but  the  bitter,   uneasy  taste  of  the  beer  on  her  tongue  makes  her  feel  a  little  queasy,   and  of  the  ones  on  the  menu,   there  is  only  one  drink  she  is  certain  she  likes.    ❛               excuse  me.    a  mojito,   please ?  ❜    a  smile  follows  then,   cheeks  tinting  red  with  childish  embarrassment.    a  bartender  is  hardly  going  to  care  about  what  a  customer  orders,   especially  when  they  have  rowdier  guests  down  the  bar  to  worry  about.    still,  she  feels  the  need  to  explain  herself.    ❛  I’m  not  really  a  fan  of  beer   &   I  was  feeling  a  little  adventurous.    thought  perhaps  it  would  taste  somewhat  better  in  Colorado  than  in  New  York,   but  it  seems  I  was  wrong.  ❜

❝   i’m glad you asked,   i’m a cocktail man myself.   ❞   her kindness   &   smile are returned as hands move swiftly to grab a collins glass from under the counter.   he wonders,   while he’s filling the glass with muddle lime juice   &   sugar,   if he should apologise for the completely barbaric behaviour that erupted from his friends   -------   not that it was embarrassing !   noise and banter were commonplace at frankie   &   benny’s,   it’s what made it feel more like home really   ;   a place for people to call their own.   still,   he didn’t want it to seem unsettling so,   as he begins mushing the mint leaves against the side of the glass before filling it with ice and rum,   he nods his head towards the ruckus,   grin still ever   -   present.   ❝   i hope you don’t mind them.   everyone here is a little loud but they’re arguably the loudest   ;   they’re nice,   though.   probably some of the sweetest people i’ve ever met.   ❞   adding in the lime and the seltzer,   benny slides the glass towards the customer and then he leans forwards with his arms resting on the countertop.   ❝   on the house.   ❞

[wnq-writers]

You’re soft, soft like spring flowers and sunsets and the white feathers inside your pillow.

hin-saek  (via xanrps)

[jazzzly]

[ D ] ILIGETUR.

laughter  chimes  from  her  roseate  smile ,    hidden  away  from  behind  a  gloved  palm .    his  manners  towards  her  may  appear  ill  at  ease ,   but  she  holds  no  affront  in  regarding him .    governments    &    customs  differ  from  nation  to  nation ,   after  all   ;     &    those  of  arendelle’s  indeed  differ  from  the  united  states❜ .    ❝  your  majesty  will  do ,   mister  willis .    i’m  happy  to  hear  that  things  are  well .  ❞    her  hand  returns  to  its  prior  position ,   folding  with  the  other  at  her  front  once  more .    the  curve  of  her  smile ,   however ,   neither  shifts  nor  wanes .    ❝  my  apologies  for  startling  you ,     &    for  only  just  having  the  pleasure  of  meeting  you .    how  has  your  stay  been  thus  far ?  ❞

❝   please,   call me benny.   ❞   he stands upright,   adjusting his posture so he wasn’t slouched or curved forwards with less grace than a builder on ice and like her own smile,   his remained a prominent part of his expression too   ------   one might even go as far as to say that they could hear the pleasure wrapped within his tone.   after all,   he had never worked outwith colorado before   ;   working with royalty is a whole other ordeal that he was never prepared for but he was grateful all the same.   ❝   it’s been good,   thank you.   everyone here   -----   they’re all really nice.   it’s not something you see a lot in back home but i’ve always relied on the kindness of strangers.   ❞   he pauses.   ❝   it’s an absolute honour to be here,   your majesty.   i can assure you that i won’t let you down.   ❞

[candicespatton]

[jazzzly]

benny has a really small hole in his heart   ( ventricular septal defect )   and,   even though it doesn’t require any medication and benny doesn’t need surgery as of present day,   he still has to go to the hospital every two years to get it checked out.   the defect causes a very small heart murmur   ;   his breathing is fine,   nothing outwith what is considered the norm,   his heart just works harder than others to pump blood around his body properly.   despite this,   if you lay on his chest,   his heart beat is actually quite relaxing.   it’s a constant reminder of being alive.

[saru-studies]

Today I’ve learnt that there’s a word in italian (”solare”) to describe a person who brights the room, who is warm and good and cheerful and worries about others and I think is so cute??? I love it

[jazzzly]

[ C ] LASSEACT.

          ❝       i’m   not   going   to   catch   a   cold ,         ❞       he   argues  ,     FOR   NO   SAKE   OTHER   THAN   BECAUSE   HE   CAN .     but   there’s   a   hint   of   a   smirk   on   his   expression   as   he   leans   down   to   place   the   platter   on   the   floor   and   ruffle   the   fur   on   the   top   of   his   cat’s   head .     it’s   only   a   few   seconds   later   when   he   stands   up   again   and   moves   a   little   closer   to   the   other .       ❝       but   it’s   nice   to   know   you   care .      ❞      with   a   teasing   tone   he   bends     ———-     speedy   precision   in   his   movements    ———-    and   leaves   a   kiss   upon   the   other’s   temple   as   he   passes   on   his   return   to   the   bathroom .

                      ❝       you   know  ,     if   you   wanted   me   to   help   you   pay   your   bills   all   you   had   to   do   was   ask .      ❞

he smiled once jesse kissed him,   though maybe smile wasn’t the correct word for it   ;   there was a faint curve to the lips followed by a breathless chuckle,   but there was no crease that formed betwixt his brows.   if it were anyone else,   it would be a grimace at best   -----   a sign of disgust and discomfort,   but on benny,   it was a sign of pure bliss.   like the sun had somehow toppled down from the sky and made a home in his heart.   he laughs again,   and he turns a page of his book.   ❝   again,   not the point.   i appreciate the offer,   though.   ❞

❝   i want you to use less water   -------   i don’t think i’ve ever met anybody who spends as long in the shower as you do.   i bet zitto agrees   :   he’s always pawing at the bathroom door because he misses you.   ❞