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[undeadfern0]

Moot Music Monday #57 - 🎤Monday Morning Live!🎥

I’m so grateful to live in a time of accessible AV recording technology because otherwise I may never have a chance to see my favorite artists. Let’s all share our favorite live performances and celebrate the fact we can watch them over and over again

[pixie-chxld]

[jeannjuicee]

[jeannjuicee]

Started off feeling a lil better this morning and I can feel my mood tanking slowly 🙃

[jeannjuicee]

Pic reminder from 10years ago has me thankful I’ve broken my body down and suffer the way I do because jfc it looked like someone pumped me full of air

[lichgirlboobs]

she can't be pregnant we've been fucking on a pullout bed

[jeannjuicee]

I’m in the bathroom and I hear baby shout “mama! Take a bath!!!” And I had to shout back “no! I’m pooping!” A minute later she comes in a with a book and tucks her cup in the crotch of my pants 😭 I honestly love these moments

[jeannjuicee]

I want a loaf of fluffy chewy soft freshly baked bread

[jeannjuicee]

I hope today is an amazing day.. because you're amazing and deserve to have a really good day!

Such a lovely message and lil gif to wake up to 🫂 thank you for supporting me always and making sure to let me know you’re there for me. Ily messy 🫶🫂🫶🫂

[jeannjuicee]

The chest pain is right over where my heart is but I’m sure it’s gas and strain from my pvrge last night and also just realized I haven’t had water in 2 days

[jeannjuicee]

Thought j was getting annoyed with me but he sent a text earlier apologizing for not talking much and he sometimes gets likes that and also got a sinus infection out of nowhere. Shook at the honest and open communication. I’m used to being ignored and then spiral thinking I did something wrong. Trying to grow from that and recognizing my role in people’s lives isn’t /that/ big and it’s okay(turns out that’s the case and he just doesn’t feel good). I told him that he doesn’t owe me anything but i appreciate him telling me.

[jeannjuicee]

Chest pains slightly scaring me

[jeannjuicee]

Told z how I was feeling bc he’s begged me to so many times before. He came over bc I scared him. Was too honest but I needed to be. He doesn’t understand sh but tried his best. I feel crazy explaining that i deserve it and it’s a ritual compulsion penance thing. Told him how I feel evil and he laughed. He reassured me im not. He offered to use his tattoo machine on me with no ink so I can have the cvttng sensation. I think I’ll give it a try.

[jeannjuicee]

I feel so bloated and gassy my abdomen hurts so insanely much. Maybe my stomach lining has finally been eaten away

[jeannjuicee]

Coworker (we’ll call her D) who made the comment this morning then said on the floor while I was with a client and everyone was out there “oh [jean] I seen an article about foods to eat and not gain weight and it’s everything you eat!” I just looked at her and smiled but really I wanted to die. Thanks for letting everyone know. D is a weird one so I never know her angle. But I know everyone is talking about me when I’m not there. Tones are shifting. They think I’m too fragile. I’m not. I can handle it.

[jeannjuicee]

There’s something so nice about wearing sweats outside in 90 degree weather in the middle of August

[jeannjuicee]

Fav client came in from a 2 day bender wearing clothes from the night before talking about he has his priorities straight because he prioritized getting a cut by me over going home first 🫶🫶🫶

[jeannjuicee]

I just want to cry but I can’t. They won’t fall

[jeannjuicee]

“You not trying to lose no more are you? You don’t have much left to lose” first off thanks for the laugh this morning I needed that. Secondly you’d be shocked how much more I have to lose. Ideally still 16lbs to go til my ugw but we all know that will shift. I’m 5’3 it’s okay.