Unfortunately Still Here

30. Minors dni. Block don’t report.

[nevver]

Cruel summer, Summer Wagner

[junkyardpromqueenreturns]

[twistedangelboness]

having friends is cool until they worry too much and get in the way of your self-destructive tendencies

[thesirensense]

Your self respect has to be greater than your desire to be loved.

[jeannjuicee]

Babbling

I haaaate feeling like the bad guy (even tho I’ve done all I could and tried til I couldn’t any longer). I just hate making anyone feel bad. I will usually just accept anything and take it on the chin so long as the other person is happy. And I could just move on like every other time with m, but if I’ve learned anything it’s to actually put myself first. Even if other people are upset or uncomfortable I’m allowed to exist however I want. Maybe m and I will wind up together in the end but for now I need boundaries and space and separation to be the best mom to baby I can be.

She also needs to know that a woman shouldn’t have to carry everything in a family or relationship. I’ve seen him change and grow from seeing that I’m serious this time. Let’s hope it actually works out for him. I just want baby to have a strong responsible father 😭 at least she got that in his dad lol. I told him that I’m not going after child support and whatever he can give I’m sure he will. His dad immediately was like “no Nuh uh he’s gonna work for you and make sure yall are good”. Ultimately I’m glad M is baby’s dad and that I have his family for support. That makes this worse. Like if he was just evil mean and abusive this might be easier; he’s just a sad depressed man with no drive or passion. And that makes me want to love him harder 😭

[jeannjuicee]

!!!!!!!! I’m all approved !!!!! She’s emailing me the lease rn!!!!! Mac n cheese n broccoli tiiiime

[fairycosmos]

i hate the way straight men perceive sex like youre so fucking weird derogatory. not even weird hot

[jeannjuicee]

Literally ruined my marriage ✌🏻

[jeannjuicee]

I haaaate having to watch sports at work but it’s Wimbledon and Serena is playing!!!! 2 to 2 rn but omg I forgot how much I enjoyed watching her

[jeannjuicee]

They got ahold of my boss and confirmed all that!! But now they’re trying to reach the manager at my current apartment and they’re horrible at getting thru to the office 😭 they said it should all be said and done by end of day today. I think that’s 6 for them. 3 more hours 😬

[jeannjuicee]

I feel like I’m going to throw up omg. I was happy for the anxiety to go away and now it’s back full force and I’m at work so I have to be normal

[jeannjuicee]

the rental history place just called the salon bc my boss still hasn’t verified my employment/income hahahahahhaha it’s totally fine haahahhhahahaaa I’m not going to lose the apartment or anything haahhaaa

[jeannjuicee]

Finally fucking slept ☺️🥰💃

[jeannjuicee]

Is it normal to be paranoid that somethings gonna happen to the apartment and I won’t get it because I jinxed it by telling several people before officially signing anything????

[depsidase]

[jeannjuicee]

Also had another client (I saw him 4weeks ago) comment that I look like I’ve lost more weight. Something is going on. All the alcohol binges have me retaining number wise but I guess since it’s not actual nutrition it’s not sticking???????? Idk but I’ll take it

[jeannjuicee]

!!!!!!!!!!I’ve been approved!!!!!! I move in on July 31!!!!!!

[escenario]