Because I Want To Look Better @jeffreygettingthin - Tumblr Blog

Every reminder she’s not mine feels like a death by a thousand cuts.

I do like that she’s happy but even that fills me with jealousy and pain because it means my chances are as good as naught.

With school coming to a close for me I can’t help but reflect on one of my academic career’s greatest failures - the inability to have a significant other for any extended period of time. This failure weighs on my thoughts now more than ever because school forms the only social space in which I regularly interact with persons of the opposite sex. I fear my odds of developing a relationship will drop precipitously at the end of next week.

One of (or possibly my biggest crush) was in all her glory today. At the end of an event she took to the stage to thank all who helped out. She was in her glory with her petite stature, clear but unmistakably girly voice, expressing sincere gratitude to everyone. You could see her genuine she was in everything she said. That's one of the things I love about her; she has a capacity to care for and appreciate others that's not found in many other people.

But as these things go, later that evening I glimpsed a convo she was having on her phone. I couldn't make out the details. Quite frankly I didn't want to. But I could see the name of the person on the other side. It was that luck bastard of a boyfriend of hers no doubt checking up on his treasure.

And with that things returned to normal.

blackatwitch

themaogspot

Guide!!!

A girl who will read something in the newspaper and complain about it to me. I like that stuff. I should go out with her, shouldn't I? More anon.

The thought of the one you admire belonging firmly, unequivocally to someone else does things to the mind and body. The blood pumps harder because you feel enraged. At the same time the mind imagines an alternate universe where this turned out the way you wanted it to. Or the mind enters the world of vindictiveness, imagining the very worst for them to somehow validate your own view that you were better.

But when detached reflection is allowed you see much clearer. He's a much better fit for her than you could ever be. Your happiness will come at the right time. You must be patient. But you must also be willing to seize it when it comes within your reach.

At its core, the main thing I think I need in a relationship is someone I feel comfortable being myself around

onlinecounsellingcollege

I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don’t know why, some people fill the gaps but other people emphasize my loneliness.

Anaïs Nin (via poetrea)

Today, before we parted ways, I had the chance to call her over, give her a hug, and tell her I'd miss her. I didn't. As these things go I'm in the pangs of regret. Longing for another opportunity to make amends.

forfitnessmotivation

If you're a guy who is shy when it comes to women, who doesn't have the self assured swagger to just go up to any girl and tell how much you admire her and how much you'd like to get know her and treat her like you treat no other, life can be pretty sad and lonely. I need someone to message goodnight. To send a voice note to in the morning saying how well I slept because i dreamt of her. Someone to tell me banal stories about the horrors of the first day of the week and share details they wouldn't tell anyone else. Sigh.