hanahaki disease au where wanderer feels his puppet body slowly deteriorate cause after he erased himself from irmunsul, you completely forgot about him and the mutual love you held for each other and now heâs pining over you from afar because heâs scared heâll hurt you again like he did when he was a harbinger
HOLD ON TO THE MEMORIES, AND I WILL HOLD ONTO YOU | LYNEY
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It took two months in Sumeru, three in Liyue, and one month in Snezhnaya to take you down. Childe admitted that you held up longer than he expectedâtraining unrelentingly in an unfamiliar environment would shake anyoneâs confidence. But youâd been pushing through with excitement at the prospect of traveling to another region and training to become stronger. The adrenaline is quick to disappear when Rosalie has to go back home, and her absence makes the cold loneliness prominent.
When Childe strikes at you with a sword, your calves burn, and your thighs quiverâthat split second costs you the match. Childe calls for you to get up. Fight back. But for some reason, all you can think of is how the ice has melted in your boots in a puddle and how the flowers sprinkled sporadically in the snow are the same ones back at home.
Childe senses it, the sudden drop of mood. He studies whatever expression youâre making and smiles.
âAlright. I think itâs about time.â
âIâm sorry.â
Childe pulls you up and throws your arm over his shoulder. âWhatâre you sorry for?â
You take one heavy step at a time, watching and hating as your feet sink into the soft snow. Itâs too cold. âYouâre doing so much for me, but Iâm too weak to follow through.â
âNonsense.â He clicks his tongue. âI think of this as one of my duties.â
âBut itâs not one of your duties,â you argue weakly. âIâm a burden to your actual duties. My colleagues are already suspicious of this special treatment.â
âThey arenât really your colleagues,â Childe points out. âJust as you arenât actually working under me. Youâre my mentee. Thereâs a world of difference.â
You sigh, unconvinced. Childe is doing so much to prevent the other Harbingers and even the Tsaritsa herself from snooping in your business. A part of you thinks the Tsaritsa already knows, but itâs about time she does something about it, right?
âYouâre thinking too hard,â Childe remarks. When you turn to him, heâs staring ahead. âDonât worry, okay? Youâve got three Harbingers vouching for you.â
âThree?â
Childe grins. âThat boyfriend of yours is about to be one, isnât he?â
Excitement thrums in each bone of your body as the familiar view of the continent-sized fountain comes to view. You nearly fall over into the ocean from tipping forward.
âFontaineâs not going anywhere,â Childe yells out from the other side of the Fatui-issued ship.
The wind whips through your hair. The recognizable scent of the sea breeze makes you laugh in delight. Maybe you missed your home more than you realized.Â
âI wouldnât let it, anyway,â you answer back.
Once the ship has reached the dock, you bound over to Childe, who looks over curiously.
âThank you,â you say, and you really, really mean it. For the past few months, for this and possibly for more in the future.
Childe ruffles your hair. It wouldâve made you glare at him on usual days, but youâre bursting with happiness so you let him until he says, âNo problem, Y/N. Weâre friends now.â
Childe nudges you forward. âNow, go hurry. Iâm about one messenger bird away from losing my patience with Lyney.â
Despite that, you meet with Rosalie first.
The sun has barely risen, just peeking from rolling hills. The shop is still closed. But this is your home, so you push the key in, pull the door open, and catch sight of Rosalie fixing the displays on the shelf behind the counter.
âMaman, why are you up so early?â
Rosalieâs head whips around, then her limbs lock up in place. Sheâd been with you for the first two weeks of Sumeru, admiring their flora, then taking a lot of them home. You see them displayed on the shelves next to your first flowerâthe ones that are certainly for sale. Rosalie still hasnât moved, frozen, gaping at you.
âSurprise,â you say, then she boots back to life and runs over to hug you.
You pluck a few petals off of her hair. âI am.â
Rosalie pulls back and grins up at you. âYouâre home! Youâreââ her face twists in realization, âOh, youâre back. Oh, dear. You just missed Lyney. He came over earlier to help me settle everything before I opened up.â
âWait, really?â
Rosalie nods, ushering you inside the counter, where the door leads to upstairs to the kitchen. âYes, yes. Since I returned, Lyney has been coming over to visit and help me with the shop.â
Your heart skips a beat. âHe does?â
âMhm. At first, I assumed it was because he got used to visiting you, but he just does it every day now. â Rosalie shakes her head fondly, smoothing down your hair. âThat boy. I tell him that he should focus when he has shows to practice or prepare for, but he just buries his hands in the dirt as an answer.â
âI see you two have gotten closer while I was away.â The image of Lyney changing pots, getting his hands soiled, while he insists that Rosalie does the watering, makes you unbelievably fond.
âAs stubborn as you,â Rosalie chides, smiling. âHe knows how to handle them, though. Did you know, Lyney started to send out messenger birds when I told him I was missing you? That boy is more than head over heels, darling.â
âMaman,â you say, embarrassed. âI just came back. Arenât you going to ask how I am?â
âI donât need to. Lyney updates me anyway,â Rosalie says. âBut I have missed you, so tell your maman about everything, okay?â
âIâll tell you stories for as long as you want me to, maman.â
Rosalieâs eyes water, but she braves through it as she stares wordlessly at you. She wipes it off, then ruffles your hair. Do you have a sign on your head or something?Â
âIâm proud to call you my daughter. Iâll always want you to.â
Freminet is the first out of the siblings to hear from you. Itâs not on purpose. Youâre on your way to surprise Lyney and Lynette when you hear a soft voice call out after you. Your head snaps side to side, frantically looking for the source, then grin wide when Freminet waves at you feverishly.
âY/N!â he exclaims breathlessly.
âFreminet!â you yell back, falling towards a hug that he tightly reciprocates.Â
âI didnât know you were back?â He says incredulously, which might just be the most passionate emotion youâve ever felt from him. He looks torn between disbelief and joy.
âJust this morning. I wanted to surprise all of you.â To gain a sense of satisfaction, you bury your hand in his hair first, knocking his beret aside when you ruffle and mess with his hair. âYour hairâs gotten longer than usual.â
âYeah. You missed too much,â Freminet mumbles. But he doesnât look depressed about it. He beams up at you, reminding you of a particularly pleased puppy. âYou have a lot to catch up on.â
âI know, I know.â
âBut wait.â Freminetâs brows scrunch together. âHow long are you allowed to stay here?â
âTwo weeks, at most. But I can always come back whenever I want.â
Freminet laughs. âAre you going to max out your two weeks before you talk to Lyney?â
âShut up.â You elbow his ribs, but Freminet just laughs harder. âI was on my way to your house before I saw you.â
Freminet hums thoughtfully, his gaze drifting off to somewhere far. âI donât think Lyneyâs home right now.â
âReally?â You follow his gaze, but see nothing. Only kids running around, throwing cards around and sounding explosions with their mouths. You smile. Were they imitating Lyney? It seems that even if you try to avoid him, youâll find traces of his footsteps anywhere. âHuh. Where could he be then?â
âEver since you left, Lyney goes to this one spot a lot,â Freminet says, turning back to you with a knowing glint in his eye.
âMa mĂšreâs shop?â
âNo, no. A different one. He says you two sparred there, and he goes there when he misses you. He goes every day.â
Rosalie, then now Freminet⊠You feel giddy, fondness bursting in your chest at the thought of Lyney missing you as much as you missed him. Not that youâd admit it to him straight upâbecause then heâd never let it go. But even then, the thought of that has you smiling to yourself like a madman.
Freminet notices it, too. âIâll tell Lynette you said hi.â
True to his word, you find Lyney in the same spot he asked you to spar with him after years without it. You face his back, but you keep your steps light and measured, moving closer and closer until you see that heâs picking flowers. For his show, maybe?
Lyney looks vulnerable, hunched over a patch of flowers and gently unrooting them from the grass.
You spread your palm and let ice materialize above it in the shape of a heart. Itâs smooth and clean after months and months of perfecting it. Then you throw it towards him. You have exceptional aimâyou barely miss his ear on purpose. But Lyney straightens up in a snap and catches the heart with a gloved hand.
He looks at the heart in confusion, then rapidly whips around to you.
You grin and wave, unsure of what to say. What do you even greet him with? Itâs nice to see you again? I missed you?
You havenât had much time to think about it as Lyney sprints to you and tackles you down into a hug, blowing the air out of your chest as you both fall on the grass. You laugh as Lyney rubs his head on your neck like those affectionate cats back at Sumeru, his arm wrapped tightly around your shoulder.
Lyney pulls away, pupils blown wide.
âHi,â he breathes out.
âHi,â you whisper in return. Maybe the right thing to say is, âLyney.â
âYouâre back. Youâyouâre back in Fontaineâyou made me a heart!â
âI did,â you say shyly. âIâm home.â
Sumeru had been wonderful; with trees that stretched and went on for forever, dewy grass that tickled your calves, and the heat of the sand that you longed for when you reached Snezhnaya. Liyue had been beautiful; spread with the aroma of spices and the orange glow of their sunset, then the mountains that allowed you to soar from one to another. Snezhnaya had been enchanting; the view of their sky was unmatched, the flowers that were unique to the cold climate were beautiful, their snow sent you a thrill that you knew you couldnât feel anywhere else, and you were able to refine your Vision in the place where it belonged.
But the warmth that Lyney emanatedâthat he gave youâwas the kind you missed in every place you went to. This is where you belong.
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