Unfiltered & Unapologetic

Just reading/saying the unspoken words and thoughts negative feels is part of life im not sorry for my hate and sadness

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

They taught us how to bleed without leaving a stain,

How to endure without ever saying a word,

Yet now they hate us for the very thing they taught us

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

Has life always been... So Gray?

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

Almost made it out the family home without any drama,

And then my sister says "maybe you should leave" just so she isn't troubled or loosing sleep over having to baby sit her dog more so that my cats don't hurt him.

My entire family knows the hard year I've had managing work, school ( I got as close as I could to all 100% in my course work and graduated), got married in June. Planed that wedding moved into a joint apartment has my in-laws live with me. and then filed for divorce in November. Moved in with my sister for a month, found a new place and moved again.

And worst part is I expected this from my mother not my sister. I believe she knows better.

Good to know where I'm not wanted.

Unless it's convenient.

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

I'd rather seperate salt and sugar, grain by grain.

Then get back with you.

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

Let's assume what you say is true: you are God. Then there must be heaven and hell. But the texts say the gods abandoned us. The angels are dead. The devils are here, yet hell is empty. The divine order is shattered.

If the very laws you claim to command are broken, look past the title you claim. From what void did you truly emerge?

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

Nothing gets me hot like someone who is a great communicator.

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

Just because I don't need much,

Doesn't mean I deserve the bare minimum.

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

If you always do what you always did, you'll get what you always got.

Why would you expect anything different, when you never did anything different.

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

My mind doesn't like you,

And neither does my heart.

So for what reason do I need to stay?

I can like you emotionally and I can't like you logically either.

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

Listen, listen

The biggest mistake of my life,

I loved a low life person.

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

I just wanted simple love,

To feel special when I needed you.

When I felt lost,

I hoped you noticed the silence,

But you were never there.

Your silence hurt more than words.

I waited...With quite tears.

Believing you'd return with love this time.

Asking why I left you.

Just you think, Just for a second...

Could you love someone who ignored your pain?

Who made you feel like you were never enough?

Could you really love someone who never remembers you?

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

Withholding compassion, care, respect, love, consideration.

Is emotional abuse.

You didn't get into a relationship just so that you can fill their cup and hope that one day they'll pour some into yours.

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

When you tell him something, example:

"Can you at least tell me where your going and when you will becoming back? You can't just leave with out a word and come back whenever you feel like it."

Your setting a boundary.

And he says

"so I need to tell you even if I leave the house for five minutes? And tell you every time?"

Calling you controlling and overbearing.

He has no respect for your boundaries.

So what are you still doing there?

For something as simple as this.

Are you really staying around because he finally thought to get you some carrot cake?

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

Keep this diamond of a boy for yourself,

If the cost is , my wellbeing, my peace, my happiness, myself worth,

I'm better off without that diamond.

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

Men should fear,

Women not wanting anything from them.

After all useless things are often forgotten in the shelf and then thrown out for it adds no value to your life.

Don't hoard trash thinking one day it will be useful.

If it's not useful now it never will be.

Trash is trash.

Live life minimalisticly.

[perfectfeelings]

“I’m stronger because I had to be. I’m smarter because of my mistakes. I’m happier because I’ve overcome the sadness I have known and I’m wiser because I’ve learned from my life.”

— Unknown

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

And it's surprising how some people go through life never having learned from their life. Are then even living life? Or just going through the motions of life happening to them, and they are just a puppet playing their part.

[jellyfishs-thoughts]

I'm not into the habit of picking up bad habits, and you're not a habit that suits my worth