i don’t think i ever liked you
just liked the attention you gave
and the way you’d say your falling for me
and they way you’d say my name
but i hated what you believed in
and your job and where you lived
i hated the way you didn’t hate men
that were mean to women and kids
but you knew what to say to turn me on
like i’m pretty and im smart
and you were thinking about me with yourself and your hand all night
to pretend the conversations weren’t only fun because i was in them
or to think you could be the one
how much of myself would i have to lose
and how much needs to be true
just cause your waiting for me
doesn’t mean i enjoy answering you
but i love getting a reply
and your my current dealer
but the price has gone up
and i’m not the best feeler
when it comes to love and trust
or believing in the only one
but i still like to hear the words leave your mouth
even if lies stain your tongue
and i hope you think about me
because she deserves better
and you forgetting about me
but what if i can’t manage being forgotten
what if i beg you to say my name in your sleep
because haunting the narrative is all i’ve ever wanted
like you fighting my name from leaving your lips
every time you finish inside
and when you think of the girls who got away
and wonder what could have been or been better
because everyone who gets too close
i make sure to scare away
till their only left with the version of me in their head
and my phantom with them each night in bed
in between every number you call
and whispered words of i’ve never felt this way before
become i hope i never feel this way again
and i hope i never leave the seams in your head
2087
amandla
dailybridgerton
kianamaiart
yousharknotpass
blakekathryn
titsay
theartofmadeline
