Help! Im stuck in my BPD mind!!

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You Don't Know Me!

You Don’t Know Me!

You see that I usually just let my feelings build up and explode.

You see that I often give in.

But you don’t know me.

  You would know me if…

IF you knew how hard it is for me to control and regulate my emotions.

  You know how I feel sometimes when I’m alone.

You know how I always seem angry.

You see that I become easily upset.

You see that II cry often.

But, you don’t know me!

  You would know…

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Out Of Control

My anger…

It’s taking over me.

I’m out of control!

I’m screaming!

I’m yelling!

I’m crying!

I’m losing my friends.

  My anger…

It’s taking over me.

I’m out of control!

I’m frustrated!

I’m confused!

I’m scared!

  Why can’t I just be normal?

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Why??

Why do I cry?

Because you hate me!

Why do you hate me?

Because I am annoying!

Why am I annoying?

Because I am jealous!

Why am I jealous?

Because I want friends!

Why don’t I have friends?

Because I am hated!

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You Are A Piece Of Me

You Are A Piece Of Me

You are a piece of my sadness…

You area piece of my silence…

You are a piece of my hate…

You area piece of my low self-esteem…

You are a piece of my broken heart…

You are a piece of my crappy life…

You are a piece of the reason I wish I never existed…

You are a giant piece of my life I wish I never had!!!

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Life In My Shoes (A Poem From I Wrote In High School)

Life In My Shoes (A Poem From I Wrote In High School)

I am a girl who dreads coming to school.

I wish that for one day I could be “cool.”

I am sick of people who think they know me,

And think they can be mean and be a bully.

I always tell them not to treat me like that.

But what do they do… They tell me I’m fat.

They don’t know how I feel and they obviously don’t care.

At that point I get frustrated because it just isn’t fair!!

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Never Ever!

I would never ever do what  she did to me.

I would never ever back stab her.

I would never ever ditch her.

I would never ever turn against her.

I would never ever treat her like she treated me.

I would never ever hurt her like she hurt me.

I would never ever do what she did to me!

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Gone From My Mind, Not My Heart.

Gone From My Mind, Not My Heart.

She was my friend.

The one who I thought cared about me.

The one who I thought was there for me when I was sad.

The one who stood up for me.

The one I did everything with.

The one who I thought would do anything for me.

The one I enjoyed hanging out with.

The one who would make me laugh over everything.

The one… who is now gone forever!

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I Feel Like Everyone Is Leaving!

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Letter To Vanessa Marano

Letter To Vanessa Marano

Dear Vanessa,

You have truly inspired me. In “Switched At Birth” you are a smart, intelligent, strong, teenager making mistakes just like me. But… you pick yourself up. I want to be like you! In this show, you never gave up, you keep moving forward no matter what comes in your way or lies ahead of you. I really do wish I could be that way.

  Sincerely,

Your Biggest Fan- Jenna Jones (20-USA)

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Vanessa Marano (Bay)- Switched At Birth

Vanessa Marano (Bay)- Switched At Birth

Vanessa A.K.A. Bay, has really inspired me. Her perseverance to picking herself up when she falls down and backslides really gets to me. In “Switched At Birth” she has never given up on herself… and I want to be just like her. Yea she’s screwed up, but she hasn’t given up!

She’s been through hell and back with family, friends, boyfriends, and life in general but she hasn’t let it get the best of…

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I Need To Vent...

I Need To Vent…

I’m hurting. I’m losing people. People are losing me. I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m even losing myself. Nothing seems to be going right. It’s one thing after another. I just want a break already.

I have to big of a heart. I care a whole lot about other people but I don’t give a damn about myself. And I know that’s where my problems come from but I don’t know how to change that. I just…

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Praying- Kesha Just found this song last night. It's a little different then what she normally writes and sings, but this touched me...

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Interview Form

(Please write in paragraph form and add pictures if you want to. They could be pictures of yourself or simply of you just doing something you love to do.) 1. What is your name? 2. How old are you? 3. Where are you from? 4. What is your diagnosis and when were you diagnosed? 5. When did you notice it effecting your life? Like how old were you? 6. How has it affected your life? 7. How was your…

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Happiness Is...

Happiness Is…

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Best Friend Application Form What is your full name? What is your gender? On a scale of 1-10, how weird would you say you are?

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What Does BPD Feel Like???