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With their night just about over, Jake found himself wondering what would come next for them. Ordinarily Jake never put much thought to the future with a girl, merely accepting their night for what it was and reconnecting if they crossed paths again. But Jenna was so hard to come by that he was certain they’d only run into each other whenever she was playing a gig. And even then, it wouldn’t be a guarantee she would stick around. He was well aware of just how much of a fluke tonight was, how rare it was to see the girl hang around the bar after her set was finished. The bright side in Jake’s eyes was that at least he had her number and he’d be able to reach out to her in case things on her end went dark again. He was already bracing himself for that but Jake didn’t see the harm in chatting here and there. He by no means had any intentions of becoming serious and confining himself to Jenna alone but she was someone he could see himself entertaining more than once– if she was open to it. They’d proven tonight just how compatible they were with one another in the bedroom and Jake felt safe in assuming that would be reason enough for her to want to give this another shot at some point. Working to come down off his high, Jake swallowed down the dryness in his throat, his chest rising and falling heavily as his breaths aimed to become regular. Jake remained quiet for a few beats, enjoying the feel of Jenna’s naked frame pressed up against his. He looked at her as she replied, smirking back at her. He liked seeing how wild her hair was and just how broad her smile had been because of him. He’d had another successful night and he couldn’t help but to bask in it. “Definitely,” he said, searching her eyes. He brushed a few strands off her face and kissed her back, ensnaring her lips in a much more subdued kiss compared to the others from mere moments before. Jake smiled widely, shifting against the mattress. His hands moved idly to her ass again, gripping her firmly as he leaned in for one more kiss. “Just so you know, I won’t be kicking you out or anything. You can stay the night if you want,” he offered. “Maybe I can tempt you for a second round.”

Another small moan slipped from her mouth the moment his hand met her ass again. It wasn’t something she was used to, but it was definitely something she wanted more of. His hands on her, no matter where they were, was addicting enough. The kiss was much different than any others shared tonight, and it was calming -- yet a bit terrifying, too. Now that the sex was over, she knew what she needed to do, and that was an unsettling feeling as she knew she wanted more of Jake already. But she couldn’t tie herself to him in anyway. She needed to get out of here in some way that wouldn’t hurt his feelings or make him question her actions. The truth was, she enjoyed Jake more than she could explain, and that’s exactly why she needed to leave without question. But as soon as he suggested she stay, all thoughts of realism washed away. Especially when he mentioned a round two. At the moment, her body was too tired to even imagine it at this point, yet her mind was already racing with possibilities. “I’d love to.” Nothing changed -- her words were still deceiving what she was thinking. She wasn’t going to stay, so agreeing to do so made no sense at all. Now she was even further into this mess she had created hours ago, but in the moment, she couldn’t help herself. Her feelings were too strong towards staying to think rationally. All her nights, she was forced to sleep in her bed alone. The only exception was if Ty needed her, and often, she would pull him into her bed with her just because she wanted someone with her. She often fantasized about a life where she had someone there by her side, to take care of her and help with Ty, to hold her at night and wake up to in the morning. If she couldn’t have it all, she could at least have it for a few moments tonight. Just a taste of it would be enough to satisfy her for a while. Turning over, she left her back side towards him, her body pushing up against him and sighing at the feeling. This was exactly what she imagined so many times yet never received -- at this point, she had to force herself not to fall asleep and ruin it for herself. 

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This night was unfolding into something truly memorable for Jake. With each passing second he could feel Jenna’s resolve slipping, leading way to her truly letting go and sharing this moment with him. There was no need for either one of them to get wrapped up in anything else other than each other. All of Jake’s thoughts were centered around this one woman and all the feelings she was responsible for that coursed through him now. Jake knew that he would reach his end soon enough and it would be one of the most satisfying finishes to date. His chemistry with Jenna made it so this night easily landed itself highly in his top five– which was no small feat. It made Jake want more nights to be spent like this, eager to see her after shows in the future or to even see her outside of the city’s nightly music scene. He could see himself just calling to check in and of course, to ultimately make plans to hook up again. He kissed her hungrily, craving every bit of her as their bodies crashed together consistently. Jake loved her reactions to him, shivering each time she screamed or moaned his name. There was nothing quite like being with a woman and Jenna was exactly the type he had been needing tonight. His thoughts were a tangled, broken mess as he focused intently on bringing them both to their ends. As she switched things up, Jake could only stare up at her, studying the way her body moved on top of his. Jake didn’t have a single complaint as he gripped her firmly, clawing at each inch of skin his hands could claim. He could feel himself weakening more but he kept going, so enthralled by the sight she was treating him to as she broke their messy kiss. Jake obliged each thrust, his hips snapping upwards and driving himself deeper into her with each insertion. He could feel her clenching around his length, the sensation of that mixed with everything else pushing him closer to his climax. As her eyes closed and she held up her hair, Jake clutched onto her hips, pulling her waist down to him each time he jerked forward. He couldn’t stop looking at her, unabashedly mesmerized by the movement of her body and how good she looked like this. He could feel her reaching her breaking point and continued thrusting into her as her orgasm hit. It was too much for him to bear, Jake then reaching his finish too. In his day to day life, Jake didn’t curse much but when it came to romps in the bedroom, expletives seemed to fall from his lips without care. His body trembled as he peaked, his lower half still rocking until the final wave of pleasure washed over him and retreated. Jake struggled to catch his breath, his body covered in sweat. As she leaned in, Jake rubbed his hand along her back, trying to steady the both of them. “That was…just wow,” he breathed, wiping at his hot face. “You’re incredible.”

Now that things were coming to an end, Jenna had time to really reflect on what had happened. The boy below her was incredible, in more ways than just how he moved his body in rhythm with hers. He had treated her more sweetly than any guy in her recent history had done, and he truly made an effort to rid her of her cares for the night and make her feel good. It didn’t feel like just sex to her -- and honestly, that was beginning to scare her. Suddenly, she wanted more than just this, but she couldn’t have it. This was a hookup from a bar; nothing more. Not only that, but she was a young mother struggling to keep up with work, job, and her family. A boy couldn’t mess with that, though she knew he would have no reason to had he found out about her son back at home. Riding it out for the both of them, her body collapsed, lifting off of him and laying to his side. She fought to catch her breath and come down from the high that he had given her, but it wasn’t so simple. The sweat from both of their bodies now mixed together as her body pressed up against his, her hand on his chest as she wondered if her heart was beating just as fast. Hearing his compliment, she smirked up at him. “Yeah?” she asked, biting her lip as she stared back. Her hand moved to shove some of the sweaty, now messy hair out of her face. What once was made into beautifully done, loose curls was now a wet, straight mess on her forehead. “You’re not so bad yourself,” she teased, bringing her hand to his chin and pulling him into a much simpler kiss now. Pulling back just enough to speak, she winked at him. “And by that I mean you’re pretty incredible too.”  Now that it was over, she knew she had to plan her escape somehow. She wanted to stay, and in a perfect world, she would be waking up to him in the morning. But unfortunately, that wasn’t how this could go. She had another life -- a much more important one -- to attend to back at home. 

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Jake had reached the conclusion that this type of behavior tonight wasn’t the norm for her and with that theory, he could only hope she wouldn’t come to regret her decision. Her guard was lowered tonight and Jake only viewed that as a good thing. It was obvious something had been holding her back this whole time. Jake was the kind of guy who didn’t live with restrictions on himself. He lived in the moment and didn’t shy away from going out there and seeking the things he wanted in life. It was that mindset that had made him so successful in getting Jenna to come back to his place tonight and all the other girls who had come before her. The way Jake saw it, life was too short not to enjoy the pleasures it granted. Maybe that was a cop-out to justify his nightly antics but Jake hardly cared. He was enjoying his days which was far more than what most people could say. He was in the prime of life with the world at his fingertips. To waste it all by having reservations and doubts seemed like an unsatisfactory way of spending his twenties. Whatever responsibilities Jenna had, Jake wanted to take her mind off of them, if only for a night. A break of some kind was needed and Jake didn’t have any hesitations in providing his particular skills to aiding her. He was more than happy to oblige and seeing as though he clearly benefited from this as well, it was all the more reason for Jake to be on board with this. Her body was like a drug to him and Jake wanted to fill himself up with the taste and feel of her. His mouth moved greedily over hers, not caring how hasty or messy their kiss was. Those carnal urges were taking over and doing away with his care. His body was covered in a sheen of sweat as well, his rough movements over her making his body swelter. Jake couldn’t keep his hands off her supple breasts, kneading the mounds of flesh against his palms. He let out a growl of approval at her remark, so turned on by her confidence. It only made her more appealing to him. Jenna was a great match for him in the bedroom, able to go toe to toe with him in commentary and meet his needs sexually as well. The combination was almost overwhelming. Pounding into her repeatedly, Jake’s breaths became shallow as she gripped his shoulders firmly. He smirked wickedly as she turned them over and began to ride him. “Holy shit,” he breathed, his hands groping her ass as he jerked his hips forward. He watched the way her breasts bounced on her chest, mesmerized by the sight before kissing her back. He squeezed her ass, pulling her forward to meet each thrust he sent her way. He moaned deeply against her lips, feeling the first traces of the muscles in his stomach tightening.

With each passing moment, Jake was doing an even better job of distracting her from all her worries at home. That nagging feeling that something was going array somewhere else was always going to be on her mind, especially with being a mother, but for the first time in four years, it was barely bothering her. Though she knew very well it would hit her hard as soon as this was over, she owed it to herself to make the best of what she was feeling now. She needed a break from all the hassle in her life and a chance to feel good. Jake was the perfect solution. Kisses shared between them were getting sloppier by the second, and it was only a reminder that what else was going on was far too good to concentrate with their mouths. Jenna couldn’t say that she knew she was a screamer – in fact, she really didn’t know if this was how her body usually reacted to another’s or not. But right now, it was very prominent by the way her mouth fell open to each thrust, shouting for Jake’s touch. Now that she had switched their positions and moved to the top, she knew it was only a matter of seconds before she came crashing down on him, but she was going to make the most of it until then. Hearing his comment, she knew she had made the right move, and she was going to take advantage of the power she had now. With his hands on her ass, he was getting deeper into her and her moans were not stopping for anything. She fought to kiss him, finding it difficult with how fast her hips wanted to move. Only a few seconds longer before she broke the kiss and began to sit up on him now, allowing her body to bounce on top of him with a need to feel him as deep as possible. Her hands rested on his sweaty chest, her eyes closed, and her chest bouncing in front of him. One of her hands moved up to her hair, lifting it off her shoulders momentarily as she fought for any kind of air to her body as it heated up even more as a barely familiar feeling formed in her stomach. “God, Jake—“ she muttered, dropping her hair, and holding onto his shoulders now. She tried to warn him, though she couldn’t speak. Her hips thrusted faster, her mouth spilling a mixture of moans and his name. It wasn’t much longer before she lost it completely -- her toes curling and her fingers gripping the skin on his shoulders once more. She continued to ride him, becoming much louder with her murmurs as she felt ever last bit of what he had given her. Calming down, although barely, she leaned over him now, her face laying next to his and her sweaty hair bundled up on his cheek. 

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Jake barely felt in control of himself anymore as his body reacted at once to each sensation that flooded him. It was almost overwhelming just how much he was feeling all at once but Jake gave into it all entirely. There wasn’t a need for him to hold back, not with how much the girl beneath him egged him on. Jake could feel a connection to her, knowing without having to speak that they were on the same wavelength with this encounter now. Meeting cute girls at bars and bringing them back to his place wasn’t out of the norm for him. But he got the feeling that despite Jenna’s expert flirting, this wasn’t how she typically spent her nights. He could respect that and it only made him glad to know that for some reason, he was the exception to her rule. She could have easily flirted with him at the bar and gone on her way. Or she could have shot him down completely and not even have bothered giving him the time of day. Whatever it was that endeared him to her, Jake owed a lot to it. If it hadn’t been Jenna he was with tonight, it more than likely would have been someone else but even thinking about another girl right now was the very definition of impossible. Jenna was all he could see and Jake liked it that way. They had developed such an effortless rhythm with another that it felt as if this wasn’t their first time hooking up. She knew exactly what she wanted and in return, Jake would not deny her. The rest of the world fell away as their bodies synched together. He was picking up on her wants and had zero qualms in supplying her body with what it needed. It was a true sight for Jake to see Jenna completely lose it and let herself go in the moment. He wanted her to be well taken care of, for this night to be in her thoughts for days and weeks to come. Jake knew he would undoubtedly be reflecting back on tonight, allowing his memories to overtake whenever the girl’s name crossed his mind. Now that Jake was seeing her in this light, he would only want her again in the future. He hoped this would be a tradition for them, capping off her performance nights with a private show of their own. Perhaps he was getting ahead of himself but Jake couldn’t imagine that this wasn’t something the young woman would want to revisit whenever they crossed paths again. Watching her peak made Jake anxious to see what it’d be like to see her finish with him inside of her. If his mouth and fingers were capable of such a strong reaction, he had no doubts sex would push her over the edge twice as much. Though Jake got himself swept up in girls on a regular basis, he was always smart about each of his hookups, never opting to follow through with sex unless he was prepared. Jake memorized each inch of her body, eager to finish her off now that she was all but begging for it. Jenna was far too appealing to resist and Jake’s instincts were far too strong to stave off. As she gripped the sheets and he entered her, Jake’s felt a ripple of pleasure run down his spine. Working himself inside her, Jake let out moan after moan, not caring to silence or curb his reactions to her. His hands clawed at her sides as his hips bucked forward roughly. He couldn’t get enough of kissing her, his tongue working its way into her mouth sloppily. Moving his hand further up her frame, he gripped her breasts again, squeezing the mounds in his large hands, his lower half stirring tirelessly over hers. His mouth broke away to take in a clean breath, his lips settling against her ear. “You’re so fucking sexy, you know that?” he grunted, thrusting his hips repeatedly.

In the back of her mind, she was still wondering why she allowed herself to get to her current position. She knew she should be at home, taking care of Tyson and letting Kyle go on about his life. But that was her every day and night, constantly worrying about her son. It was her job as a mother, but she was also a college student trying to live her life. She felt guilty for having needs other than being a good mother, but she really couldn’t help it. And since she barely acted on it, she was giving it her all tonight, allowing those thoughts to be pushed as far back as possible as she focused only on moving with Jake’s body. She knew very well that she was only one of many girls for him. That was clear by how effortless this was all to him, and not just the act in the bedroom, but the way he spoke to her and easily got under her skin in the bar. She was addicted to him the moment she decided to speak to him, and she knew she would be a goner soon enough. The kisses shared between them were getting much sloppier, all because the moans coming from Jenna’s mouth were far too aggressive to kiss him back with any sort of reasonable rhythm. She was panting at his movements, already sweating from her forehead and her back that was being shoved further into the mattress as his weight overtook her. As his hands moved to her breasts, hers held on tightly to his shoulders, her fingernails unconsciously digging into the skin. He had only JUST made her come for the first time in years, yet he was well on his way to giving her round two. Again, she knew it wouldn’t be long for her, especially with the way her counterpart knew exactly what he was doing. He knew how to treat a girl’s body, and Jenna’s was responding rhythmically to his. Her head tilted back as his lips moved to her ear, and hearing his words, she smirked to herself. “Well aware,” she responded casually and confidently, hoping to maintain that persona rather than the nervous girl who was constantly worried about what she was missing out on as she ignored her real problems. With each thrust, her back arched, responding to him and already needing so much more. She wanted to show him she was more than just some girl in a bar he could take home, even if that was exactly who she was. Holding on tightly to his shoulders, she maneuvered their bodies around, flipping him to his back and gaining a position on top of him now, their bodies still connected. Now with more freedom, she began to work her body faster, riding her way on top of him as her hands found his hair and she leaned back in to capture his lips once more.

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Jake was surrendering himself to this night and all that was coursing through him. He channeled his wants and needs through her by means of his relentless pursuit. He got the sense of just how badly she not only wanted this but needed it. And if there was one thing Jake would never shy away from, it was the desires of an attractive girl. With each sound and arch of her back, she was wordlessly giving Jake the fuel he needed to proceed. Nothing would be able to deter him now anyway. He was so focused on his task of getting under the woman’s skin and leaving her something to remember for days or even weeks to come. The very idea of lasting in her thoughts for that long turned Jake on even more. He wanted to be the thought she had before going to bed at night, leaving a lasting impression on her. If that was the case then Jake knew it would only be a matter of time before they were getting tangled in the sheets once again. This night was nothing short of perfect. His luck was at an all-time high and Jake simply couldn’t get enough of Jenna. They weren’t moving as separate entities but rather one large part, a unit that knew exactly what the other needed to make the moment even more enjoyable. Jake was liking this vantage point, feeling her squirm and writhe against the bed because of his skill. He gripped her legs firmly as his face pressed up against her even more, his tongue rolling against her clit hurriedly to arouse her more. Jake could spend the whole night like this, going down on her and not resurfacing until it became too much for her. The girl’s reaction was a confidence booster for a guy whose ego had already been stroked all night. It felt as if Jake could do no wrong just then, every technique of his causing her to stir. Jake had more than enough practice in this area and was glad for it. His execution was always flawless, never failing to get a girl screaming out in pleasure. He could feel just how wet Jenna had become, his fingers making slick sounds as they moved in and out of her. Jake smirked to himself, sucking on her clit to push her over the edge. As she reached her end, Jake didn’t stop, his tongue darting around her core to help her ride out her orgasm. He hadn’t been fair in making her peak just then but Jake was greedy and was eager to make her cum twice in one night. He moved up her body, his hands making claims against her sides as she tugged at his boxers. This was what he liked to see, a girl who wasn’t afraid of showing or telling him what she wanted. He’d done his job well, making her anxious to feel him inside of her. His erection was quite noticeable and now that he’d succeeded in pleasuring her so intently, Jake was in desperate need of a release himself. Jake nodded and reached over to his nightstand, opening the drawer and pulling out a condom. He tore open the wrapper and slipped the rubber onto his length, his eyes shamelessly glinting as he looked up and down her naked body. Jake pushed her knees down against the bed, spreading her open and positioning himself between her legs. He leaned his head down, kissing against her neck as he slid the tip of his cock into her. He let out a deep moan at the sensation of her surrounding his length. Pushing into her steadily, Jake hissed, his hips shifting to accommodate his size. His hands clutched her sides firmly as he filled her, pulling his face back to watch her. His hips rocked slowly, teasingly as he leaned in once more and kissed her hungrily, sucking on her bottom lip.

Jenna knew she was no longer making any attempt to hide just how badly her desire was burning through her now. It was so clear how badly she needed this, and while Jake might not have known WHY, she knew he was going to take care of it. She was sure with just how eager her body was responding to his that it would be no question that this was out of the ordinary for Jenna, but she hoped she could play it off as simply being a slave to his body – which really was true, the way his body reacted to hers was undeniably addicting. Moans were slipping constantly, and she was sure they would be heard on the other side of the wall. She had no knowledge of their surroundings, not even sure what part of town they were in as she was so eager to get this underway on the way here that she hadn’t even paid attention.  All in all, she didn’t know much about this boy at all, other than that he knew how to work his tongue and he was currently taking her as his own prisoner. She didn’t mind at all as her hips rocked against him, allowing his tongue to work its way through her. Even as she had completely let go of herself, she found it unbearable to sit still, his tongue and fingers still working to keep her over the edge and allow her to ride it out. She laid there underneath him, breathless as ever and feeling far too out of shape for the way his body was working hers. Though she pulled through, knowing this wasn’t even the worst ( or really BEST ) of it. Calming down from her high, she was determined to bring them back together as one again – this time, giving herself more power as it would be equal. Though this couldn’t begin without the one thing that she swore she would never do without again, and as she watched him reach for a condom, she let out a small sigh of relief. She hated bringing it up, hated drawing attention to it. Even if it was a normal thing that people were going to do regardless, she had to cover all her bases. It clearly hadn’t ruined the mood as he quickly moved to place it on himself. Her eyes followed his, watching him take her in, and a smile crept onto her face once more. He liked what he saw, which only boosted her confidence and reminded her that she was brought here because he wanted her. And sometimes, that’s all she needed to know – that someone DID want her, and right now, he was proving it physically. Her legs quickly adjusted, opening wide and giving him plenty of room. Her hands reached out to grip the sheets, desperate for anything to hold onto as he slowly began to enter her. The moans became louder, nearly turning into screams as he began to actually move inside her. Her hands shot to his shoulder blades, gripping any sort of loose skin tightly and digging her fingernails into him as she began to rock her hips against his. Before she had time to prepare for it, her screams were buried by his lips on hers once more, and she responded with the same amount of passion, desperate to absorb the taste of his lips. Her legs moved upwards, wrapping around his thighs as she fought to keep him as close to her as possible. She continued to thrust upwards, sweat filling her forehead already as their bodies continued to crash into one another.