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My name is Jerrin, and I'm using the internet. The same today, yesterday, and for an undetermined amount of time. jerrinpunchestrains.tumblr.com/ask

[jerrinpunchestrains]

fear

whew lads its been a while hasn’t it?

I never understood the fear of work bleeding into your life outside of work hours until now. It’s scary because I keep telling myself I’ll put in the extra work for just a few more days to get past this project, but there’s a lot going on right now that could determine how much further I can really get. I want to excel at work, but I want to excel during those 40 hours and nothing else. 

I want to reserve my free time for getting out my dreams - film and whatnot. When my job was ‘easier’ I would take time after work to actually edit things and formulate how to turn the dream into dollars. I’m scared that I’m losing this balance. This is my conscious effort to seize that balance back.

I wish I knew more about everything right now, and knew what was the ‘right’ thing out of all the possible things that I know.

That’s about it.  Love your moms n pops.

[jerrinpunchestrains]

never going to fail

i’m at a time in my life where I’m living 2393 miles from honolulu in san francisco. every day i’m learning to adapt to a new routine. i’m constantly surrounded by really smart people, the kind who are written about and set standards for others. i’ve learned that they’re all normal, but to get to where they are now they’ve done a whole lot i’ll never get to see. i’m doing more every day. i’ve seen Kanye West live. i get it. i’m constantly feeling like less, but living a lifestyle of wanting to do more. im never going to fail. i have nowhere to go but up. 

[jerrinpunchestrains]

“EVERYBODY WANTED TO KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO IF I DIDN’T WIN.

I guess we’ll never know.”

- Kanye West

[jerrinpunchestrains]

10 day

my flight is in 10 days. 

historically, i’ve been pretty bad at picturing myself in a new mindset. it’s lead me down some pretty bad paths and to some fairly questionable decisions.

this is going to be the first time i’m going to be really be on my own. i’ve been inside my own head for 22 years and it’s hard enough as it is. i’ll have a new structure in my life. maybe i’ll try to roam oakland and find cyphers on the corner. or i’ll sit in cafes drinking black coffee from mason jars. or i can play world of warcraft again, thank Jesus. 

right now i’m in the comfort of my own home and loved ones nearby. in 10 days, i am no longer in that zone. my habitat changes. i hope i don’t.

[yars]

[supersexyawesomeness]

[jerrinpunchestrains]

thank goodness

4 months of unemployed snowballing depreciating self worth and i finally have a job

way off in san francisco

ill be able to fly home every other month and do some fun things

and ill be able to grow or something both professionally and personally

and it was 60 degrees from sunrise to sunset thats just amazing

and the company is lit i can wear slippers and joggers every day to work and theyll feed me during the week

ive been telling my friends and family how happy i am and i really do feel that way. the support ive had during this transition was amazing and i am extremely thankful. now i want to return their goodwill.

thanks Jesus you a wavy dude

[ilovemesomequotes]

[jerrinpunchestrains]

trade the noise for a piece of divine

[jerrinpunchestrains]

i always thought RICO had the hardest beat ever, the kind where you smoke a cigar while the camera comes up from a dutch angle about 10 feet away in a dim neon lit room or coming out of a vague urban hotel, all at 240 fps slowmo. when the bars start dropping it goes back to 24 fps (cinematic reasons) keeping the camera at middle school dance arms length. 

right now i don’t feel the need to do anything i do that isn’t directly related to me getting a decent job. by decent I mean the type where i can pay off my debts and live a low key top 8% of the nation. it gets hard writing a custom cover letter every time explaining how much you want to work for that place, and no where else and sounding like a child at their first time going to disneyland to every interviewer. i just need the steps out the way and get myself some green. ill do my best, im really good at stuff. please hire me. im going insane. 

[jerrinpunchestrains]

my obsessions include seeing how people tick because its a life i will never get to have. i get personal space and everything and i have my own life, but isn’t finding out how a hotdog is made just as fascinating as how your friends, family, and strangers think? 

the hardest part of course is that you can only make assumptions. there are no facts when it comes to dealing with others, sometimes they don’t even know how they work. 

:^)

[jerrinpunchestrains]

4am in Honolulu

Hard work beats talent, but when talent works hard

You best believe talent’s about to go far

and I believe my talent is going hard

In everything I wanna achieve, I do not chase awards

I chase paper, I believe in chasing a few dreams

I may decide to collect a few reams

A couple racks in dollars or maybe in pounds, 

the weight I push, I really don’t fuck around

I do not wait for what I want, I push to start getting it

I dream of a whip with a push to start setting

Setting things in motion instead of waiting for stars to align

I may wake up from dreaming of dollar signs

It’s all signs that the dreams about to be over

I brought the action so now reality’s taking over

[jerrinpunchestrains]

money tight like a redneck and a wife beater

i put my christmas gifts in the fire and stoke the heater

[gotinstarblog-deactivated201512]

[half-black-phillip]

I’m so mad because this worked

[untexting]

ROGER HELP ME

[jerrinpunchestrains]

school is trying to kill my passions but i won’t let it

[jerrinpunchestrains]

yeezy season 3

that was the weirdest and one of the most disorganized things ever where the fuck is the album

[subnet-mask]

[berniesandersdaily]

Source: http://m.imgur.com/a/hB6kz

[eviltessmacher]

And he stood up for all of these positions years before Hillary did.

Actively fought for them in the face of conservitard obstruction.

Hillary changed to these positions after Bernie’s poll numbers started going up.