Stammering is the Native Eloquence of us Fog People

Call me Hux. Find me on AO3 as TheHuxler. Enjoyed my thoughts? Buy me a coffee! Lover of psychosexual obsessions, writer of bad slash fic. Cursed pairing pioneer. Jim Mac hater. Don't repost to other sites without permission. Proship. Transitioning to follows from sideblog.

[thehuxler]

They refer to you as a horse btw which feels incredibly fucked up to me and make up shit you said that you didn't say like calling Heather Mills a whore and for some reason they think you're way older than you are?

Anon, I understand you're coming from a good place...but I genuinely don't want to hear this stuff. I blocked for a reason.

[thehuxler]

For those who doubt who the horse is referring to:

[thehuxler]

I really like your take on an Omegaverse in FOWS its not something Ive come across before but its so interesting and well done. The idea of a super Omega is very clever especially when it comes to Paul. What gave you the idea for it, is there something specific you want to explore this way? So impressed with the world building.

What I like about ABO is how it makes gender issues inignorable and can rob someone of their agency and autonomy under the yoke of heat cycles and presentations and I think that's essentially analogous to the trauma of puberty that many non traditional gender presenting people experience.

Paul already had issues with his gender and identity early on in that he doesn't align strongly with any gender or desire to be one, but still being a beta is seen as a personal flaw and failure because it means he's failing to be a fetish object for someone else. He wants to be desired. He wants to be good. But at the same time secondary genders are filthy and sexualized by his father Jim.

So standard ABO is already to interesting with Paul, but then in a kind of "careful what you wish for way"...what if Paul did get what he wanted, in that he IS the most desired and perfect thing, but instead of that making him happy it runs parallel to the trauma of beatlemania in how they become violently divorced from their own person hood into advertising/media/desire objects.

Essentially, most of my fics are concerned with "how can I make this worse?" For Paul, that's forcing him to confront not only the feminine aspects of his gender that he's long denied, but by making him so intensely sexed that it destroys his personhood. Similar to what happened during beatlemania, but much more personal, much more aggressive, and in such a way that he won't be able to find solace as he did in being the coke slag prince of London.

The boys always said the thing about beatlemania is that there are only ever three other people who really understand it. Even if they have horrible fights, there's still only three other people who can understand the reality bending experiences they went through. But now Paul is going to be catapulted beyond that. And he'll be alone.

[thehuxler]

for the Buffalo Wild Wings stuff…. here you go

https://archiveofourown.org/series/6153006

That's really cool and sweet and also this is ending my life:

God bless those guys boning on the bathroom floor of a bottom of the barrel middle America chain

[poisedwalrus]

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE MORE LESBIAN MCLENNON!!!!!! I love your art so much btw... It inspires me to draw whatever freaky stuff I want too! 🫶

(´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) yay, thank you for telling me; that makes me happy! i like folks drawing whatever freaky stuff their hearts desire (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧

(received after this lesbian mclennon . approximate current answering delay: 4.5 months ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ )

[thehuxler]

"fetishizing" is the word you use when you're a bigot who wants to shame women/queer/trans people for liking/representing something you think is weird but you don't want anyone to know you're a bigot

[beetleboy29]

new fic!!!

calling all trans paul enjoyers

https://archiveofourown.org/works/86039191

lady madonna, baby at your breast by princeofyourdreams

rating: explicit

summary: Well, don’t leave me on the edge of my seat. Think I deserve to know why I’m prohibited from shagging you, after all.”

Paul looked away, cheeks red and brows furrowed together. “He said that, well, if I want to get knocked up by you then I need to find somewhere else to stay. Said he wouldn’t be spending a dime on a bastard Lennon baby. So you can’t do anything with, my, y’know.”

Or: In which John is willing to do anything to piss of Jim McCartney.

[thehuxler]

do u remember ur buffalo wild wings fic... bcuz me and my friend made something inspired by it.. lmk... 😭😭😭

I'm so curious what this is. I hope it's not chicken wings that have been rubbed on the bathroom floor where those guys got it on but I AM invested

[thehuxler]

Always in either my "Bigger than Jesus" John Lennon torture nexus or my 1970s Paul McCartney "smothering himself in his pillows" torture nexus

[crypticbugs]

Every time I’m inconvenienced I’m just chanting to myself “I’m just like 1970 Paul McCartney I’m just like him I know his burden and suffering”

[sluttynurse]

me in the not-so-distant future of 2032 taking my beautiful wife out for a walk on a foggy day: damn it's like silent hill up in this bitch! 😂

my wife: fuck you you say that every time it's a little foggy outside. you haven't even played the games. i hate you so much

our clone of former beatles drummer ringo starr who we normally keep locked in our basement but is currently joining us for his allotted 30 minutes of weekly outside time: ringo!

[thehuxler]

will his wittle earsies grow back at least 🥺 he's so poor meow meow (literally now lol)

He will not escape being a cat boy so easily

[thehuxler]

Eek the recent chapter!! Poor Paulie!! But also can't stop thinking about John calling him kitten now and imaging his reaction when he next sees Paul. Youre breaking my brain.

Excellent writing as ever!!

Publishing this ask because it has the least spoilers to say thank you so much for your kind words, this anon and all the others! The last time the boys saw Paul was him getting carried off by Mal post car ride, so the transformation and Paul's state will be quite shocking to say the least, though I do think Neil may have done as Neil does and gotten the boys some prostitutes for the night....given the rut....

[hqbeatles]

[thehuxler]

I think because mclennon is not your favorite ship, that's why your John is so well written and genuinely captivating. It's a truly toxic dynamic that I want to see in mclennon. FOWS is crazy good by the way, I love the world-building so much!

Yes! Thank you so much! Truly I oscillate back and forth between being like it's good that the mclennon dream of John living and him and Paul getting together didn't work out because I don't believe John would have gotten over his toxicity and certainly not with Paul enabling him. But also I don't think Paul ever got over his death and still to this day yearns and is incomplete....and that's why I love writing it because Paul's life is ruined because of John with or without him. The psychic soul connection is too great.

[thehuxler]

whose pov do you enjoy writing from the most?

YNGMYM was partly so difficult to write because it had so many POVs. Brian's and George Martin's I struggled with the most, though George Martin was hardest overall. Brian has a bit of that little boy in over his head energy, hidden down at the core of him, so that sorta opens him up like a flower and makes him a little easier to write, but with George Martin he's just so antithetical to who I am as a person--self assured and professional (though we share the deadpan).

I have the easiest time writing Paul, because I write whump and zero in on his issues. Outwardly trying to seem as normal as possible and gaslighting himself into being happy while deep down he feels like a freak and inherently unlovable. Easier for me to write, and something I enjoy deeply, too. John also is a joy to write, because of the similar neuroticism and unpredictability!

[thehuxler]

I’m so confused why do ppl hate u

John Lennon/Jim Mac haterism backed up with facts and lack of respect/tact

[thehuxler]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 3/? Fandom: The Beatles (Band) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: John Lennon/Paul McCartney Characters: Paul McCartney, John Lennon, Brian Epstein, Stuart Sutcliffe, Jim McCartney, George Harrison (The Beatles), Ringo Starr Additional Tags: Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Alpha John Lennon, Omega Paul McCartney, Cat Ears, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Hamburg, Implied/Referenced Prostitution, Body Dysphoria, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Fluff and Angst, Crack Treated Seriously, Like so incredibly seriously, Beta Paul McCartney, Presentation Summary:

The week after his mother dies, Jim sits Paul down at the kitchen counter and rolls the amber bottle back and forth in his hand. He explains it plainly. He explains it directly. He tells Paul about the bad blood in his mother, and he tells Paul that if he doesn't take the pills, he'll die too.

Or:

Paul takes his pills. He never presents. In 1963, he finds out why.