My _shifting_blog

any prounances/ / ukr/eng// Im trying to shift, and talk about my life

[jesisletmelive]

I have personal gripe with shifting posts everywhere to be honest, is that when theres even singular pst about ur s/o it always spirals into having children with them. Why do people want to have kids tgat badly. Even if u script out all the "icky" stuff n will be perfect parent u never had, i feel like its still weird. Prolly bc most of shifting posts being undeniably made my cishets who live their cishet lives i will never understand who knows

Obvi i cant stop u from living ur best life, but its very annoying to look for s/o motivation n posts being "BUT IMAGINE BEING PREGNANT FOR 9 MONTHS N RIPPING URSELF APART SO A CHILD HAS A MAN FATHER" idk it just irks me as a bit too much motivation. Idk pregnancy n childbirth n children in general disgust me. Why cant we just mitosis why do humans have to do this

Like,,, is that really all u people see urself as? An incubator? Really?? Thats ur deepest desire?? I really dont care on personal level, but as a person who sees this online i just keep remembering the girl with the list. Im not saying u should want children or ure selfish for wanting children or that i even care if u do have or dont have children in ur personal desired reality. I dont care. But why kust everything be so man-centered. Ure a shifter for fucks sake, becoming a mother isnt ur only purpose!!!

Ur personal life isnt mine, but as long as no one is hurt i really dont care. I just dont get it neither in CR or DR, it all sounds repetitive n like hell. But yeah no my idea of DR would also be disgusting to people who want to start families with their S/O, its fine. Its just.... So sad to see that's the best thing u couldve imagine u n ur s/o doing in ur quantum infinite lives. Just tragic

[jesisletmelive]

Do i have anger issues ir anxiety or both

[jesisletmelive]

Oh btw im getting expelled/taking mu documents out of uni bc it sucked balls to be there

Genuinely worst experience of my life, n I'm actively experiencing war. I shouldve gotten a job n not went into university. Genuinely fuck this shit im out

But ill be able to take my documents only in two weeks aka end of may. Which suckssssssss

[jesisletmelive]

Its so weird to not be able to burp when ure scared, like i really need to burp but if i do i feel like im gonna throw up

I just scared to talk to unj staff n proffesor n thats it, i need to talk for maximum of 5 minutes n im terrified of this for last month daily

[threedollarsdotcom]

working on our autobiography

PART ONE

i cant tell you any of that stuf

THE ENT

[jesisletmelive]

I was trying to splice thragg 3-4 lines of voice lines from teaser n the moment i stopped trying to get some water i walked into my beds corner n sliced my knee... I feel like its a sign

Compilation of said lines without background noise, art by @/d0rksausalito

[jesisletmelive]

I hate my university n even more i hate proforientation bc i just got dropped from only call they accepted n they dropped me when i mentioned my university name i hate it i hate it i hate it

Why should i do this shit, bc everyone doing this, so i should go kill myself if everyone does it?? Fuck that

[8bit-mau5]

[jesisletmelive]

I was gonna buy a figure for my friend but didnt see that the person ordering it (it was a lot) put out a message saying theyve brought it n i only today found message confirming my purchase FROM THREE DAYS AGO aka DAY I HAD MONEY n since then i already spent it on other stuff so i literally fucked up n probably gonna be blacklisted from that place bc tg didnt show me messages in time

[jesisletmelive]

Im in awful mood bc of that n feel so embarrassed bc i shouldve known better but i didnt

[jesisletmelive]

I was gonna buy a figure for my friend but didnt see that the person ordering it (it was a lot) put out a message saying theyve brought it n i only today found message confirming my purchase FROM THREE DAYS AGO aka DAY I HAD MONEY n since then i already spent it on other stuff so i literally fucked up n probably gonna be blacklisted from that place bc tg didnt show me messages in time

[freakoutgirl]

Avoidance is the worst reaction to stress. Oh this thing is giving me anxiety? And it's something I could prepare for by looking at it more or learning things about the topic? No, I will take psychological damage if I look at it directly. I will still be thinking about it and be stressed though.

[jesisletmelive]

Job was fun. Being shown a photo of my home back in hometown without windows wasnt.

I dont recognise my home. Not for lack of windows. But in general. Its like... Ive never been at home at all. Its just a room. Its just a place i GREW UP IN. N i dont recognize anything there. I just. I dont know. It feels wrong looking at it. I dont recognise it. Its like im not looking at it. Im looking at anything at all. I know, logically, its my home n i miss it. But my home didnt look like how it actually does.

I had such a good day n now im reminded im in active or semi-active war zone n my future will suck so badly bc of global warming n shit. I dont know why i grew up, i dont want that.

[jesisletmelive]

Chat i am employed n have a job n tomorrow my first work day n i will work at a quest room

I feel awesome

[jesisletmelive]

Party woohoo

[jesisletmelive]

Feeling like water jesus

[jesisletmelive]

Im sorry for not posting, my brain convinced me im evil for... *Check motes* Asking my dad to drive me to the bus stop

[jesisletmelive]

I got a new laptop thx to my parents n dying trying to sync it up bc turns out, most of my files weigh a ton