Inside the Mind of A Free Spirit

Who am I? I am someone who has known pain, joy, disappointment, happiness, discouragement, laughter, contentment, emptiness, depression, sorrow, and peace. And In the End I Hope it was all worth it!!

[jesright14]

"I never really wanted to let you go, but how you longed to be free. Many people say letting go is the most difficult challenge of love. But they are so wrong. Letting you go wasnt the hard part. Setting you free and watching you walk away didnt rip out my heart. You wanna know what is the hardest, most painful part of love. Reality. No matter how much I run and run, night will surly come, as will the morning dew. Waking up to the cold hard truth everyday, facing it, touching it, feeling it, that's the hard truth no one prepares you for. Reality will set in and I must come to terms with just what I meant to you. Realizing I was a basic pawn, used for your next move. Just as bait is casted down into the murky water, used to attract the next big catch.   Nothing more than waiting room reading material, Used to keep busy, and help pass the time. When I was no longer needed for your pleasure, I was returned, but not nearly as whole as I started. You took all you wanted from me, then laid me down for the next person to use. That's Reality."

Jessica Right

[jesright14]

Many nights when sleep won't come, I often play out visions of my future, or what I hope they will be. As always you are the main character, as much as I don't like it, you always steal the show. You're what my visions are built upon. Closing my eyes, I envision what your touch will feel like against my skin. Your rough callused exterior still glides ever so softly  against my eager layer of skin, that longs for your touch. The way you wrap your strong arms around my delicate frame, like it may be your last time, makes my body tremble. When you hold me in your arms I am fulfilled, everything that I am lacking you bring. You look at me with complete satisfaction, like I'm everything you have been waiting, hoping, and praying for. I can see contentment in your eyes and it fills my soul like nothing before ever has. When our eyes meet, that feeling I get deep in my abdomen, words just can't define. In that moment, my body goes numb, a chill runs down my entire being, I gasp for air, for you've seemed to have taken my last breathe. I have lost everything else in my sight but you, you are all I can see. You are all I want to see. Like many others, I have experienced death first hand, too soon. I swore to myself in those painful goodbyes I wouldn't take moments like this for granted, because I know these incredible moments, people, and feelings don't last forever. But God do I hold on so fiercely to this feeling, to this moment, to you because I know soon you will have to depart from me, as you do every night. You see your presence only exist in my head and I haven't even met you yet.

Jessica Right

[letters-to-the-sea]

There’s a part of me that wants to just absolutely lose it. I want to be in the same room with you and not be afraid to look at you too long or be afraid that you’d catch me. I want to be able to run up to you and touch you and not care that we’ve missed our chance. I want to stop trying to avoid your eyes and I want to stop trying not to smile at you too much or hug you for too long. There’s a part of me that wants to be brave enough to love you openly because it hurts too much not to show it. But that’s not the way it works. The truth is that sometimes, we meet people and it perfectly makes sense to be with them and love them and choose them but we think we’re not good enough or that we’re too fucked up and we don’t deserve that kind of happiness because everything we touch dies and it will never work because we’re too broken and that’s just the way we are… so we let go, and we watch from afar, we wonder what it would have been like, and we try to be okay with that.

Genefe Navilon (via letters-to-the-sea)

[letters-to-the-sea]

Just love her. Love her even if the timing is not right. Choose her even if she might not be the most obvious choice. Look at her even if she’s a painful thing to watch. Save her even if she doesn’t want saving. Love her. Love her. Love her and you’ll never get it wrong.

Genefe Navilon (via letters-to-the-sea)

[wnq-writers]

1) Take me to the sea so that I may scream at the waves Let the water reach for my feet. Do not let me wade any further. Grab me by the wrists and pull While the water bites at my ankles and fights back This is how you love me. 2) When you wake up and see me Playing hide and seek with the moon, Let me wander the room with bare legs and Whisper to her as if she were a child suppressing her giggles with a hand. Only lull me back to sleep When I am quiet even for the early hours. This is how you love me. 3) When I balance the scissors between my fingers And lock the bathroom door, do not hit It with your fist or even knock tenderly I tremble at the thought of hurting the body you have kissed so do not worry. I will just cut my hair the way I have since I was a child, By myself and when my insides are on the verge Of spilling out; when I feel like am I no longer myself and must purge the stranger. There is no cure for this. I learned long ago that hair will grow back. Among other things. This is how you love me. 4) This is how you love me: With one fistful of my hair And the other running over my cheek. Like I’m a teapot, boiling hot within, And will whistle and scream without warning. This is how you love me; you bind my hands and Murmur in my ear that it will be okay. Every morning you watch me stumble And scrape my knee. Cleanse it with hydrogen peroxide and wrap It in soft white cloth while I twist and kick away from you. This is how you love me and this is why I’ve never really been loved.

l.m.m., This is how you love me (via wordsnquotes)

[deeplifequotes]

You have to find something. Something that anchors you, something that keeps you looking forward. Even on the bad days, the days when you’re tempted to look back.

[deeplifequotes]

As you get older you start doing things in reverse. You start cutting people out from your life. Your Christmas list becomes practically nonexistent. You don’t need to be the first in line for everything. You take less pictures because some memories are best kept in your heart and not your hard drive. And instead of looking for love, you dig for it from within.

[deeplifequotes]

I want to be your favorite place to go when you’ve had a bad day or a good day.

[deeplifequotes]

Don’t practice until you get it right. Practice until you can’t get it wrong. - Unknown

[deeplifequotes]

Refuse to ruin a perfectly good today by thinking about a bad yesterday.

[deeplifequotes]

You can’t really begin to appreciate life until it has knocked you down a few times. You can’t really begin to appreciate love until your heart has been broken. And you can’t really begin to appreciate happiness until you’ve known sadness. Once you’ve walked through the valley, the view from the mountaintop is breathtaking. - Susan Gale

[deeplifequotes]

Everything is either an obstacle to growth, or an obstacle to keep you from growing. The good thing is: you get to choose. - James Altucher

[deeplifequotes]

When you learn to survive without anyone, you can survive anything. - The Sculptress

[deeplifequotes]

Disappointments, challenges, and failures were not meant to destroy you. They were meant to strengthen you. – Joel Osteen

[deeplifequotes]

There are two types of pain in this world: pain that hurts you, and pain that changes you.

[deeplifequotes]

Start now. Start where you are. Start with fear. Start with pain. Start with doubt. Start with hands shaking. Start with voice trembling but start. Start and don’t stop. Start where you are, with what you have. Just start. - Ijeoma Umebinyuo

[deeplifequotes]

Some people pass through our lives for a season to teach us lessons that could never be learned if they stayed. - Mandy Hale