𝒜 ℬℯ𝒶𝓊𝓉𝒾𝒻𝓊𝓁 ℳℯ𝓈𝓈

🌼Art•Poetry•Photography•True Crime•Nature•History🌼 •Instagram Photography: @beauty.of.life.captured• 🛒Thrifting Queen🛒 https://www.youravon.com/jjohnson5986

[jess-is-a-mess]

My old Photography/Edits🌹 2019

[seasonsxgreetings]

[jess-is-a-mess]

I work 13 hour shifts, when you where born without an arch in your feet it really takes a toll. Got in my car after work and had a mental breakdown in the parking lot because my feet where hurting so bad I just wanted my shift to be over. My boss asked if I cleaned kennel 12 before I left, I said yes. My coworker called over the radio if kennel 12 had been cleaned, I said yeah, I just cleaned it. Turns out I cleaned kennel 12 outside not inside. Embarrassed, and about to breakdown I was apologizing over and over. She was really understanding, granted I am new to my kennel assistant job but I felt so useless and stupid. My anxiety isn't built for this. Whenever I mess something so simple like that up, especially in a professional environment, it makes me feel useless and like I'm uncapable. Because I try so hard, but I always tend to mess something up. I take pride in doing my best and pressing through even if i am in pain. I don't like complaining, I don't like being late, I don't like doing anything unless I do it to my fullest. Ugh, I wish my mind didn't work this way. It's exhausting.

[dankmemeuniversity]

[sunsbleeding]

JUST HOLDING ON //

[quotefeeling]

“When nobody else celebrates you, learn to celebrate yourself. When nobody else compliments you, then compliment yourself. It’s not up to other people to keep you encouraged. It’s up to you. Encouragement should come from the inside.”

— Joel Osteen

[jess-is-a-mess]

I wish time passed as fast as it does when I'm just sitting scrolling on my phone waiting for my 12 hour shift to start.

[nudygoon]

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Currently me 5:30am I have 13 hour shift

[dimpledthings]

never discount the possibility that this change might turn out to be for the better.

sometimes a new way of living gives you a new perspective on what’s possible.

[parfavar]

😐

[forever-blondie]

Lita Ford, Debbie Harry and Joan Jett by Chris Stein

[jess-is-a-mess]

Today was one of those days 💫I cried at work💫

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My sunflowers are thriving! I can't wait till they bloom!🌻💕

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Summer/2021 🌞

[love-notes-to-survivors]

You absolutely do not support people with mental illness if you call us difficult or selfish or get mad at us or tell us to just get over it or that we're looking for attention the minute we show symptoms, especially symptoms that you don't like. Mental illness isn't going to conveniently cater to what you think it should look or be like. Physical illnesses don't and you don't get mad at people for having symptoms of those.

[lon3lygurl205]

My mom has BPD and it's very difficult to live with her. You have to very mindful but it's hard. It's difficult when we end up disagreeing and fight because she says hurtful things but then later blames it on not being in the right mind set and never takes responsibility for her words. Thats not right and it's hurtful.

[love-notes-to-survivors]

As someone with BPD, that is definitely not okay. Your mom needs to learn to take accountability for her own actions and words and keep working towards that not happening anymore. Having a mental illness or any condition at all is, of course, never an excuse to hurt someone else.

As someone with BPD, I know I hurt people sometimes but I take accountability for my actions, try to learn where they come from, and work hard towards changing them.

Everyone with any mental health condition is different and it's not right for anyone to use a condition to excuse hurting others.

I have had people with different mental illnesses treat me really, really terribly. But I know it isn't a reflection of everyone with the illness, and that believing it is can be harmful to everyone else with that illness. The harm they caused may have been triggered or informed somewhat by their illness, but it was ultimately a reflection of them and their refusal to take accountability, apologise sincerely and make amends and have intentions to change.