my mom says i'm cool

jesse 'skywalker' peterson. twenty-one. "why don't they call it planet trek? you never go to a star…"

[samsmithdaily]

February 26, 2015: LEAVING THE BOX IN SOHO WITH ED SHEERAN

[gdichloe-deactivated20150401]

Yeah, I guess? Anyway, um, I’ll leave you alone since you probably have better things to do.

[jessespeterson]

Oh, er, alright. I don't actually, but if you're looking for a reason to leave I guess I should be studying right now. So… Yeah, walk away if you want to, I won't get offended.

[lcrrxine-deactivated20200914]

No, it was definitely mine because I kissed him first when I should’ve known better. This is why I don’t like talking about it—or one of the reasons why. It makes people uncomfortable and they don’t know what to say and feel bad for me, and I don’t want you to feel like you have to say anything because it is what it is and nothing can take back what happened. …I don’t know if that made sense. Oh, thanks, Jesse. I really appreciate that… I don’t know. I’ve never really spent it with anyone other than my dad. Plus… I doubt you’d want to spend your day sitting in a graveyard for someone you didn’t know.

[jessespeterson]

You… Er, okay. I don't know what to say about that. Were you drunk? 'Cause if you were it's in no way your fault. I-I… (he clears his throat) I'm not uncomfortable Rose, nor do I feel bad for you, or feel the need to say anything. I just want to find a way to say whatever I can to make you feel somewhat better during a depressing time, and I have no idea how to say exactly that without sounding emotionless or rude. That definitely made sense, we don't have to talk about it anymore if you don't want to. You're very much welcome, Melrose. Well, I didn't know her, but I know you, and I want to make sure you're okay. I can just sit near the gates while you spend your time with her, I don't mind.

[queendodger-deactivated20150727]

Since when do you care about what any of our family members tell us or think about us?

[jessespeterson]

That's true… If anything, those two things should make me want to give her a gift even more… I guess I don't want to get on your mother's bad side, and giving her a gift seems to be the quickest way to get there.

[xo-skyler]

It’s been around for five years? I’ve only recently started to hear of it’s popularity and seen their stuff everywhere. Not yet, I’ll probably have to watch it soon on Netflix or something. Oh I see, so he was just the original and Zachary Quinto took it over in the new editions.

[jessespeterson]

Yeah, it's been around for a while. Like I said, it's one of those shows that never really got the attention it deserved, which is probably why you've only recently started hearing about it. Yeah, exactly. In fact, Nimoy and Quinto became good friends after Quinto was cast as Spock, which is kind of awesome. You should watch the original series though, the new movies are garbage in comparison.

[gdichloe-deactivated20150401]

Okay, fine, whatever. If it even does because I have a few things to talk with the publisher. You don’t have to read it in front of me, you know. Oh, um, thanks. Well, yeah, I can understand that I guess. I had seconds thought on writing about you, which is weird because I usually just write.

[jessespeterson]

Oh, okay. Good. Well… Thank you? I think. I don't think it's that weird actually, you were probably just worried I wouldn't be okay with it or something.

[ok-christopher-blog]

That all sounds really mean though..and even though he doesn’t look like Aladdin, he still has nipples. Isn’t there a nicer way to do it?

[jessespeterson]

Well he's not freaking Gaston, is he? Sweet Lord, no wonder people hate our generation. Do you want him trained or not? If you do you're going to have to learn to be meaner, Christopher Robin.

[gdichloe-deactivated20150401]

You don’t have to tell me your innermost thoughts just because you would have read mine. If it’s going to be a novel I’m going to have to let other people read what I was thinking at that moment, that includes you too. You, um, honestly think that it’ll turn out to be a bestseller? If you’re not okay with it then I won’t publish it. I mean I have other stories that I could try to get him interested in, but it’s not worth it if you’re not okay with it.

[jessespeterson]

Okay, maybe that's true, but I don't think that's fair. Oh, yeah, erm… Maybe I'll read it when it comes out then. I guess I don't feel comfortable reading it in front of, uh, here. Yeah, why wouldn't it be a bestseller? You're a great writer. It's your intellectual property Chloe, if you want to publish it then go ahead. I don't mind. I guess it's just a bit of an overwhelming idea, to basically be someone's, er, inspiration or whatever...

[lcrrxine-deactivated20200914]

Oh gosh, no. It wasn’t his fault, it was mine. Wait, what? Are you talking about Easter? That’s not till April. But, no… it’s not about Jesus. It’s… um, I don’t really like talking about it, but….. um… the anniversary of my mom’s death is coming up… Sorry. It’s just my dad and I have never been apart for it, and he’s not here right now, so its been a bit harder this year. Sorry, I didn’t mean to put that on you. What about a big chocolate chip cookie? That’s unbeatable. I did? I don’t know what I did, but I’m glad you’re at least feeling a little better. You’re welcome, Jesse.

[jessespeterson]

It was yours? I doubt that, you're probably just blaming yourself for it because you're a freaking angel. Oh. I, um, er. I'm sorry for… I'm sorry, Melrose. I can't imagine what that's like. If you want someone to spend it with, since your dad isn't around right now, I'm always here. So is Professor X. And er, Scar and everyone else that's… I don't know where I'm going with this. I'm just sorry about, er, yeah.

[yeahchlo]

What the hell is that supposed to mean? I am not one-dimensional. Don’t you have comic books to collect or something?

[jessespeterson]

...I was trying to be funny… I think… I'm not sure anymore. Uh, but I'm sure I wasn't joking about the Fashion Week thing. Isn't there one happening in London right now that you should be at?

[scarbby-deactivated20150406]

Oh! Oh, that’s awful! I remember watching Star Trek with my dad as a little girl.

[jessespeterson]

Yeah, it's one of the greatest series of all time, no one can deny it. He was even in the recent movies, everyone loved him. The sad part is this is only the beginning of the end, since we're only going to start to lose more of the original Star trek cast members… Fuck, I didn't even think about it that way until now…

[scarbby-deactivated20150406]

….Jesse, you’re thinking too much. The blue one is just to represent water.

[jessespeterson]

Is the blue bead made of water then? How does that even work?!

[queendodger-deactivated20150727]

Yeah, failing miserably. How about we both get her something?

[jessespeterson]

Alright alright, don't rub it in. Er, I don't think your mom wants a present from me. Not to mention my grandma would kill me for even thinking about doing that.

[ok-christopher-blog]

And how exactly do you recommend “training” him, then?

[jessespeterson]

It's a few things: Telling him what to do and taking away his hair products if he doesn't do it, calling him No-Nips because he looks a bit like Aladdin (it'll help to show him who is boss), withholding sex or Batman if he's rude to you. I think those are the standard ones, if you need more just tell me.

[xo-skyler]

I guess if you’ve been watching it for a few years then you have a right to be sad but like if you only picked it up recently then you shouldn’t be that sad. I’ve heard of Star Trek, never see the original though, only the Chris Pine version. Sorry to hear of his passing.

[jessespeterson]

Hm, that's true. I've been watching the show for five years though, which is since I was sixteen, so it feels weird that it's ending. Have you watched Into Darkness, the second new Star Trek movie? He was in that film as what I guess you can refer to as an older version of the current Spock… Even though he wasn't technically playing that.

[gabriellathorne]

Aw, of course. And like I said, if you need anything or anyone that just so happens to be a twenty-one year old girl who is a little over five feet tall, works in a coffee shop, and generally lacks knowledge of pop culture, I’m here. Well I don’t think anyone’s problems are less important than anyone else’s, plus you of all people know how boring and unproblematic I am.

[jessespeterson]

Thank you Gabs, I'll be sure t-- Hey, hold on a second, you're knowledge of pop culture not that bad. Can't you name all the members of N-Sync? That's pretty pop culture-y, even I can't do that. When it comes it general culture however, you're definitely bad at that. I had to admit, I still find it pretty awful that you don't know who plays Chewbacca. If by boring and unproblematic you mean busy and undramatic then yes, you're very much that. Come on, at least one thing must have happened since we last talked. You know you're not as boring as you insist you are.

[lcrrxine-deactivated20200914]

Oh, that’s okay. I’ve just been dealing with some stuff with Derek, but it’s all okay, I think, or will be. And this week just usually isn’t a good week for me. That’s alright. I just need to get through the next week is all. Thanks though, Jesse, I appreciate it. I’ve made lots of different kinds, but my go-to is chocolate chip. I think that’s most people’s go-to. Okay, that’s true. Sorry I couldn’t be any more help.

[jessespeterson]

Did he show up at your Church drunk? 'Cause I probably could've warned you about that, his new hobby seems to be getting high in public. Ah, right… Because this is the week Jesus died. Or was resurrected. Either way, I'm sorry for you loss… Or gain. No problem, Melrose. It wouldn't seem right if you were upset. Probably because chocolate chip is the best type if cookie. Actually the second best type, right after big cookies. No, it's fine. You've actually made me feel a bit better to be honest. Thank you.