This world hurts. People always say they care but when they realize your problems don't leave they get mad."Your emotions are unstable" that your "overbearing and needy" but they can't fix you. What can? Taking pills never works drinking helps but it's "Unhealthy" you want to vent your emotions but no one will listen and you emotions are invalid. Blood helps. What's so wrong with blood? Loosing blood isn't a big deal. But culture teaches it's wrong. I want to be loved but life doesn't give you that it gives you pain and hurt. So why not make yourself numb by it? The more you do the deeper it is the less things hurt. The less life presses down so hard. my habits keep me alive because I have nothing left to live for. I understand other people might see this one day far in the future but for now this is my only vent. My dairy. Fuck the world.
