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I’m a shitty person I’m a shitty friend I need to improve but idk how

I’m a really shit friend

I think someone’s been in my house since Tuesday evening

jaaaaysaaaay

hate when I can’t put my feelings into words

Oh gof why am I so paranoid

I’m not good to talk to

What if I’m just annoying

I don’t wanna be alone but I don’t think I’m exactly in a good enough state to talk about anything rn

When you’re terrified of discussing your feelings because you think your friends will hurt you, either physically or emotionally, and you think they’ll hate you

When you keep typing and deleting stuff because you’re terrified to say it

I hate how I act when I’m scared of admitting that I’m upset

I hate how uncomfortable I get when I talk about how I feel

I hate how angry I get when I’m offered therapy

I hate how I’ve associated talking about feelings/vulnerability with pain

I hate how I communicate when I’m even mildly upset

I hate how I shut down

I just wanna sit with someone and cry and be told that’s okay and maybe just be held and just talk about how I feel or what I am this way or anything like that

God I fucking hate everything about this

I wish I could just shut up

Maybe my friends would be better off without me

My family 100%

But idk

God why am I fucking like this

I don’t even believe in god but if there’s one up there they should fucking take me

My ass over here thinking too much

Why do I fuck up every single interaction why do I say stuff the way that I do why do I do this

Why can’t I fucking communicate why can’t I be normal why am I like this

I really want a hug

17 is weird what if I just stay 16 forever

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