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diary lb: ramyu spotify: jilceto

[per1w1nkl3]

salinger writes in the most evocative way- idk how he does it but these characters are Literally standing right in front of me! they are people! franny and zooey could easily be adapted into a play and i love that so much

[tinytimism]

franny glass you are just like me

[jiilbreak]

i like like Salinger’s works for his striking lines like this

[bobdylanyume]

i do wonder what exaclty makes holden resent sally so much though. like he clearly cares about her a bunch even when he claims he dislikes her. he has a picture of her on his pencey dorm he remembers her favourite actors... and theres a few smaller things that also indicate that she's not just a short fling... if he disliked her so much would he really forgive her for arriving late the literal second he sees her in person? and sally counts on him to help her with decoration chores for Christmas and holden doesnt even mention her reaction when he says he loves her so we can assume she wasnt surprised and didnt hesitate. so why is he like that towards her in narration... i mean sally is put in opposition to jane so i can only assume holden resents her for not being like jane which is fucked up but im also hesitant about this because when he's having his date with sally and all he doesnt mention jane. in fact if i remember right the chapter about the date with sally is relatively focused and not too rambly. and same goes for the flashback chapter with jane its very focused on her and sally isnt mentioned. and holden does tend to compare people to others which is why im hesitant to say holden "dislikes" sally because shes not like jane enough. i do believe he loves both these girls but i guess he's in denial about liking sally because of that clinging to childhood theme BUT he's also partial to a few adult women and tries to drink with them so like. whats that about then... in fact he invites people to drink who shouldnt be drinking with him and the adults all reject him (except the three women at the hotel bar but they dont really engage with him) which is im guessing supposed to represent that holden isnt there yet in levels of maturity he hasnt fully let go of childhood yet... i guess that sorta ties in back to sally cause the last thing he says to her is when he calls her drunk saying that he will go help her with the Christmas tree. and i think it's important because its not the juvenile "lets run away together" hes making a compromise to do something selfless for her and help her just because shes someone he cares about who needs his help. so i think its there to show how hes growing up and starting to come to terms with things. and yes he does tell her during their date that he'll help her but it comes across as dismissive like he's just saying it so she shuts up about it. anyways i rambled so much what was this post about again

[she-loves-you-like-a-dog]

so i just learned that Holden Caulfieds middle name is Morrissey😭😭😭😭😭😭😭son😭😭 do you know how joan of arc felt😭😭😭😭

[historysweeth3art]

Omg no it isn't lmfaooooo 😭😭 Holden Morrissey caulfield bye

[jiilbreak]

big mouth strikes AGEN,

he’s got no right to take his place in the human race

[jiilbreak]

I hate having a shitty personality and being shitty to the ppl i don’t mean to be a jerk to overall

[jiilbreak]

I just know that I will eventually drift away from my closest friends now. And ig that isn’t so weird for me lol. I don’t really care. The foundation we have is not the strongest, and it’s like we aren’t really friends if you look closely and think about it—well, they’re the kind of friends I feel disconnected from at times. School friends, yeah.

[jiilbreak]

I never really liked crying or showing vulnerability, and yet i almost always do it. I don’t like being perceived as weak. I hate feeling pathetic, and yet I always am. From this day on, no matter what, I will never cry in front of anyone. Being open matters; being weak and vulnerable is unnecessary. I want to purge my body of the gross sensation I have after being on the verge of breaking down. Stupidity.

[melaniegyllenhaal]

[heartfairy]

I would love to unclench my jaw one day

[cleosmasterpiece]

Being alone isn’t always peaceful. It’s going weeks without a call or text from anyone. It’s spending birthdays alone. It’s wishing someone could have joined you on your shopping trip. It’s something exciting happening and no to call. It’s seeing a funny TikTok and no one to share it with. It’s sometimes hollow and loud.

[katieron]

Can’t wait to get out of this fuckass school

[jiilbreak]

just high school ig

[yangzum]

[jiilbreak]

and overthinking feeling tired for no reason

[lolibunnn]

[ilzzey]

[jiilbreak]

i love i love i love

i live i live i live

i hate i hate i hate

i’m innately contrast

intention and grace and intention and grace

my empathy is important but so is surviving and having peace of mind

i can be prude and self-righteous more often than i am OK admitting, but i actively try to be open, accepting, & humble

my kindness and compassion is needed but so is my cruelty, distaste, disagreements, annoyance

their happiness is important but so is mine

times i’m eh, i’m shallow, too giggly, & unlikeable; other times i’m in too deep the self-internalization and overthinking. the deep talks go for hours until i go dull. acceptance and realizations may come fast and may come slow. i’m practicing being quick.

i give more than i take however there are some points i take more than i give

i’m a hypocrite sometimes, of course, not all the time. there’s a limit.

it all melts down to one’s firm values, intentions + actual actions, how they connect with people, anything they utter, and how they make do the grace they allow themselves and others to have.

“I'm paraphrasing a quote I once read but here it is: ‘Everyone should choose a level of hypocrisy they are willing to operate at’

Hypocrisy isn't bad in and of itself. People hold conflicting views and values all the time. Also people change.”