I wish I was talking to Kim Namjoon right now
. a sestina for the man i love
I wish I knew you when I was kinder
I wish you knew me when you were harsher on the tongue
we could've talked about how dangerous the offhand attitude of society towards modern art
is and where all your favourite restaurants in the world
are. we'd get drunk and then get that globe out and you'll start sloppily marking places up with a permanent marker
and i could've let you ruin my dress with it
i could've written a sonnet (cause what's more pretentious than a sonnet?) with it
talking shit, talking back, talking down, taking it all in, pretending I'm someone kinder
than this, yeah if I knew you I would've said some semi poetic bs like you're my compass I'm your marker
you could've licked me clean with your tongue
the metaphorical one and then we could've contemplated if the world
is really spinning like they say and how dangerous is the offhand attitude of modern artists towards art
if i knew you we could've made modern art
and blame the fallacies on the unreliable narrator; for the first time ever have fun with it
and break things and throw them at the world
wall. you could've taught me how to be kinder
and I could've said you have a sharp tongue
and we’d have to start from the beginning once again because we forgot to put in the bookmarker
I wish I could've talked to you about the markers
of a society in collapse and you could've taught me how to art
and i could've pretended i didn't already know it. the most i’d have to complain about is that your tongue
tastes different today, you shifted to the flavored stick mid-conversational eroding sesh cause you're dreary with it
the weight of everything that's wrong with everyone that's not you, kinder
than you and though it's tacky neither of us would point it out when we scream out at the top of the trekking trail, ‘fuck the world!’
man if i knew you think i would've loved the world
a little more. i would've said ‘what did you expect? man is fundamentally a selfish creature’ as the self-appointed marker
of the great moral collateral scheme and meant it a little less. being kinder
doesn't work, I know, you know, but I'm still the trade off for art
I laugh it off, I think you'd get it, I think you'd laugh along with it
yeah I think I got it right this time. this is the kinda thing you laugh off in every tongue
I think the it looks different in every tongue
the reason behind the centrifugal force of the world
and the pull that pulls us into each other that comes along with it
more obvious than the rest but milestone markers
don't you agree, my mr. I wish I was kinder?
I don't know your tongue and you'll never know mine but you'll always be my marker
in the world of art and in the art of the world
‘don’t worry, we all need it,’ i would've looked you in the eye and you would've rolled with it, ‘beginner's course on how to be kinder’