waiting for my ベイビー to return home. // ARCHIVED!!

LETTER TO ベイビー IN PINNED ·:*¨༺ ♱my name is Ryo. 20+. Jirai; Ryousangata; Menhera♱ ༻¨*:· ︶꒦꒷♡꒷꒦︶ !! DNI IF: GURO, SH/ED, ANTI-RECOVERY. If you do interact, I will not follow back !! ︶꒦꒷♡꒷꒦︶ +*:ꔫ:*﹤I WANT TO GET BETTER. DO NOT IMPEDE ME. ﹥*:ꔫ:*+ﾟ I don't chat often, so please don't take offense, and I don’t really do DMs! Thank you <3

[jiraioshi-archived]

please help me find my ベイビー !

hello !! someone very precious to me recently deactivated, and i'm trying to make sure he knows he's welcome home to me when he's ready to come back!! he is JPN speaking, and his handle has the words “triple” and “death” (you do not need his full handle I am not posting it)- that is all you need to know ! please reblog the letter or let me know if you've seen him around!!

link to reblog my letter for him here

link to my old pinned here

link to my little reminders of him here

link to my final statement re: vaguing and my partner leaving here

my current dividers here

manga panels part one and two

thank you so so much everyone for your help!!

[jiraioshi-archived]

I am so paranoid and agoraphobic because of this stupid fucking cyber stalking cunt I WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE STOP FUCKING TAKKING ABOUT ME

[jiraioshi-archived]

I’m archiving and moving blogs out of fear of my safety but my handle is the same. Gonna password lock in a bit but knowing one of my “drama free friends” actively participates in my abuse (by supporting my abuser unknowingly she says she doesn’t want to know who it is),, ,,,,, I don’t wanna know anymore

Talented word and prose this and that. I’m really tired I think. Really tired and sick

[jiraioshi-archived]

Can someone help me pick a notebook I’m gonna write my s***** note in? I also gonna need to pick one for my will as well

[jiraioshi-archived]

TW suicide mention below + CGs from DDLC!!

I have a confirmed suicide date now! I do apologize to everyone I have bothered! It will be well into 2027. I have a method ready as well. Sorry for the inactivity everyone! Thank you for being my friend but I’m not strong enough and I am so alone in this world. I attempted a bit before this and it wasn’t quite working and I realize I have to really give it my all.

Thank you for your kindness everyone! Sadly the pawwwse of cute fashion stuffs is now! Thank you thank you! Let’s all have fun until then.

[porceiaincat]

what the fuck mr. cat

[k4mi-noai]

I feel so guilty ghosting people I don’t know how to tell people that I’m not in a state for socialising and I probably won’t be for a long time

[jiraioshi-archived]

I never got over my trauma from being stalked. I’m sorry. I busted my sobriety. I’m sorry. In fact I’m saving up more money for dr*gs because I love em now. I’m not quite addicted yet since my dr*gs prevent addiction as is but. Yeah.

Don’t be like me okay? I’m genuinely dying of an illness. I’m at my midlife crisis because I won’t live long.

I’m sorry I’m not happier. I’m sorry my interactions fell off and I don’t send constant asks anymore. I’m very sick.

Sorry.

[bl0ody-bandag3s]

My dream is to do a livestream of my suicide that goes viral and gets teenagers to edit me with the song "Hazy Moon jumpstyle" in Yabujin style

[jiraioshi-archived]

HIHII RYO ! !

i saw these rings get announced and it instantly reminded me of you 😭😭 especially with that post you made earlier this week ! !

the true finishing piece to a jirai wedding .,..

ILY SM!!’n oh my gosh maybe i need to buy it?!!!! I’ll check tmrw morning wehehehehe thank you for thinking of me…….,,, what brands r you tracking rn!!!!

[kaomojiaddict]

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⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔

"being chronically online is bad for you !! "

► Well, actually I love social media and it's very good for my mental health. I have outlets for my thoughts and feelings but only specific thoughts and feelings because if I was honest about other thoughts and feelings I would be impaled with stakes and pitchforks.

⋅˚₊‧ ୨୧ ‧₊˚ ⋅

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[jiraioshi-archived]

I fucking printed a photo of his stupid ass avatar because I miss him sk much . I didn’t dj his actual face because I get rly flustered and red when I see his face so . Chiikawa it is .

I hope he knows I love

Him

[dissociativdoll]

[dissociativdoll]

monday : I can’t do this anymore

tuesday (day off) : on meds

wednesday : still tired no motivation

thursday : halfway drained

friday : almost the end, just holding on

saturday : finally out

now repeat 🍥

[dissociativdoll]

first jirai bag <3

[jiraioshi-archived]

your lighting work is so cute and aesthetic , congrats ~~ is it worth it ?

[jiraioshi-archived]

Tw drug mention below, no explicit use descriptions

I’ll catch up in a bit or maybe never depending on how traumatized I am but I got cross faded for the first time in a while on a SUNDAY no fucking less. I do not recommend I’m exhausted and I didn’t do any chores bc I couldn’t even walk in a straight line sobs

[jiraioshi-archived]

I am so problematic ,,,, Luz how I love you.,, I’m jealous

[porceiaincat]

question for jiraiblr ! !

what’s your favorite things in jirai kei ?

i personally loveee single colored coords and really pink makeup <3