DREAM BIG, GIRL

❛❛ BECAUSE ONE DAY THE STARS ARE GONNA SHINE DOWN ON YOU. AND IN THEIR BRIGHT LIGHT, NOTHING WILL BE ABLE TO STOP YOU. ❜❜ 김지연

[jungeunxrk]

` * memory lane —

[jiyeonrk]

jungeunxrk‌:

jungeun slightly winced upon the mention of studies. she remembered that she wasn’t going for the “usual” path. normal for her dream, yet abnormal for society’s standards. the blonde had no plans of pursuing higher education and nothing was wrong with pursuing it (or in her case, not pursuing it). yet, she had a small feeling that she was doing something wrong. but she didn’t want to bombard the elder with her fears. 

“it is! we have so much to catch up on—” jungeun replied. they weren’t too close, yet they had conversations that were only shared between them. jungeun was never one to be consistent with what she talked about with all her friendships. that would be so boring, have some variety! jungeun laughed at jiyeon’s reassurance. “let’s just hope we don’t end up being the next viral fail. shall we go inside now?”      

jiyeon noticed the younger’s odd behavior whenever she mentioned her studies, but decided to keep it to herself. she wasn’t one to pry. if jungeun wanted to tell her something, she would.  jiyeon let out a giant laugh. “hey that’s one way to get famous, isn’t it,” the girl joked before making her way over to the rink. it had been so long since she had been ice skating, she needed to grab the wall for support. “let’s start off slow, okay?” jiyeon asked, voice trembling slightly. one wrong move and she was going down. after steadying herself so that she could stand without holding on to anything, she turned to the younger one with a bright smile, “so,” she asked starting to skate forward, slowly but surely. “i guess the biggest thing in your life right now is school, right?” jiyeon normally wasn’t one to assume, but she thought it was an appropriate question to ask the younger. “how has that been going for you?”

[jiyeonrk]

— big city dreams

starter for @rkdoyoung​ backdated to march 1st, 2019

when jiyeon got the phone call she didn’t believe the person on the other end of the line at first. they had picked her to be in the kt commercial. her! out of all the people who she had seen lined up to audition, they gave her a part.  sure it wasn’t a big role, but she was flabbergasted. she had no prior experience, little to no confidence, and a face she didn’t consider camera ready, but yet she was chosen. one step closer to becoming a trainee, to achieving part of her dreams.  god really does work in mysterious ways.  she didn’t want to be too optimistic, who knows it could have been a prank. but when she got the email she knew it was true. it was real, and in just a few weeks she would show up to play her part and be the best extra kt could ever wish for.  in all honesty though, jiyeon didn’t know what to do or where to start. she had a good idea though, maybe try and text her friend to see what the entertainment industry was really like. someone who had prior experience and could give her some good pointers.

↪ ✉️ doyoung : hey! are you free? ↪ ✉️ doyoung : i have some exciting news! and i need someone to talk to ↪ ✉️ doyoung : do you wanna meet at that cafe near my apartment? ↪ ✉️ doyoung : i’ll buy you coffee

[moonbokrk]

Dancing Lesson (from hell)

[jiyeonrk]

moonbokrk‌:

At the comment about sending a recording of his dancing to his mother, Moonbok let out a nervous bark of laughter, not entirely sure whether or not the younger girl was actually teasing him.

“Yeah…. My parents are still getting used to the idea of me trying to be an idol. I’m not so sure if…” Trailing off, he hurriedly positioned himself in front of the mirror again, internally grateful that they were restarting practice.

It wasn’t that he didn’t trust Jiyeon with his past or anything. Apart from that time in High School where he’d fought daily with his parents, he couldn’t even say that his life had been any more interesting than the next person’s until this year. Hence Moonbok had never really seen the point in boring Jiyeon with the details. 

Besides, hadn’t he shown her enough of how useless he was between the MGAs and their previous dance practices already? Maybe it was selfish of him, but Moonbok wanted to be someone Jiyeon could look up to. Instead, he was burdening her.

The younger girl’s voice suddenly startled Moonbok out of his reverie, his expression a little confused as he glanced between her and the sound system. Had he really been out of it that long?

“Um… r-right! I got it, focus on the actual dance first.” Moonbok felt like an idiot for parroting Jiyeon’s words back at her, but it helped him get his mind back in focus somewhat; though the niggling sensation of ‘this is going to be bad’ was still present at the back of his mind, as much as he tried to shove it away.

Mustering as much self-confidence as he could while he and Jiyeon walked towards the front of the room and the song began proper, his expression hardened, almost glowering at himself in the mirror.

But he still couldn’t shut his mind up, and yet again, Moonbok felt himself paying for it as they practiced.

…It could have been worse. He could have actually fallen over himself, or kicked himself harder in the calf than he had. And he hadn’t wandered into Jiyeon’s space either. But when the song came to an end, Moonbok couldn’t hold back the frustrated cry, nor the fist that slammed into the ground as he sank to his knees in defeat, his face twisted in self-disgusted despair.

“I’m sorry, Jiyeon-ah.”

the way that moonbok trailed off with his statement didn’t sit well with jiyeon. although it didn’t feel right, the girl wasn’t going to push him into telling her something he didn’t want to know. besides, she too was the kind of person to just keep things to herself, only divulging information to those she could confide in. 

when the song came to an end, jiyeon couldn’t understand why moonbok felt so defeated. as the track started playing again she rushed to the front of the room to turn it off, before running back over to him.  in all honesty, jiyeon was confused. confused about why moonbok felt the way he felt but also confused because she didn’t really know how to help him. but nevertheless, she sat on the ground right in front of him. “hey,” the girl said, reaching out to put a hand on his shoulder. “it’s okay,” jiyeon assured him.  "look,” she stated firmly. “not everyone starts off as a great dancer. some people have to work to be good at it,” and this was true. although jiyeon had a knack for dancing, she had been paired up with countless people who didn’t. she had taught countless people how to do a move that she thought was so simple when she learned it, but that didn’t mean that they were bad or less than her because of it.  “and you know what, that’s okay too,” she gave the man a reassuring look. “just because you have to put in more effort, more time, more energy to do something, doesn’t mean you can’t be just as good as the people who pick it up off the bat,” the girl adjusted her position, trying to get more comfortable on the practice room floor. “i’m here to help you, and i will be here to help you as long as you need me,” jiyeon assured him.  “you did great during the practice, you know that right?” she questioned the man in front of her. “every time we practice you’re always improving, and that’s all that counts. there is no need to apologize for doing everything right,” the girl finished off what seemed like a long speech with a smile. 

[jiyeonrk]

❪ tracker && drop notice! ❫

just clearing out some old threads that i don’t have muse for anymore! please like this (or send me a message) if you would like to plot! also if i missed anything let me know!

JIYEONRK — KEEPING

@rksori - stylist*

@jungeunxrk - memory lane*

@moonbokrk - dancing lesson (from hell) @rkseokwoo​ - fancy seeing you*

DROPPING @rkhyeon​ - talent show @rkmiya​ - reunion @rkheejin​ - summer showers @rkkyg​ - eyes on me

[jungeunxrk]

` * memory lane —

[jiyeonrk]

jungeunxrk‌:

jungeun beamed upon seeing her senior. as aggressive she tends to be to her peers, she was kind enough to her seniors. she remembers meeting jiyeon for the first time. an occurance of just being at the right place at the right time. the two never hung out much outside of class, but jungeun decided that to make a change. she shivered in response to the cold, mentally cursing the weather. “eonni! how are you—“ jungeun stood up, reaching for a hug. she looked out at the people on the rink and closed her eyes. thanks to her dance background, she knew a thing or two about balance on a floor— she wasn’t too sure if it would be the same on ice. “i may fall once,” jungeun said. “or twice.”

after jungeun responded, jiyeon couldn’t help but smile. she chuckled and wrapped her arms around the younger. “i’m doing well,” it wasn’t technically a lie. it’s not like jiyeon had an illness or something major. jiyeon just didn’t know what she was doing with her life, a detail that she didn’t want to bombard the younger with at the moment.  “trying to keep up with my studies and still have a social life,” a laugh ensued. “what have you been up to lately? it’s been so long since we talked,” jiyeon waited patiently for her response. she felt comfortable with jungeun, even though they were never really that close, the conversation wasn’t awkward like she thought it was going to be.  she watched as the younger’s eyes scanned the rink and laughed. “hey don’t worry about that,” the girl assured her, “trust me i’m going to fall too, i never said i was good at ice skating.”

[jiyeonrk]

where do you see yourself in five years?

❝ five years is a long time though, isn’t it? but for right now i see myself on a stage, performing. i also want to teach people how to dance and also inspire them to dance. ❞

[jiyeonrk]

Is it possible to scream silently?

❝ what kind of a question is that! if you scream in your head then i guess it’s silent but other than that, i dont know! ❞

[jiyeonrk]

❪ Q! ❫ everyone that means something to you in this world has left you, but you have one wish to bring one person back -- who would it be?

❝ i think the person who meant the most in my life has already left me. my mom was my rock when i was a child, and ever since i haven’t been the same. i’ve learned to grow and live life without her, but i would bring her back in a heartbeat if i could. ❞

[xrkeunji-blog]

stylist.

[jiyeonrk]

rksori‌:

she quickly realizes that the girl she’s helping is like a blank canvas to work with. not fashionable? sori doubts it; even if a girl didn’t follow every latest trend and fashion magazine tip doesn’t mean she’s not fashionable at all. even if she doesn’t realize it, sori is sure that this girl has a sense of style that’s all her own. and now she’s determined to bring it out.

“my name is sori, by the way,” she smiles kindly at the girl. “what’s yours? so i have something to call you while i’m helping.”

she takes this moment to look the girl over once again, appraising her with a somewhat unprofessional eye. sori might not be a certified stylist, but she certainly knows her way around her mother’s store. she examines color, complexion. is the girl a warm autumn or a cool winter? what cuts would flatter her best? a hundred other questions that sori has picked up from reading one too many magazines while bored and minding the store.

“you should try it on,” sori encourages her, handing the garment over for her to look at more closely. “can i suggest a few more things before i show you a dressing room? you might really like this, and i’ve been told i have a good eye, i promise.”

the girl blinked once before smiling. it was an awkward sort of smile because jiyeon didn’t know employees asked for customers names. maybe the girl was being nice, or it was just policy, but either way it’s not like it would hurt to give it out. “i’m jiyeon,” she finally got out. a genuine smile followed her reply, “thank you so much for helping me in the first place, i’m clueless when it comes to clothes.”  jiyeon nods at the other’s suggestion. “i would love to see some more suggestions!” one of her hands reached up to scratch her head, “honestly my wardrobe is so bland and i feel like all i do is wear the same things over and over again,” the girl admitted. “i would love your help!”  “what did you have in mind?” the girl asked, eyes scanning the store. she was clueless but it seemed like the other wasn’t, which was a good sign in jiyeon’s mind. 

[jiyeonrk]

❪ RKSSKT AUDITION ❫ 

kim jiyeon performing script two

there were a few things jiyeon was confident in, and acting wasn’t one of them. she had danced her whole life, taken up singing lessons in college, but acting? it was almost as if she had never heard the word. she was always open to trying new things. whether it be clothes, a new hair style, or even a new talent, jiyeon never shied away from expanding her horizons. so, when she had heard some of her friends talk about this superstar kt world commercial, she had to give it a shot. it couldn’t hurt to at least try, and with graduation right around the corner and jiyeon not knowing what she wanted to do afterwards, this was a good distraction from all the stress in her life. what she wasn’t expecting was an e-mail back. jiyeon never thought that she would be able to actually audition. she had no experience, and never considered herself visually appealing. but nonetheless, she took it as a sign that something was going right in her life. that she should be doing this, even if she failed. 2019 was a brand new year for her; a fresh start with new opportunities. she wouldn’t want it any other way in all honesty. besides, kt was an entertainment company, right? maybe if they saw something in her, even if those chances were slim, she was desperate. jiyeon was just telling herself that she could get signed if the stars aligned just right. that was her dream, after all. every day after receiving the script she read it over. acting in the mirror, pretending like she was being filmed, acting like it was the real thing. she couldn’t count how many times she had said 'yap’ and practiced her facial expressions. she wasn’t the cutest as aegyo wasn’t really her thing. she didn’t know where to start but what did they say? fake it ‘til you make it.

and that’s what she did. from the day that script was emailed until the night before her audition she practiced her lines. sure, it seemed like overkill, there wasn’t much to the whole script but she wanted to make sure everything was perfect.

even though she was confident, her heart was still pounding when she arrived in yongsan on the 22nd. she had auditioned countless times for things, and yet she still had stage fright and got nervous. what was there to be nervous about? jiyeon thought she had perfected her lines and expressions, but was it too perfect? was she going to look or sound robotic? she wouldn’t know until she got her results back, and that was the scariest part. it didn’t help that she wasn’t the only one there. she lost a bit of her confidence looking over all the faces in the crowd. everyone looked so perfect, poised, and put together. jiyeon wondered if they could tell she was nervous.  it also didn’t help that jiyeon had felt special going into the audition. it was silly to think she was one of the only ones, but it made her feel better about auditioning. that they really wanted her, and reviewed all the applications thoroughly before deciding who to give a call back to.  but nevertheless, she was here and ready to get it over with. after all, she had a graduation to go to just hours later, her own.  what seemed like hours was probably only twenty minutes. she did get there earlier in the day, and when she had signed up the crowd of people auditioned hadn’t rolled in yet. when they called her name the butterflies swarmed in her stomach, but she put on a brave face and smile for the woman that ushered her into another room. 

after arriving she noticed the camera placed behind the judges, and how their faces looked stone cold, almost emotionless. jiyeon guessed it was so no one thought that they were going to be unfair.  ‘deep breaths,’ she reminded herself, running through her three lines quickly before giving the judges a bow.  she cleared her throat, “hello,” there was a quiver in her voice. jiyeon felt like she was about to cry, why was she so nervous? another quick clearing of the throat, “my name is kim jiyeon, thank you for this opportunity.”  there was only 15 seconds to get it right, and with one last final breath, the girl began.  the cuteness of it all killed her, but yet she persisted. “oppa!” she exclaimed, a wide smile appearing on her face. jiyeon motioned with her hands for the imaginary individual to come closer to her. “would you like to see some magic?” she asked, pretending like this magic trick was something she had actually practiced and worked hard on, something she was proud to show off.  she grabbed the prop hat in front of her and placed it over the magic ball. a look of concentration appeared on her face as she grabbed her magic wand and waived it over the hat she had just placed down. “yap!” jiyeon looked up and smiled at the panel of judges before pulling the hat off the orb. unsurprisingly, it was still there. she feigned discontent, placed the hat back down, and buried her head in her hands where a small muffled “kkiyup,” escaped from behind them.  a moment after regaining her normal posture she then pretended to hold up and kiss a ring held between her thumb and index finger. “ring!” she exclaimed, guessing that was to be the name of the game. jiyeon grabbed the orb, concentrating on it while rubbing her hand around it. “oppa is a wizard,” she turned the to the panel one final time before exclaiming. “update!” and with that, her audition was over. one final thank you and bow to the judges, and back to her apartment she went. all jiyeon could hope for was the best, and that this audition wasn’t for nothing. 

[jiyeonrk]

What weird food combinations do you really enjoy?

❝ i’m not sure if this is technically a weird combination, i know things like this are quite popular but… i would have to go with fries and ice cream, caramel popcorn, and bacon in any dessert. i love salty and sweet foods, it’s like the best of both worlds! ❞

[jungeunxrk]

` * memory lane —

[jiyeonrk]

jungeunxrk‌:

for @jiyeonrk — backdated: early february

jungeun felt sentimental. yes, it was only a week until she would be graduating. in a week, she’d be walking over a familiar stage to start an unfamiliar journey. but, it was too early to be sentimental. she had about eight days (plus thirteen hours, forty-five minutes, and fifty seconds) until she would graduate. everyone says right now should be about “savoring the moments” and spending time with the friends made over these years. and what’s a better way to do that than by spending time with a graduated senior? 

jungeun released a breath, wafting it away as it reacted with the cold air. she hated the cold and she questioned why she agreed to go to a cold indoor space to escape the cold outside. but, ice skating was a classic winter activity. tis the season, she thought. she sat down on a bench outside the rink, reaching into her jacket’s pocket for her phone.    

[ ` * 💌 jiyeon 언니 :         — eonni! i’m outside the rink ^ u ^

how long had it been since she had gone ice skating? the last time she could remember was with her mother. neither of them were professionals at the sport, but both could keep their balance. 

sometimes.  when jungeun had reached out to her, the girl was surprised. it wasn’t often that she spent time with her juniors from high school, but jiyeon wasn’t one to complain either. although the two met whenever jiyeon was back visiting her peers in high school, they kept in contact through brief messages.  as she reached the rink her phone buzzed, and the girl smiled when she read the other’s message. 

↪ ✉️ jungeun : i just got here!  ↪ ✉️ jungeun : i’ll you see you in a minute after i rent out my skates 

the girl pressed send and walked up to the rental counter, purchasing a pass to go skating and selecting the right shoe size. after that, she proceeded to the actual rink where she could see jungeun’s blonde hair in the sea of beanies darker colored manes.  jiyeon walked up to the younger and tapped her on the shoulder. “hey,” she exclaimed. “long time no see.” 

[taeminrk]

it's time for some honesty,

by reblogging this, your character will answer every question he/she receives in the inbox truthfully. no dodging any questions or giving ambiguous answers that don’t really answer the question at all—be completely honest. please use this opportunity to send each other good questions that may help the mun develop their character’s muse, not questions for the shits and giggles. also, if you reblog this post, send questions! don’t just sit there and expect to only receive. no one likes being the odd one out so let’s make sure to send, send, send! the most important rule is to have fun though— don’t forget that one.

[xrkeunji-blog]

stylist.

[jiyeonrk]

rksori‌:

@mijoork

the bell rings when someone walks into the store, a pleasant little jingle that cues sori’s well-rehearsed smile and a lovely little “hi, how are you today?” as she welcomes a customer into her mother’s thrift store. a girl, she realizes quickly. young, pretty, and could easily find a cute ‘fit or two from the racks of secondhand clothing. sori doesn’t go to help her immediately, letting the customer browse to her own content at first. let them get acclimated to the store, find out what things are where.

a few moments pass before sori leaves her spot behind the register and wanders up to the customer. “can i help you find anything today?” she plays the role of employee like an actor in a play, her lines scripted and repeated a hundred times before different audiences. she’s expecting to be bushed off, as usual, with a ‘oh no, i’m just browsing’ or something of the like. scripted, predictable.

things change when she goes off-script, glancing at what the customer is picking through. this is not typical of sori; usually she’ll just mind her own business and let the customer make their own choices, whether she thinks they’re good or bad. but this girl is far too pretty to be looking at things so ugly, and in this world women need to support each other. sori’s smile remains kind, though her brow can’t help but raise in subtle judgement.

“you know, this section is.. well, i think this over here would look much nicer on you. warm colors for a cold season, yeah?” she picks out a floral printed dress, a little dated in its silhouette but not totally unwearable in a modern context if accessorized correctly. sori just likes the colors, the warm reds and browns. hopefully the customer agrees.

jiyeon wasn’t planning on going shopping today. in fact, the girl wasn’t really the biggest fan of shopping. she thought of it more as a tedious task, and her feet always hurt afterward.  she was a fan of more casual clothes, but she was getting older and needed to spice up her wardrobe a bit. you know, for when she gets into the real world, that all the adults warn kids about.  rather than spend a lot of money on clothes she was only going to wear on special occasions, jiyeon decided on going to a thrift store for her purchases. the only problem was, she didn’t know where to start. as soon as she walked in it felt like she was lost in a sea of clothes, and the very friendly girl’s greeting almost went over her head. she whipped her head around and smiled at the girl standing by the counter, “hi,” she replied softly.  jiyeon started browsing in the first rack that was available, not knowing exactly where to start. she was so focused that the sale’s person’s question almost scared her. “um, i’m not really sure what i’m looking for, actually,” the girl admitted sheepishly.  her eyes watched as the girl pointed her towards a different section of clothes and picked out a nice dress. it was something unlike what jiyeon was used to. “i’m honestly not that well versed in being fashionable,” she gave the girl a small smile. “do you really think this would look good on me?” jiyeon asked, reaching out to touch the fabric of the dress. it was soft and different, maybe exactly what she needed. 

[rkseokwoo-blog]

— fancy seeing you

[jiyeonrk]

rkseokwoo‌:

When she reacted to the name and smiled at him, Seokwoo was relieved. The confirmation was already there before she had to say it – he hadn’t messed up her name. His smile widening, crinkling the corner of his eyes and straightening himself up next to her. “Yes, Seok. Woo,” he repeats, gentle pats to his chest with the syllables, followed by a light chuckle. “You remembered it! You must have a good memory.”

A low ‘ah’ rolled from his tongue when she commented about it being so long, nodding. Between trainee schedule and work, he had to skip some of the couple dance lessons with his grandmother, hoping she would be okay to find a partner on his own. “It has, it has.”

His brow knits together, glancing up at the sign to the restaurant and then over the line in front of them. Tiny creases forming on the bridge of his nose as he looked back to Mijoo. “I just finished work, and was on my way home, and saw the sign and impulsively decided,” he explains, hand waved over his shoulder in the direction of where he’d left his car and then a glance over his shoulder knowing he wouldn’t see it near. “I didn’t think the line would be this long, but my stomach.. I don’t think he will be happy with anything else now.”

There was one more glance at the line and then focusing on Mijoo. “Do you think it’ll take a long time? Has the line been moving slow?” He asks, wondering how long she’d been there and if she had any idea of how long they’d have to wait.

she giggled as the man in front of her patted his chest with each syllable of his name. jiyeon then shook her head, “good memory? you remembered my name, too, so i can’t be the only one.”  jiyeon nodded as her eyes trailed off to the sign above them. “it is a good restaurant,” she tried to assure the man as he seemed set on eating here. “honestly, i’ve never seen a line this long here before, but hopefully it will let up soon.” the line had been moving slowly as they started their conversation, forcing the pair to walk a few steps.  “so,” she started. how do you start a conversation with someone you haven’t seen in what seems like ages? “what have you been up to these days?”  she sighed internally, ‘yikes jiyeon, way to go.’

[jiyeonrk]

— FC CHANGE ;

it’s official, mijoork is now jiyeonrk!

this change is something i have been thinking for a while now. originally when i joined rookies with suji, it was kind of a rushed decision. not even a week later i messaged the main asking if i could change my fc, and although it’s almost been 6 months with mijoork, i’m ready to start this new chapter with jiyeonrk! a few changes to the muse: starting with the most obvious she now goes by lee jiyeon instead of lee seungah/mijoo. originally when i joined, i was unaware that mijoo had changed her name. it caught me off guard, honestly! and i was like well i already had this idea of her in my head as going by mijoo, why don’t i make it as her nickname? it was kind of a last minute idea, and the reasoning behind why she came up with her nickname never sat well with me. so now she just goes by jiyeon!  as a sidenote, i’ve removed the biography portion of her profile in order to tweak some things that happened in her past. nothing major though, and she will still have the same personality and everything!  secondly, she is now a ‘96 liner.  her birthdate has not changed but the year has! i honestly think she’s more of a leo, so that’s why the day is the same. another change that comes with this is that she will be graduating from k-arts this year instead of next, so this is her last semester there! finally, i will most likely be dropping a lot of threads.  most of my threads are very old and have just hung out since i went on hiatus in december. i really just want to get some new things going, and work on developing jiyeon’s character! like i said on twitter, i have a bunch of half completed threads i was going to post before the change, but i think instead of that i’m just going to go through and keep ones that aren’t too old and i still have muse for!  that’s it for this very long post! thank you to everyone who helped me decide in my twitter poll, and i just a reminder i would love to plot so just give this post a like and i’ll send you an im!

[jiyeonrk]

— butterflies ;

open event - street performance

mijoo wondered if her nerves were going to get the best of her.  after busking with her friends in hongdae, she felt a new sense of self. a reason to keep going, to keep doing the things she loved. nothing was going to stop her anymore.  mijoo decided to put those vocal lessons she had been taking to good use, and this time she decided she wanted to busk alone. it was scary. sure she had performed alone multiple times, but today was the first day she was going to sing in front of anyone other than her classmates. she set up her equipment and gave a bright smile to anyone who walked by. ‘deep breaths,’ she reminded herself. she stood there for a moment, almost frozen, holding the mic in front of her face like it was glass. her hands were sweaty but her grip didn’t falter.  “hello,” she said, although it sounded more like a question. “i’m lee mijoo, this is my first time doing this so...” her eyes scanned the crowd, not seeing anyone stop to watch. “i hope you enjoy!”  she turned around, heart pounding before she turned on the speakers and they played a familiar tune.   chi chi had always been one of her favorite idols. what could she say, they were basically legend’s. and although nara’s song rain was on the slower side of things, mijoo had practiced to perfect her butt off to get it right.  she only prepared the song up to the end of the chorus, leaving out the adlibs since she wasn’t that skilled yet. a deep breath accompanied the first note. 

텅 빈 회색 빛 거린 참 허전해 쓸쓸한 기분에 유리창을 열어 내민 두 손위로 떨어진 빗방울 가득 고이는 그리움 나의 맘에 흘러

she was freaking out as people started gathering around her. it wasn’t a crowd per se, but enough to put mijoo on edge. she flashed a smile, trying to act like she wasn’t bothered by the faces staring, most certainly judging her. 

왠지 네가 보고픈 밤 차오르는 눈물 떠오르는 나의 맘 속

the second verse came easier, she had gotten into the groove of things. mijoo couldn’t remember how many times she had gone over the lyrics, making sure to perfect each and every note, syllable, vowel. she wanted to make this performance count.  and then came the chorus. 

비가 오면 내리는 기억에 번지는 아픔에 흠뻑 쏟아지는 너를 보다 선명했던 그 시간에 멈춘 채 추억에 젖은 채 아름다웠던 너를 그려 in the rain

as the music faded and she saw confused looks, she regretted her decision. how could she not realize that her performance was too short. mijoo wanted to cry, run away, do anything but stay there and see the faces of the people in the very small crowd she drew. some wore disappointment while others just shook their heads and left.  she cleared her throat and with a sheepish smile she said, “thanks for listening, i hope you enjoyed.”  mijoo couldn’t pack up her things quicker.