From Reich to Rothko

JOBAN (pronounced "jōe-BÁWN"). Cis male. Queer. Born ‘92. Central California. I'm a musician and human being. ΦΜΑ Sinfonia. This blog consists mostly of minimalist music, art, my personal bullshit, music, ...

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There are so many beautiful things in this world, but none of them are for me.

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The hardest part is being alone with my thoughts at night. I just don’t want to be here anymore.

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I’m practicing saying “ily” to my bf in his deep sleep because I’m nervous

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Is this thing on? 🎤

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SMALLVILLE 4x08 “Spell”

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My gay awakening

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Had a rough day at work. Going down a spiral of bad thoughts. I’m not where I’m supposed to be right now. I’m not supposed to be here.

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My relationship with music (making) is really fucked up right now

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Tumblr what is this icon change???

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If I could disappear forever but not hurt my friends and loved ones, that would be okay right now

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Really wishing I wasn’t alive right now

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I’m almost at the point where I just want to walk into oncoming traffic or maybe even a rail train

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Getting home at 2 AM and seriously contemplating de*th :/

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Just realized that holding back someone’s long hair while they give me head is one of my kinks. Like, “let me see that beautiful face, king/queen/non-binary royalty”

Idk. There’s something just so intimate about doing that.

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Just got off the phone with my lawyer and I definitely wanna kms

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Ah yes. There you are.

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When I go out with friends, I feel like I never have anything good to contribute to the conversation so I just stay quiet.

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I’m legitimately starting to think that the best days of my life are all in the past.