Update.
So I was a coordinator for just under a year and I loved it. Wasn't a lot more hours though but it was finally my stockroom.
Then about six months ago I found out that my position was getting cut and so I could stay but get put back down to a normal member of staff. I wanted to just give up but in the end I cared about my job so I still did what I did but got paid less.
Then my old boss said he wanted me as his coordinator at another store. It was an amazing opportunity and I felt honoured he'd asked for me, I might of been the only choice though. It was an hour and a half bus journey though but a lot of possible overtime. A lot more stockrooms and more than double the amount of delivery staff.
I accepted the job and left my current store within a week of agreeing. I got lifts with other members of management because yano don't do public transport. Sometimes it was fine, other times they just wanted to talk too much and it was draining. Then once I was there I felt trapped I couldn't leave at all and at the end of the day I was waiting on someone else meaning I had to stay longer sometimes.
If it was closer it might of worked out. At first some staff were hostile but it was getting easier and I was getting to grips of what my managers expected.
Then I went to download festival. Coming home was a downer yet again but more so. After that I kept having panic attacks about going to work. Even getting James to take me all the way there and then not being able to go in to the store. After having days off because of it I told my manager that it wasn't working and transferred back to my old store within a week.
It hasn't helped. I couldn't go in today. People are just too much. People bitch and on my second day they're already bitching about me for correcting their work.
James is now working a lot more to cover my hours and pay I've lost and he doesn't know how to help.
I want to live but really live. Not just exist. I'm stuck on what to do next. I don't feel comfortable at home or work. We don't have the finances to just change our lives. But this isn't how I want my life to be. I don't want to be stuck in the same company. I've already wasted so much time.
