Jonathan / 20 / South Africa. Can talk for days about Pokemon. Listening to lots of Say Anything and The Wonder Years right now. Not a cool kid. 3DS friend code: 3669-0026-9478 League of Legends summoner name: Ekko25 (EUW)
After 5 years and over 1000 posts, my time on Tumblr is coming to an end. I haven’t posted anything in over half a year, and that seems like a sign to move on.
A lot has happened this year, so much that there’s no way I could possibly bring it all up like I usually do. The last time I posted, season 5 of Game of Thrones was still coming out, and Digimon Adventure tri. seemed like a far-off dream. The movie was pretty good, by the way.
Two of my favourite things from the last half a year are the new Wonder Years album, and Life is Strange. No Closer to Heaven took some getting used to, but it’s a fantastic album filled with meaning. I finished Life is Strange this week, and it’s a wonderful game. It’s lovely and unique with a vibrant world to explore and a captivating story and characters.
It’s been an eventful year. There have been some real highs, and some heavy lows. ‘I aged a year this week’ has never felt more true. I’m pretty much the same, just trying to be a better person.
I’ve seen thousands of amazing and hilarious posts on this site, and followed some really cool people. To everyone that ever liked one of my posts, thanks for playing.
What do you think the meaning of every song on the album is? Aaron west and the roaring twenties I mean.
I got this message over a year ago, and I swore I’d answer it eventually. Instead of discussing the overarching meaning of each song, I pointed out what I thought was significant in each one. Each song is like a chapter in the story of Aaron West, and they come together to tell a complete story. I listened to the album while writing this. I could be way off base with my interpretation of the album, but here we go:Our Apartment sets the scene for the rest of the album. Ittells us that Aaron’s wife has left him, that he misses her, and that she wasthe one that ended the relationship. It shows us that he doesn’t really knowhow to handle the situation, and this is explored more in the rest of the songson the album. It’s about that awkward period after a relationship where you’restill trying to realise that it really is over.
Grapefruit is my favourite song on the album, and one of themost eventful ones as well. It shows Aaron’s struggle to believe in a God thatisn’t there for him during this difficult time, the blame he feels for thefailure of his relationship, and his alcoholic tendencies. We also learn about hisdaughter that was never born, and the toll that it took on him. The songhighlights the pain and turmoil that Aaron’s turn of events has brought uponhim. Feeling abandoned by God, he resigns himself to alcoholism, and acceptshis perceived place as a burden.
St. Joe Keeps Us Safe shows us a glimmer of hope. Aarontakes a walk, and still wishes Dianne would save him, but he’s slowly movingpast sleeping in late and punching holes in drywall. It tells us more aboutAaron’s family; his mother is devoutly religious, and his father is dead. Aaronconfesses his fears and thoughts to his mother, and she tells him that she’sstill there for him. It’s about the support that Aaron’s mom tries to give him,and the start of his quest to try to overcome his situation. It shows that hemakes some progress after Grapefruit.
Aaron is remembering some good times with Dianne. He seemsto be driving aimlessly, to travel on the road while trying to figure thingsout. I don’t really have much to bring to the table on this one. The line aboutdaylilies is very important, thanks to the reference to it later, in CarolinaCoast.
Divorce and the American South is about Aaron’s desire toreconnect with Dianne. He wishes she’d answer his calls, and it seems he won’tgive up on her no matter what. He’s trying to quit smoking in an effort toimprove himself, seemingly in part, at least, because she doesn’t like thecoughing fits that he gets from smoking. Again, Aaron expresses blame andregret at the loss of their unborn child, and for not being there for Dianneduring this difficult time. The dream mentioned at the end of the song showsthat while he wishes Dianne would still care about him, he doesn’t believe thatshe does at this point.
The Thunderbird Inn brings to light how Aaron appears toothers at this time. The clerk at the hotel comments on his appearance, as doesthe homeless man who actually apologises for asking Aaron for change. He looksdishevelled to the point where even the homeless man takes pity on him, andtries to raise his spirits. The line about the bar tells us that Aaron is stilldrinking heavily. Aaron is struggling financially, but drinks anyway. The lastverse indicates that he drinks to numb the pain from the death of his unbornchild and the fact that Dianne doesn’t love him anymore. The only small merciesin his life are his half-tank of gas, and the bottle he’s drinking from, whichshows how little he has left, and to look forward to.
Get Me Out of Here Alive, another personal favourite, shows Aaronturning further away from religion. He feels like his mother has lied to himabout divine grace. The verse about the church suggests that while Aaron canstill feel God flowing through others, he himself still feels forsaken. Hefeels alone. We’ve gone from ‘like you’re next to me, arm-in-arm’ to 'you’renot walking next to me’. The appearance of the sky, 'fractured and outlines’,seems to connect with an idea in his mind that heaven has actually beendestroyed, and that is why God has been neglecting him. Weak in his currentsituation, he asks for someone (God? Dianne?) to save him.
You Ain’t No Saint tells us that Aaron and Dianne met youngand fell in love quickly. Dianne expresses discontent at how Aaron changed ashe grew up. Finally, in this song, Aaron points out that Dianne is not perfect.He shows that he’s aware of how physically and emotionally damaged he is in hiscurrent state. He reminisces about the good times he had watching football withhis father, and the impact that he had on his life. Now that he’s dead, Aaronhas to make his way through life without him. With all the change that Aaronhas gone through, he’s not even sure if his own father would recognise him now.The song is about Aaron recognising faults, both within himself and Dianne.
Carolina Coast starts by telling us that Aaron is near thesea in Carolina, which relates to a lot of the imagery present within the song.For the first time on the album, he muses over his own death, and his idea ofdeath by drowning seems very peaceful. He seems to relate the idea of wadingthrough shallow waters (slow, laborious, tiring) to chasing after 'the ghost ofDianne’, which seems to bring some light to his wandering as well. Aaron hasmanaged to quit smoking. While he instinctively reaches for his lighter, he nolonger has any cigarettes, as he made a conscious effort to throw them away.This shows some more personal progress on Aaron’s side.The daylilies are referenced again in this song as a metaphor, representingAaron’s hopes of a renewed relationship with Dianne. We are told that they are deadand dry. Aaron’s attempt to bring them back to life shows his love for Dianneand how determined he is to save his marriage. The old boat fighting the tidefills Aaron with the will to keep going, despite the state he’s in. He refusesto give up on his quest to reunite with Dianne, and the album ends on a hopefulnote.
1101. Continued…Let's see if I'm psychic. You wrote three yes or no questions. Now I will answer them.
1 yes
2 no
3 no
Did I get any right?
No, no, no. 0/3. Next time.
1102. You wrote one question that can be answered with a color (example: what color is my car). I say....
White.
Is it true?
Nope. 0/4.
1103. You thought of a number between 1 and 100 and typed it down.
Was it 14?
25. 0/5. No psychic powers here.
1104. You wrote one more question, anything you wanted.
The answer is yes, 42, orange, Matt, Josh, Kim, Nicole, whatever or your mom. Does that answer your question?
Nope. 0/6.
1105. Do you think that Britney Spears would make a good Bond Girl?
Her guest role in How I Met Your Mother was pretty good - maybe. Seems like she’d be a bit out of place though.
1106. Have you read anything by C.S. Lewis?
The Magician's Nephew.
1107. What is your favorite movie with Bill Murray?
Zombieland, if that counts.
1108. What is your favorite movie with Jack Nicholson?
A Few Good Men.
1109. What is your favorite movie with Christopher Walken?
Pulp Fiction.
1110. What is your favorite movie with Johnny Depp?
Pirates of the Caribbean.
1111. What is your favorite movie with Orlando Bloom?
The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug. I'm a heathen, I know.
1112. What rhymes with 'orange'?
The closest thing I've heard is 'door hinge', in an Eminem song.
1113. Why do guys have nipples if they will never need to feed a baby?
Evolutionary things.
1114. Some people think that couples should be screened before they are allowed to reproduce (so that people who cannot afford to support a child don’t have one, or so that a child won’t be born into a dysfunction family or to unfit parents). What do you think about this?
It wouldn't change a thing.
1115. Have you ever swallowed an object by accident?
Nope.
1116. Did you get it back?
N/A.
1117. Do you prefer He-Man or She-Ra?
He-Man.
1118. Are you proud of yourself?
Not really.
1119. Who should go to hell?
Many people. Animal/child abusers, rapists, murderers, thieves etc.
1120. Is your eyesight 20/20?
It's not so bad that I need glasses, but it's far from 20/20. I thought I might fail the eye test after I got my driver’s license, but I did just fine.
1121. Have you ever had insomnia?
Not quite.
1122. Does it bother you when people touch you?
Usually.
1123. Is it better to get too much or too little sleep?
Too little. It tends to come with doing things you want to do.
1124. Have you ever given away something you made? What?
Not that I can think of. I'm very sentimental.
1125. Is it better to have kids when you are in your teens, 20s, 30s, 40s, or older?
20s in my opinion; 30s if you're not ready by the time you turn 30.
1126. What gets your adrenaline pumping?
Arcades - I get all excited the moment I walk in.
1127. Is hell all fire and brimstone or is it personal for everyone like in Bill and Ted's Bogus Journey? Or does it not exist?
I don't believe in hell, but if I did, it'd be personal. Mine would be full of spiders.
1128. Do you ever talk about yourself in the third person?
Jonathan doesn't do that. Jonathan wouldn't do that.
1129. What's your favorite radio station? What kind of music do they play?
I don't listen to the radio nowadays. Kfm is usually on in my dad's car; they play mainstream pop.
1130. What did you think of these movies:
Election?
Never heard of it.
Gone With the Wind?
Haven't watched it, and frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn.
Fight Club?
Average and overrated.
Spider Man?
A really cool movie when you're a kid; went with some friends to watch it for my birthday party the year it came out.
The Virgin Suicides?
Haven't watched it.
Resident Evil?
I've watched a Resident Evil movie, but I'm sure it wasn't the first one. No idea.
Signs?
Haven't watched it.
Muppets from Space?
N/A. Not a Muppets fan.
Pearl Harbor?
N/A. Not a fan of war either.
Halloween Resurrection?
Haven't watched any movies in the series.
The Dark Crystal?
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
1131. Is everyone special?
Nah. It's about 50/50.
1132. Are your toes:
Painted (what color)?
Manicured?
Sparkly?
Soft?
Wearing a toe ring?
Do you have hobbit-feet?
None of the above, including the hobbit thing, thankfully.
1133. Do you believe there is any place still undiscovered in all the world?
Yup. The oceans are huge.
1134. Whose picture would you like to paint a target on and throw darts at?
Will Poulter. Those eyebrows.
1135. Is love all you need?
Nah.
1136. Ever caught a fish?
I think so, when I was young.
1137. Are you adventurous?
Nah.
1138. Are you afraid of mediocrity?
Always.
1139. Would you rather die tomorrow or have all your friends die?
I want to live forever. RIP in peace, friends.
1140. What are 3 things you don't understand?
1 Social media - hashtags, selfies, Instagram etc.
2 Popular music - not enough substance
3 People that don't like dogs - you're missing out on so much
1141. I would do anything for love but I won't do 'that'. What is 'that'?
I'll never:
- forget the way you feel right now
- forgive myself if we don't go all the way tonight
- do it better than I do it with you
- stop dreaming of you every night of my life
- see that it's time to move on
- be screwing around
The answers are in the song, you just need to connect the dots.
1142. Has your diary ever been rated?
If you see Tumblr as an online diary, sort of.
1143. Do you do more than kiss on the first date?
Probably not.
1144. Are you very liberal or conservative?
Liberal.
1145. What do you like about your neighbours?
The neighbours across the street are friendly, and the house to the right of mine is a school for children with special needs, so that's nice.
1146. I read that by 2010 they expect to market a gene therapy procedure that will increase the life spans of adult human beings by double or triple. If this happened would you have it done?
Sign me up.
1147. If you're happy and you know it clap your hands. Did you clap?
Yup.
1148. Was this year a good year for you?
It was alright. It was a year for growth, good and bad.
1149. What are you looking forward to next year?
Pokemon Go. Shameless. Game of Thrones. More Digimon movies. Seeing friends. The new Say Anything and Pierce the Veil albums. Stuff and things.
1150. Are you a Jim Henson fan?
Nope.
1151. What do you think of these diarist names?
ToxicToast:
Solitary Music:
gemini_wish_star:
juneberry:
Nononono.
1152. Do you read the Diary Master’s diary?
Nope.
1153. Have you ever made an enemy on Tumblr?
Nope.
1154. Have you ever (or do you know anyone who’s) been deleted from Tumblr?
The closest thing I know of is maythefoxbewithyou, whose account was set to private.
1155. Were you ever in the first row of a concert?
I've been close, but not in the very first row.
1156. Did you ever meet a celebrity? Who?
Only local ones, nobody major.
1157. Do you have any autographs?
I have a signed album from a local band; I think that's it.
1158. Can you visualize whirled peas?
Yeah, no problem.
1159. Are there some situations where love just isn't enough to keep 2 people together? When does that happen?
You're asking the wrong guy.
1160. Do you have no attention span?
If I have no interest in the topic, I can zone out incredibly quickly. If I'm interested, I can pay attention for hours.
1161. What do you think of these entry titles?
me. back. home:
steak and butter:
The Smurfs Go Communist:
The controversial Athens:
Nononono.
1162. Have you ever been wrongly accused?
Only of minor things.
1163. When you wash your hair do you blow dry it or let it dry naturally?
I usually towel-dry it. I let it dry naturally if I've got the time.
1164. Where does your family go on vacation?
Hot springs, most of the time. We don't go far.
1165. Have you ever been to:
Newport, Rhode Island?
Dutch Wonderland?
Salem, MA?
Niagara Falls?
None of the above. I've never left the country.
1166. Have you ever given money to OD cares?
N/A.
1167. Have you ever created an OD interest? If yes, what interests did you create?
N/A.
1168. What do you think of these entry names?
DEAR SOUL FRIEND 57 Loss:
I had a good title but i forgot it:
Left Alone:
yeah yeah...he kissed her:
Meh, meh, meh, meh/10.
1169. If you have AOL what is your 'you've got mail' sound?
It's 2015, nobody has AOL anymore.
1170. What will you never have enough of?
Music and video games. You can always have more.
1171. Who can you only handle in small doses?
Vocaloid music. A few songs at a time is best.
1172. You are at a magic auction where you can bid on impossible things but you only brought enough money to buy one thing. Out of these..which would you buy?
entrance into whatever afterlife you believe in
a guarentee that you will have at least 3 books published in your life
a new car, house and boat each year
unending creative inspiration
ultimate compassion and acceptance of others
a trip into outer space
perfect health for the rest of your life
Unending creative inspiration. If that's sold to a higher bidder, then the trip into outer space.
1173. In the above question if finding perfect love was a choice would you change your answer?
Yeah.
1174. What food is so fattening or unhealthy that you would NEVER touch it?
No food that I can think of, but I stay away from energy drinks for this reason.
1175. Which do you love more, your country or your planet?
The planet, no contest.
1176. What do you think of:
Abba?
Fun for messing around, but I wouldn't listen to them seriously.
Brian Adams?
Meh.
No Doubt?
It's My Life is a cool song, they're alright.
1177. Are you more logical or emotional?
Logical.
1178. Do you think that tattoos and piercing are overrated?
Eh. They're not as big a deal as they're made out to be.
1179. What do you think of these diary titles?
The Seamless Garment:
Your eyes can be so cruel:
What was, is no more:
shock me sane:
Nononono. No more of these.
1180. Do you believe that Michael Jackson molests children?
Nope - I call shenanigans.
1181. Hypothetically, let’s say that he did molest them. Who would you feel should be held MORE accountable, Michael Jackson or the parents that allowed their children to go to Never Land Ranch unsupervised for sleepovers?
MJ.
1182. Have you ever been to:
Manhattan?
Disney?
Paris?
None of the above.
Anywhere cooler?
The Monster Pit at Lady Gaga was an experience.
1183. What 3 music videos should everyone download?
The Wonder Years - Cigarettes & Saints
Pierce the Veil - Bulletproof Love
A Day to Remember - Right Back at it Again
1184. If someone bet you ten dollars that you couldn’t sing the whole Gummy Bears theme song, would you be able to do it and win?
Nah, I only know about two lines. That should be worth two dollars.
1185. Do you like Bjork?
Meh.
1186. How about the Black Rebel Motorcycle Club?
Meh.
1187. What do you think of Moby?
Meh.
1188. What do you think of Alien Ant Farm?
One hit wonders. MJ covers are cool though.
1189. What do you think of the Flaming Sideburns?
Who?
1190. Do you believe that imps, trolls, giants, dragons, unicorns, etc. were real but became extinct?
No?
1191. What sucks?
Dubstep, among other things.
1192. What do you think of these diary titles?
Geologist to the Stars:
The Hussy Chronicles:
Gravy:
Napping in the Broom Closet:
._.
1193. Do you ever think about suicide?
I'll sometimes think about suicide in a general sense if it comes up, but I've never seriously considered killing myself, if that's what you're asking.
1194. Do you believe that Jesus Christ was a real person? How about Noah?
Nope and nah.
1195. What is one luxury you refuse to live without?
Music, if that counts.
1196. What is one luxury you feel you could live without?
TV. The TV could stop working and I wouldn't notice for a few months.
1197. Do you feel that you are high, medium, or low maintenance in a relationship?
I haven't been in one serious enough to know. Low in that I'm extremely casual, high in that I can be difficult to deal with. Probably high.
1198. What do you think of these diarist names?
N.Y.S:
Collapsibleman:
*})|({*:
black dove:
>_<
1199. Do vegetables taste better from the store or from your garden?
Probably the store. I won't be eating them either way.
1200. How long have you spent on this survey so far?
I average about two hours for one of these, so about 24 hours so far. This is the last one for me, though. That'll save me about 76 hours.
So it turns out I've been missing Say Anything's self-titled album this entire time. No idea how that happened. I spent today listening to that and playing The Wolf Among Us on the gaming PC that I bought from my friend last week. The Wolf Among Us is excellent; I'm gonna download the last three chapters overnight and play them tomorrow.
- I switched jobs this week. I had my last day working in the toy store on Sunday, and then started at the book store on Tuesday. It’s been interesting so far; the only downside is the till system, which is running a Linux program from 1997. It’s been a welcome change though.
- I caught up on Suits and The Walking Dead recently, and I’m glad I did. They were both really boring for one and half seasons, and then picked up and became entertaining towards the end.
- While I enjoyed season 5 of Shameless a lot, the finale didn’t feel like a finale. There were bigger moments in other episodes, so it felt a bit weak. Fiona’s character has been ruined, and Lip’s heading that way too. While I predicted that it would happen in the finale, it sucks that they wrote Bianca out of the show this early; her relationship with Frank was my favourite part of this season.
Besides that, not much has been happening. I’ve mostly been getting through projects, playing League and seeing friends.
[Anonymous because I'm online on a tumblr I share with a friend, I don't want to put my personal opinions out to the world through here. Okay, I don't even know why I said that but OH WELL] That video of the REAL reason Zayn left 1D was everything and so much more. THANK YOU FOR SPENDING 3 HOURS MAKING IT, IT MADE MY DAY A LITTLE BETTER to actually get an explaination. God bless. Or Satan bless. However you prefer, sir.
[late reply]I’m glad you enjoyed it; the world had to know.
My second lot of mystery skins, from this weekend. Still can’t believe I managed to get Spirit Guard Udyr; I bought Udyr a few days ago in the hopes that I’d get a skin for him. Marauder Warwick and Union Jack Fiddlesticks were nice catches as well. I could do without Dryad Soraka and the skins for champions that I already have skins for, but overall I’m pretty happy with what I got.
Update on the job interview: I was nervous, and not quite sure how I did, but I spoke to the lady that interviewed me again today and apparently I made it through to the second interview. Just gotta wait for the phone call now.
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