I've low-key haven't been happy in months. Maybe even this year. And I'm talking about like, actually happy, about my life. My job is fine and great. I've been moving forward in that. My friendships are alright. They're stable from what I can tell. I've traveled on my ownish and am about to go out of the country for the first time ever next month. But theres still that one thing that's always brought out the best (and worst) in me. And that's missing from my life. I know I should get out there, but there's that part of myself that just refuses to move on. I guess because of that, I feel stuck, and therefore, still not happy. This has been a rough year. I think I know what I should do, but I'm choosing not to do it. Okay, back to studying.