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relapse on cutting yesterday

jesus

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i binged so much the past week

now im back :)

gonna restrict to 300 kcals a day from now on !

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another thinspo for yall

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some new thinspo :)

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i need an ana buddy IMMIDIATELY

text me

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i ate kfc im totally worthless

tomorrow is fasting day and hiit workout

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im literally so fcking fat. i see myself on my friends' story and i just fcking hate every single part of me. My hair my arms my legs my stomach EVERYTHING

Im so fcking stupid and immature nothing is nice or good about me i just hate myself

i ate some pasta today which is like 100 kcals and me and friends ordered kfc.

tomorrow im fasting 100% and ill do some hardcore exercise

im fcking tired of hating myself

. fat worthless piece of sht .

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03/07/2021

ok so i ate another souvlaki sandwich and some chocolate pie.. thats around 850-900 kcals .. tomorrow ill do better!!!

also i weighed in today and i lost 11lbs!!! thats 5kg!!!! in like two weeks :)

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03/07/2021 food log

breakfast: skipped

lunch: i had a souvlaki sandwich which is around 350kcals

snack: some chocolate brownie 100 kcals

dinner: idk yet i wanna skip but idkkkk

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food log 02/07/2021

today i binged-

breakfast: crunch cereal with milk (190 kcal)

lunch: pasta with tomato sauce(500 kcal)

dinner: i will skip dinner ofc

its a total of 700-800 kcals just to be sure.. so not proud. hopefully tomorrow ill fast :)

i just feel so fat.. i give myself a month

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im fat so even if i dont eat when around other people they wont even notice or say something about it

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im out with my family at a restaurant and im literally having a panic attack about the food

i ate 2 mushrooms and 3 carrots and some pita PLEASE STOP ME

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calorie/food log 01/07/2021

breakfast: skipped

lunch: 4 chicken nuggets and some mayo(around 200kcal)

total: 200kcal !!!! so proud

for dinner ill go out with family.. idk what ill do in order not to eat

hopefully going to get a coke zero and smoke some ciggs and they wont notice! :)

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food/ kcal log 30/06/2021

breakfast : skipped

lunch: around 6 small pieces of sausage, maybe less with 2 tbsp of ketchup (450kcal)

snack/lunch: around 200 g of spagghetti with meat sauce (380kcal)

dinner:skipped

total: around 830kcal :(

not proud of this day.. but i hope tomorrow ill restrict more!

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Food rules

Not exceeding 700 kcals in a day

Walk or exercise for at least 20 min a day

Drink 7-9 glasses of water

always skip dinner, unless you re out with friends

If you have the urge to binge, watch a show, or eat 2 cucumbers with some chicken seasoning

coke zero is a must if you're hungry

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so i wanted to share some thoughts of mine on here. Two days ago, 28/06/2021, my anoreccia relapsed. I dont feel bad about it because i want to be skinny sooo badly! There was actually a time that i was praying to relapse so i can go back to being skinny. Ive been restricting for 3 days now and im actually doing pretty good.

A back story of my ed, i was 15 when i was diagnosed.A horrible year but ill maker this time, this relapse better !

Its also summer so i dont have to eat that much. Plus im fat so my parents and everyone around me wont care about me eating anyways. They dont care if i eat or not cause i have meat in my bones and theres no way i couldnt eat. Little do they know lmao

anyways, if anyone wants to be ana partners im down! Like counting calories and shgaring our thoughts and emotions, progress etc.

ONLY ages 17+ no minors:(

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calorie log 29/06/2021

i skipped breakfast :)

for lunch i had some chicken(170kcal)

fries(200 kcal)

a fried zucchini ball (230kcal)

and i also had half an oat bar(140kcal)

soooo in total its around 740kcal..

not proud of myself today but i was with a lot of people and i had to order something .

tomorrow ill restrict to 350 kcals :)