I'm A Mess Right Now Inside Out

@jonassabbott

Jonas Sawyer Anderson 24. Originally from Birmingham, England. Currently residing in Las Vegas, Nevada. Twin Brother. Adopted. First Grade Teacher. Newly Single. My heart isn't just broken, it's irreparable at this point. I still love you, my King. 1x1 Twincest RP Trigger Warnings include: depression, self harm, self loathing, suicidal thoughts, & suicide attempt.

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I know you wouldn’t. It’s… a little too out there for. You have? Remind me why you thought to keep all of these thoughts to yourself all of this time? You know I wouldn’t think you’re crazy. I… I really like pleasing you. I could really get into the spanking thing, and the punishing thing. I think so, too, which is good, and further makes me think that we should give it a try. I love you, babe. You don’t have to thank me… or better yet, how about you thank me by fucking me until I can’t see straight? I’d be more than willing to accept a thank you in such a form.

I don’t know. I thought you would think I’m insane and weird and...out there. I was just really nervous is all. Fuck, Carter. You really think so? Shit, I’m so turned on and so excited right now. Yes. Yes, that sounds so good. So hot. Yes, go get in bed and get naked. I’ll meet you in there, baby.

Just a little? Well, the collar thing, for one. I don’t want to be treated like a dog, and I know you wouldn’t treat me in such a way, but that’s how that sort of shit would make me feel. I’d uh– I’d be down for the spanking thing… or you know, getting punished. I trust you, J. I trust you more than anyone. As long as it’s not… too out there, like with collars and cages and whatever else is used for that sort of thing, I’d be for trying it once with you. At the least.

A lot. This is already so hot. No, I wouldn’t do any of that to you. That’s not hot. That’s insane. Fuck, I’ve thought about spanking and punishing you so many times. Baby, you’re killing me right now. I think we’re definitely on the same page with where the line is drawn. So, that’s good. I promise, I’ll never treat you or make you feel like less than the amazing, wonderful man that you are. I love you so much, Carter. Thank you. For being willing to try this with me.

I know you do. I know you love it. I love it, too. I love begging for more… I always want more, need more, even. I mean… yeah. I think it’d be something I’d be willing to give a try. If it were something you wanted to do.

Fuck, okay. I’m- I’m getting a little hot right now. What would you definitely not be comfortable with? I mean, I don’t want to ya know, hurt you or make you feel uncomfortable or unsafe around me. I just...fuck. Just thinking about this is getting me so turned on, Carter.

Okay. My first thought is ‘how they hell didn’t I see this coming?’ I mean, honestly. I know you like being in control in the bedroom, but I never paid much thought to it. Hey, don’t feel like that. I don’t think you’re crazy. I like the thought of submitting to you.

I mean, yeah. It’s hot seeing you under me and begging for more. I love it. Wait, really? You’d want to do it?

Whoa, whoa, whoa. You can’t just mention Fifty Shades and then ask to drop it. You can tell me, J. Are you into that sort of thing? The Fifty Shades thing… the dominant and submissive thing. What do you like when I do? Tell me, babe. S’alright. I’m really, really curious now.

I just- Yeah? I guess. I mean, I’ve always though about how hot it would be to have you submit to me, I mean, not crazy stuff, like making you wear collars or some shit like that, but...I don’t know. This is why I didn’t want to tell you. I feel crazy.

No, you trust me. I want to hear them. Tell me, baby.

Well, it’s hard to explain without making me sound crazy, I mean, you saw Fifty Shades of Grey on our date night that one time....Wait no. Wrong way to explain this. So wrong. Uhm....I really like it when you....No....It’s really hot when you...Fuck, no. Carter, can we just drop this?

Why don’t you tell me about some of these fantasies you have with me? I’m awfully curious.

What? No. No, they’re silly. Trust me, you don’t want to hear about them.

I know you can’t, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Honestly. I bet you think abut it a lot, I know I do. I’m horny as hell for you, and I am not ashamed to say that I think about sex with you a lot. I think about you in general all of the fucking time, but sex is on my mind at least half of the time. But only because I know how good you make me feel and I fucking love it. Mm. I think that I’d like that a lot.

I think about it literally all the time. I think about you constantly, and fucking you is in my thoughts like 75% of the time. What I’m going to do to you that night, what I’d like to do to you, fantasies I have with you. Everything. You get me so damn hot, Carter. It’s insane. Good, because that’s what I’m going to do to you.

Fuck, baby. You know how much I love it when you get like this. Yeah, fuck me in the shower, and make me scream your name. Ooh, well, if I weren’t looking forward to tonight and christening the place with you, I am now. Despite the soreness come morning, nights we can’t keep our hands off each other and you can’t keep your dick out of my ass are some of my favorite nights. Mm, yeah, you do that, baby. I couldn’t agree more.

I know. You get so horny. It’s so hot. I can never keep my hands off of you, or my dick out of your ass, baby. I just make myself think about it instead of doing it sometimes. You know what I really wanna do to you tonight? I want to tie you to the bed, and blindfold you so that when I have my wicked way with you, you won’t be able to know what’s coming next. Besides the fact that seeing you spread out for me like that, makes me so hot I can’t even stand it. What do you think about that?

That is exactly what I’m saying. You know it doesn’t take much to turn me on, baby. Yeah. Yeah, I like that plan. First the bathroom, have a shower, and then make our way to bed. I have to kick start job hunting. I’ll probably stick around tomorrow to get some more stuff put away, but the day after, I’ll have to hop on that. Then I guess here is home.

I know. And I love it. Yes, I can’t think of any better way to break in the new shower than fucking you in it until you’re screaming my name. You’re going to need to stay home tomorrow if only for the fact that by the time I’m through with you tonight, you won’t be able to move, much less hunt for a job. I’m going to fuck you so hard tonight you’ll have to sleep on your stomach. And then, in the morning, I’m going to fuck you all over again. Sex is the only way to break in this new flat...This new home.

Yeah, that’s what I assumed, but hearing it from you turns me on. More. Because the thought alone is more than enough to turn me on. I think we need to hop on that asap. No, I think I’ll really like it here. Like I said, everything I need is right here. Unless you want to move at some point, I’m happy being here– wherever you are. That’s where I want to be.

Mmm. So what you’re saying is you’re really turned on right now? I think you’re right. I say we start in the living room and work our way to the bedroom. Good. I’m really glad you do. I love it here. Now. I didn’t before, but with you here, it feels much more like home. I feel the same. Wherever you are, baby.

Oh, do we now? Tell me, baby, how do we plan on doing that? Never. Not if it means doing this all over again. The past couple of weeks have been insane, and I don’t want to go through it a second time. Unless I genuinely dislike it here, which I highly doubt will happen, then maybe I’d want to go back. Besides, it’s not like I have anything or anyone back in the states. Everything I need and want is right here. Where else would we go, babe? We did it. It makes me so fucking happy to see you this happy. I think this was the right move, and I think I’m really going to like it here.

Oh, I think you know how, but I’ll humor you. We plan on doing that by giving you some very intense, toe curling, screaming my name orgasms in every room in this place. That’s good to know. I don’t know where we’d go, I just didn’t know if you would ever want to move anywhere else. Trust me, I’m more than content to stay in England for the rest of our lives. I am. I’m really, really happy. I’m so happy that you think you’ll be happy here, too.

Can I sleep for forever now? Moving is so goddamn exhausting, moving to another country is something else entirely, let’s never do it again. But… we’re here, baby. We did it.

Well, no. You can’t. Because now that everything is in it’s place, we have to officially christen every room. Never? You don’t think you’ll ever want to go back to the states? Or somewhere else? We’re here. We did it. I’m so happy. I missed England, and now, being with you it finally feels like home.

Well, I think we’re finally all moved in. Thank fuck. If I never see another cardboard box again, it’ll be too soon.

You have no idea how fucking happy that makes me. Like, genuinely happy. I’ve missed seeing that light in your eyes, and that smile on your face. And knowing it’s because of me just makes it all the better. Good. Because I really want it.

I love you, C. I love you so, so much. It’s all because of you. You’ve done so much for me. Well, you’re going to get it, baby. Don’t you worry about it. Let’s go to bed, yeah?

If I didn’t know that before, I learned that during our trip to your parents. I’m sure she misses you, too. They’ll be really happy about us moving there, huh? You so happy makes me just as happy. Happy looks good on you, J. What do I want? I think I want you to make love to me tonight. That is what I want.

It’s not just me she misses. Yeah, they really will be. Thank you, C. I’m- For the first time in a long time I can say I’m good and mean it. That’s because of you. Mmm. I can definitely do that, baby. Definitely.

Yeah, that sounds doable. I can’t believe it either, but I’m so fucking glad that I decided to tell you because seeing you this happy is something I’ve missed. Big time. Now? How about tomorrow? ‘Cause I had other plans on how our night is going to go.

I’m kind of a momma’s boy. What can I say? I miss her. The thought of going back...Of having our whole family be together...It makes me so happy. Oh. Oh! Yes, yes, tomorrow is good. Tonight is for other things. Tell me what you want, babe.

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