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[jordynashleyrenae]

20-20

"You see angels," she's been told, "In places most would fear." To which the best reply, Was always to blush and shy away. People ask her what she sees, What draws her in like force equal to gravity, To which the best reply, Was always out of reach. What she sees isn't something tangible, It isn't a specific trait, It's always a constant whisper, A desire, a deep rooted strength. It's an effervescent energy, Hidden beneath darkness and pain. An infinite glow, no matter how dim, Of determination and faith. It is soft, like clouds made of feathers, But fierce like the roar of a thousand lions. It is comfort and rigidly structured, A pool of grace, untouched, without ripples. "You see angels," she has been told, "In places most would fear." To which the best reply, Is always, "I am blind in your world." People ask her what she sees, What pulls her in like force equal to gravity, To which the best reply, Is vague but always within reach.

- JordynAshleyRenae

[jordynashleyrenae]

1912

Like the titanic into the iceberg, You crashed into me. Your steely exterior, Into my eternal chill. I cut through your shell, And you broke off a piece of me. You, the unsinkable, Versus me, the unknowable. Then you started sinking, You saw me below the surface. I watched you start to understand, Understanding my depths. I watched you realize, What I need to stay afloat. And I was elated, Glad of the much needed company. Then we were both below the water, The waves lapping only a quarter of our existence. We lived in harmony for a fleeting moment, But I couldn't stop you from sinking. Like Rose, I just couldn't hold on. So with a piece of me lost, I watched you descend. Your broken frame, Falling into the blackness. And still I was glad, For your fleeting understanding.

- JordynAshleyRenae

[jordynashleyrenae]

Wander-land

Like a girl who believes In so many unbelievable things I followed you Down your rabbit hole Into your perpetual darkness. We fell and we fell Then we emerged In the dim and fading light Of your fleeting moment of joy Facing your personal abyss. You grabbed my hand I felt your warmth and desire I was comforted by your touch And I never looked back Trusting we would find our way out again. So we walked and we ran Through twists and turns Brambles and burrs Catching me here and there But never holding me back. Then one day you stopped And said I'm ready for more More than this emptiness, this darkness And I smiled at the blackness And turned, searching for the light. But I could no longer see it All I could feel was your hand holding mine Pulling, tugging me away So I ignored the weight of my intuition And I trusted you again. Slowly, uncertainly We made our way back Toeing the edges of the chasm Searching for that dying light The life we once held on to together. Time passed and your soul moved The warmth I once felt The comfort at your touch It was all gone Replaced by a frighteningly, empty chill. Then the dawn came And I ran toward the light But you stopped You let go of my hand And before I knew it I was gone, and so were you. I reached and I climbed Desperate for warmth and safety I pulled myself out And looked back for the first time And I mourned your loss. I trusted you'd find your way out You were so close But you loved the pain You craved the sadness, the attention And so, you chose to stay in the darkness. But I'll wait Calmly and patiently For you to find your way I trust you won't always stay One day you'll reach for my hand to pull you back.

- JordynAshleyRenae

[jordynashleyrenae]

Lunar Tides

Your soul moves with the moon It waxes and wanes Here then gone again Unencumbered joy and the depths of anguish Ebb and flow with the tide Slowly, back and forth Washing away my presence in the sand Waiting, watching, holding on Trying to make your soul stay Straining against the gravity of your fear and your pain Uncontrollable, yet predictable in its routine The tide will never completely wash away my presence I will never stop reflecting the light I will follow you Because the moon holds my soul, too. - JordynAshleyRenae