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[12/31/15]

“You should always be smiling”

Because that’s what sold me on you, I remember it coming out of nowhere & lighting up the entire world around me, that’s what made me so infatuated by you, that’s what made me want to get to know you better & slowly grow to admire every single thing about you.

Because that’s what made me miss you when I was gone, because I’m sitting here long after this has all passed & long after we’ve last spoken. Still thinking about your smile.

So wherever you are in life right now, throughout whatever it is you’re experiencing. I hope that you’re still smiling.

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mindfulness

I know it's been awhile, I can't even remember the last time I posted on this thing. Do I even have any followers still? Anyway, thats not the point. It's been so long since I've shared anything about my life on here & I recently remembered how much this meant to me in high school. I don't even write on a regular basis anymore that's part of the reason why I spontaneously decided to post an update on here. I'd love to catch you guys up on my life, on how I pushed myself to move away to Toronto to pursue the only thing that made sense to me. How I've learned & experienced more than I could of ever even imagined, how every single day pushes my limits and brings me closer to the best version of myself, how I've been repeatedly broke, jobless, homeless, stable & unstable, how I've found love & lost it but also how i've met & been constantly surrounded by the greatest & most inspiring people In the entire world that I'm proud to call my family out here. I feel like a full on catch up on the past year & a half of this adventure I've been on would require me to write a novel or two. What I really want to share is how I feel right now in this present moment. The feeling when you know that all the stress you've been going through is about to pay off and you're about to reach a high point of life (for now atleast). I wish there was a word for it because I can't even explain how it feels, lately I've been feeling high everyday It might be something I should be concerned about but I'm loving it. I started thinking a lot today about how grateful I am for every single person in my life right now and everything I've experienced the positive & the negative. I was considering writing everyone a thank you letter and a huge hug but I don't actually have time for all that right now. So I'm just going to use this as a general thank you. Thank you to everyone in my life for simply being a part of my life, I've accomplished so much more than I could've ever even imagined because of you all and this is just the beginning. Also, for any other people out there that might stumble across this post, I just wanted to say. Follow your dreams. Even if it doesn't fit the social standard of society, even if it seems impossible financially, even if no one else in your life right now agress. If you feel like you're missing something in your life you probably are. Feed your soul with whatever it is that you want deep inside. All you need to do is take the first step & I promise you it'll make more sense from there on. I can't even express how worth it it will be. Love, Josh Cezar.