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joshua. senior. eighteen. once certain of arriving, why hurry on the journey so fast?  

[sav-grey]

sav & josh : the playlist ( @joshuanahmias )

break up with your girlfriend, i’m bored | ariana grande - break up with your girlfriend, yeah, yeah, cause i’m bored. you could hit it in the morning, yeah, yeah, like it’s yours. everybody wants you | red hearse - seems like every time i’m close, you turn away, seems like all of a sudden everybody is on you, but i’ve been on ya, i’ve been on ya for a long time. lonely if you are | chase rice  - it could be middle of the week or the weekend, baby, it ain’t too late or too far, just call me cause i’m lonely if you are. better than feeling lonely | olivia o’brien  - so look me in the eyes, tell me that you want me, tell me pretty lies, tell me i’m the only even if you don’t mean it, touching you is holy….maybe fake love is better than feeling lonely. the one | fletcher  - i don’t really need nobody, i just kinda want your body, my life’s a mess, but it’s hot, so you won’t be sorry and we don’t need to fake it cause we don’t need to make it. boyfriend | ariana grande & social house - i know we be so complicated, loving you sometime drive me crazy cause i can’t have what i want and neither can you. love it if we made it | rina sawayama  - the war has been incited and guess what? you’re all invited and you’re famous, modernity has failed us and i’d love it if we made it. nothing is u | bleachers - will it feel like thunder when the long drives over? i will walk through silence with you, yes, i will wander in silence with you. weaponry | mike posner & jessie j  - i been drinking, i been smoking, i been waiting, ibeen hoping that there’s still some chance you and me can find a reason to believe in all them weekends that we used to have. josslyn | olivia o’brien  - can’t believe i was so stupid, just another girl you ruined. my friends said i shouldn’t do it, should’ve listened, guess i blew it. august | taylor swift  - cancel plans just in case you’d call and say, “meet me behind the mall,” so much for summer love and saying "us” cause you weren’t mine to lose. you should be sad | halsey  - no, you’re not half the man you think that you are and you can’t fill the hole inside of you with money, drugs and cars. i’m so glad i never ever had a baby with you cause you can’t love nothing unless there’s something in it for you. josh | peach prc - tryna patch things up and all, maybe start with all the holes you left in the wall. and i think you’re kinda narcissistic, you should see a therapist.

[pocavoglia]

American psycho (2000) dir. Mary Harron

[joshuanahmias]

🔪 …someone my muse hurt in the past.

Get to know the people in my muse’s life.

🔪 …someone my muse hurt in the past.

Zelda Ridley. Josh and Zelda met through a mutual friend and the spark between them were undeniable. In less than two weeks, he asked her out and they started seeing each other. He could feel himself developing actual feelings for Zelda, which was why he got panicked and thanks to his stupid fuckboy friends’ advice, he decided to break things off and ghosted Zelda. From time to time, he couldn’t help but think what could’ve happened if he hadn’t ghosted her.

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💀 …someone my muse would kill for.

Get to know the people in my muse’s life.

💀 …someone my muse would kill for.

Again his sister Yasmine. Not only he would die for her, he would also kill for her. Dawn is also another person he would kill for. @dawndp

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👿👑🌟

Get to know the people in my muse’s life.

👿 …someone my muse used to like but doesn’t anymore.

Penelope Mckenzie-Blumhurst. She is – well, was – one of his snotty friends from Hamptons. They used to be really close, Josh would consider Penny one of his closest friends but they had a fallout last summer and they don’t talk anymore. 

👑 …someone my muse is jealous of.

Arizona Talia Abraham. While he doesn’t know much about her, the fact Arizona’s mother is one of the most influential talent agents in Hollywood is enough reason for Josh to be incredibly jealous of her. 

🌟 …someone my muse trusts.

Begonia Davenport. Josh has more than ten cousins and he is only close to two of them. One of them is Miles and the other one is Begonia. She is the voice of reason, someone he can always trust without any doubt. 

[joshuanahmias]

🔥…someone my muse would die for.

Get to know the people in my muse’s life.

🔥…someone my muse would die for.

His sister Yasmine. Josh wouldn’t think twice and sacrifice himself for her. And he never misses a chance to say this out loud. She is the person he cares about the most and Yasmine feels the same way about him too.

[ofhotheads-blog]

Get to know the people in my muse’s life.

Send me a symbol and I’ll tell you about…

🌟 …someone my muse trusts. 💔 …someone who broke my muse’s heart. 💕 …someone my muse loves.  😒 …someone my muse hates. 🔥…someone my muse would die for. 💀 …someone my muse would kill for. 👻 …someone my muse considers a best friend. 💘 …someone my muse has a crush on. 🔪 …someone my muse hurt in the past. 👀 …someone my muse likes, but doesn’t trust. 💩 …someone my muse dislikes, but admires. 👿 …someone my muse used to like, but doesn’t anymore. 😉 …someone my muse has had sex with. 💋 …someone my muse used to date. 😜 …someone who makes my muse laugh. 👪 …someone in my muse’s family. 👑 …someone my muse is jealous of. 👊 …someone who hates my muse. 👫 …someone who has a crush on my muse. 👌 …someone my muse has only met once, but will never forget. 🍓…someone my muse has never met, but wants to meet. 👰 …someone my muse would consider marrying.

[joshuanahmias]

Did you fuck maddie

↖ is now accepting curious anons.

“I most certainly did not. I would never put my dick into that whore.”

[joshuanahmias]

Is your sister single? Asking for a friend

↖ is now accepting curious anons.

“Stay the fuck away from Yasmine.”

[joshuanahmias]

[christopherbarnes]

parkmin–seo​:

ofmymuses:

↖ is now accepting curious anons.

@xsorakim​, too 

@theisaacking​ will take some as well

[joshuanahmias]

phone call: joshua

Maia: That's good... I think

Maia: Depends what you mean by recently. But I'm gonna say from the beginning of this year, I haven't gotten into any

Maia: Yeah well, better than fighting someone [breathy laugh] I haven't broken anything in a while, guess that's healthy?

Maia: We're only like eighteen and we're already tired [chuckles] Is that normal?

Joshua: I heard about what happened in New York. You know.. with that bitch.

Joshua: It could be healthy. Depends on what you are doing instead. [a chuckle]

Joshua: In this school? It is normal.

[joshuanahmias]

the-fuxking-axelallen​:

Axel looked up towards the door when he heard an unfamiliar voice, only to see Josh standing next to the voice. “What’s up!” He called out to Josh, smile coming back to his face. It felt next to impossible to stay in a bad mood when his bro was around. He shook his head when Yasmine began to talk. “Oh, don’t worry about it. I don’t want to crowd you two.” He said looking over to Josh, trying to figure out his relation to this girl. “Hands got crushed by a robot. Hands now suck.” He said, putting it as simply as he could. Made him less upset to discuss when he didn’t let himself add any feelings to it. 

“I am good, bro.” He was about to give him a fist bump but he was interrupted by his sister. “Please.. You are not crowding us. If anything it’s nice to see Josh has friends with artistic interests.” Jackson was into art too but Yasmine always considered him as her friend, not Josh’s. “A robot? Wait... I think I heard about this story. I didn’t know you were the guy though. You told me about it, right?” Yas turned to Josh for confirmation, he nodded yes. “I wasn’t at that party. I usually avoid Luxor events for these exact reasons. I couldn’t survive a robot, like you did.” Yasmine smiled. “Since my lovely brother has no intentions to introduce us, let me do it for him. I am Yasmine. The nice one in the family.” Spoiled one would be a better title actually. “And you are Axel, right?” The bad influence.

[joshuanahmias]

sav-grey​:

Sav sneered at Joshua’s eye roll, his snippy answer, one side of her upper lip curling up in distaste as she looked up at him, though the temptation to fight didn’t last long, a visible slump overcoming her body as he answered. “Okay.” She said the word simply, a shrug of her shoulders accompanying it. There was no point, not with him. Sav lingered in the doorway another second before stepping back, shaking her head a little, about to turn on her heel and leave it at that before the annoyance surged again, the next words bursting out before she could stop them. “You know what? No. You don’t get to do that. She’s my best friend, Joshua. And we were supposed to be friends too,” she said, her hands clenching into fists as she finally snapped at him. It was months in the making, really. “Do you know how easily I could’ve fucked you over at so many opportunities in the past few months? Like when, I don’t know, Dawn asked me if I was pregnant? Or when my father asked me about it, and your mother cornered us while he was trying to figure out who I had been sleeping with? And I didn’t. I kept you out of it, because we were supposed to be friends first. But go for it. Act like it’s none of my business. But if you act like if it doesn’t matter if you hurt me, then I’m going to stop trying not to hurt you.” Sav threw all the words out like they were knives, glaring at him all the while. Half of her wanted to pound her fists against his chest, push him, something to make him understand what she was feeling in probably the only way he’d be able to comprehend, but instead she took another step back, a heavy, shaky inhale following the words. “I guess thank you for at least being honest.” 

He was more than happy that this conversation was over, he hoped there wouldn’t be another argument, he was sick and tired of talking about Madeleine. Hand clutching the door knob, he was getting ready to shut his door but it seemed like Sav changed her mind.

Fuck, he thought to himself. “We were supposed to be friends?” He snorted a laugh mockingly, still resentful about the fact Sav didn’t even bother to tell him she wasn’t pregnant at all. “That’s news to me.” He added, this time annoyed. She had a point, she could’ve ruined his life if she truly wanted to and Josh couldn’t even imagine how he would react to that, he would be livid. Furious. However, he did not believe she was doing all of those things to protect him, he didn’t think Sav could be that selfless, it didn’t add up. “I know how low you can sink when you are angry. The whole school knows it.” He referred the incident between Axel and Sav, he’d seen it too. “I appreciate the fact you didn’t do all those things but I also think you didn’t do it because it would put you in a bad position too.” He shrugged, trailing off.

“What do you want me to do, Savannah?” He did not understand her, not at all.

[drabbles-and-ideas]

Confess something you've thought about me on anon

[joshuanahmias]

sav-grey​:

who: @joshuanahmias​ where: josh’s dorm room when: a few days after the gym lock in

After everything that had gone down, Sav still had one person she had to talk to. It had been months, and she was….more than okay with that, but considering the blow up he had caused, she knew she had to acknowledge it. At least maybe say to his face that he sucked. More eloquently, but that was the general message. So Sav knocked on Josh’s door, desperately hoping that he answered and not whoever his roommate was, but at the same time hoping he wasn’t home, when the devil himself swung the door open. Her eyes met his, Sav holding up one hand before he could say anything. “Before you say anything else, just tell me the truth,” she said. She wanted to hear it from both him and Maddie. “Were you trying to get Maddie to hook up with you?” 

This was typical Joshua behavior, despite the fact he basically caused a shit storm, he didn’t bother to make any amends or apologize for his behavior. If you asked him, he would tell you he didn’t do anything wrong, he didn’t have anything to apologize for either. When he’d heard someone knocking his door, he hoped it was either Andrew or his sister or his cousin but no, it was Savannah, someone he certainly did not want to face after that disastrous event. “What do you want?” He asked point-black, had no plans to have any kind of small talk. His eyes rolled at her question, he was getting tired of this bullshit already. “No. I don’t know how is that any of your business but no, I was not.”

[joshuanahmias]

phone call: joshua

Maia: [stays silent for a moment, empathizing] I'm sorry that you went through that. Are you feeling better about it now?

Maia: Ah, a wall? I see. Well, least it's not a person.

Maia: I used to take out my anger during games. Soccer and lacrosse. People get mad when they lose and you don't go easy on them after they're already losing. I got into a lot of fights, didn't mind it though.

Maia: But I started breaking stuff after realizing I should stop getting into so many fights during games. Mostly my pottery pieces. I think at this point all of them are broken except like ten.

Maia: I don't know if I put effort into stopping myself or if I just got tired of fighting so much. [lets out a soft laugh] It's like I'm 50 years older than I am. Or that's what it feels like anyways

Joshua: [sighs] It's over now. I don't feel anything about it.

Joshua: You are right, at least it's not a person.

Joshua: Have you gotten into any fights recently?

Joshua: Breaking things is oddly comforting. Not the healthiest behavior. [chuckles] That's what I was told at least.

Joshua: I can't relate to that. Feeling older part I mean but I get being tired. I feel the same way.