take it easy, I'm just here for the guzzolene

[josofat]

Don't get it twisted though, you did me so wrong.

[josofat]

I hope your happy where you are at. It kills me to that say . I wasn't your dream guy like you became my dream girl, i was at one point but whatever. I learned to find your weirdness so appealing and refreshing. I hope someone else doesn't kill that in you. Don't stop listing to tool and playing with rats and being that care free black girl I fell in love with. Guess that's me getting it off my chest. Bye lexi, have a good life.

[josofat]

I haven't been on this in awhile. I got off it because you were the only reason I was on tumblr in the first place. I wonder if you still use it. I wonder if he/she is what you wanted. I still wonder how I could have stop all that shit from happening but I doubt I could have. It's been a long time and iv moved on . But every so often I think about you. That very act makes my shiver. I remember how you thought of me because of how I thought, because I thought like that. You tried a few times to stay friends but honestly did you ever think I could do it? The last feeling I remember was sitting on the couch watching the lobster. My stomach was twisting the whole time. God I loved you so much, you couldn't stand me even touching you at that point . What I really wonder is what actaully was the reason. What was truth and what was lie. Were you with someone else? Was it me ? Was it you? It's wild to think of who I am now because of you, I guess that's one of the reasons you didn't like me, you affected me. I hope one day after all the dust settles you can appreciate what we were, not me but we. But then again some one else has probably come around and done more, so what was the point anyway ?

[urbanrealism]

[josofat]

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Your love for me faded along time ago .

[adhemarpo]

Yuko Shimizu

[so-not-the-norm]

[josofat]

I wish I never fell in love with you. I wish I didn't care . I wish I was strong enough to tell you no . I wish that it wasn't you that I need so much validation from . I thought you were different and unfortunately I was right .

[shisasan]

Roberto Ferri

[josofat]

You literally were everything to me for so long. I did everything I could to get over you the first time and it actually worked , then you dragged me in for a second time and somehow really fucked me up even worse . You showed me there is so many other men out there that are like me but better. They aren't goofy and anxious . They can be passionate without being hot headed . You showed me I didn't deserve to be loved and I still believe it because honestly I believe in everything you do . I still love you in some fleeting nostalgic sort of way . I still love you in a lot of ways . But most importantly I'm afraid of my love for you . To much longer and it will eat me whole and I'll have nothing left to give to someone else . I agreed to be your friend because I'm weak , not because i thought it was the right thing to do. I agreed to see you progress pass me wile I sit here and pretend I'm doing just as well . I never thought I'd let someone get to me this bad ever again but then again that's why I always say your special. I'll live with a broken heart for so much longer , I'll wish I was your A for so much longer.

[josofat]

I broke up with you because you didn't love me . You told me you couldn't feel for me in certain ways . What was I suppose to do? What am I suppose to do now that your begging me to be your friend when I know that's all you wanted for a while . I wanted to be rid of you . I didn't want to feel the sting of rejection every day . Now iv back myself in a corner . I love you but you don't love me , I don't know if you ever did .

[josofat]

It's funny to see someone's perspective on the same thing your in . You could be in hell and another person could see it as heaven .

[josofat]

I'm over it