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“Overhead, the two moons worked together to bathe the world in a strange light.” —1Q84

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Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage, Haruki Murakami

translated by Philip Gabriel

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Dagat na dagat na ako.

(Coron, 2018)

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take care of yourself okay? be free

always have been

[jowinpafin]

The Art of Coming Back

It seems that my youth only exists in my memory now. I haven’t been active here on Tumblr but to be honest, I miss the old social media. Years ago, I would have thought of engaging in the blogging industry but now, with everything that has been happening, I did good by not pursuing it. Also, as my close friends know (or not), I am never the type of person who is consistent in what she does. My attention span lasts as long as I’m enjoying it but when I stop, I stop full-time. Life has been a series of twists and turns for the last 8 years. I entered college, I failed college, I transferred schools, I changed my program, I became alcoholic, I smoked almost one pack of cigarettes a day, I smoked mary jane, I did all-nighters, I gained so much weight, I got into toxic relationships, I hated myself, I was depressed and I almost died. But despite of these horrifying events that occurred within those years, I flourished individually and grew maturely also. As human beings, it is expected of us to only remember the worst and bad things--not realising that we enjoyed some parts too. 

In that span of 8 years, I’ve become the person I hated the most but eventually, I also accepted the fact that I am me no matter what. Those bad things that have happened helped in my growth and healing. Yes, I’m still on the process of self-curing myself but at least, there’s progress. Our mistakes don’t define us--it molded us into the person we are today, right at this moment. Without those mistakes, our journey would have been boring, unexciting and lame as f*ck. Honestly, for me, it was the moments that I felt most alive. I could feel my body trembling, shaking--thinking that I would never surpass those challenges but here I am: A graduate of Uni, choosing among 3 job offers, enjoying my life in quarantine with my whole family. Not exciting as it sounds but what more could I ask for? 

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Marie Claire Italy, October 1987

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