Valentine's Date
Summary: You find yourself alone with Loki on Valentine’s day. He decides to keep you company and to give you what you need.
Pairing: Avenger Loki x Avenger plus size female reader
Word count: 4142
Warning: Injuries, fatshaming, self depreciation. If you see anything, don't hesitate to tell me
A/N: Happy Valentines day everybody. It’s not really a full story about Valentines Day but I still hope you will like it.
You were wearing your most comfortable pyjamas, pink and fluffy, you had big socks and a big vest on top of it while you were under a blanket. It was your favourite outfit to watch a movie by yourself. You were watching your favourite romantic comedy. You have seen it at least thirty times but you couldn't stop watching it. It was your comfort movie. Today, you needed it a little bit. All your teammates were out on a date so you were left alone. You weren't mad. That was good for them to be able to celebrate Valentines Day with their significant other. You just had nobody to celebrate with. You were too into your movie to realise that the place next to you drown a bit.
"You really like this movie don't you?"
You jumped, not expecting someone to talk to you. Your heartbeat fasten like crazy before you realised who it was.
"What are you doing here? Are you not supposed to be on a date today?"
"I thought I would take some time off dating. People expect too much of this Valentines Day."
"What? You can't bear to bring flowers or a gift for one of your friend?"
You never judged the tall mischievous God. He was living his life fully and that was good for him. You also knew that he didn't have a girlfriend but a lot of one night stand. You wondered if it was his choice or theirs.
"If I start to do that, they will think that it’s more than what it is."
"I see. So you are here alone tonight."
"It seems that it was the best plan. If not, you would have been alone."
"You want to keep me company?"
Loki and you were teammates. It arrived from time to time that you would do things together like reading or with the team but you never watched a movie alone with him. You weren’t sure he would actually like this one.
"If you want me too."
"Sure. The more the merrier. I am just not sure you will like it. It’s kind of very girly."
“Let’s try it.”
He saw a little bit of the movie while he was making tea. He wasn’t sure he would actually like it but it would probably not hurt him to much to try. He knew that he needed to make some efforts to be more part of the team. He thought that it would be the perfect moment to try. You were always nice to him even after what he did and never tried to blame him. He knew that it didn’t mean that you were forgiving his acts but he was trying and it was good enough for you. You told him once and he believed you. He just needed to not screw up again. You took back your place, giving a piece of your blanket to Loki.
You explained a bit the movie before putting play again. After a while, you saw Julia Roberts coming back to Hugh Grant in his strange Londonian house. You didn’t like the roommate of his character but with time, you were use to it. You saw them kiss and your body was filling with envy.
"I miss that."
"Miss what?"
"I miss having someone to kiss."
Loki looked at you. You were still facing the screen.
"You must kiss a lot of people."
You were taken aback by his statement. You looked at him.
"What make you thing that?"
"Because you are a wonderful mortal and very pretty."
Your cheeks pinked at the compliment.
"Thank you but no, I don't kiss a lot of people."
The God found it strange. He didn’t really know if you were dating or not. You were always quiet and often unseen at night. He supposed that you had your fair share of lovers or people to sleep with.
He wanted to make you happy at this moment. He couldn’t help himself.
"Do you want us to kiss?"
You looked at him big eyes. You were really surprised by his question. Seeing how you were looking at him, Loki was afraid that he made a mistake, taking back his question.
"I didn’t want to offend you, we don't have to."
"It's just... I was not saying that for you to ask me to kiss you."
"I know darling. I am asking you because we are both alone tonight and it seems like you need a little something."
You looked at him a bit suspicious. When you see that he is not lying, your heartbeat comes back to normal
"Alright, but just for tonight."
"Just for tonight."
He brings you closer to him. You look at his lips, which seems really soft before looking at him in his eyes. You grip his shirt before leaning to kiss him. In the beginning, you were a bit shy. Even if it is a one-time thing, you don't want him to regret asking you to kiss him. His lips were soft, so soft. You got lost in the kiss. He deepened it, taking control of the situation. Carefully, he lies you down on the sofa. You found the bottom of his shirt. You caress him. He shivers at your contact but doesn't stop you. Your legs circle him. You don't want him to stop kissing you. You make out for more than half an hour. It was supposed to be only kissing right but you didn’t want it to end. You could feel your panties damped in your wetness. Nobody had ever kissed you like him. At the beginning, it was slow but now, it felt like the passion was off chart, fighting for the control, moaning in each other mouth. He started to rock his hips against yours. You gripped his shoulders before he broke the kiss.
"Do you more darling?"
"Please, yes, please."
He magically transported both of you into his bedroom. He didn't wait a second more before removing your clothes by magic.
“You don’t have to leave.”
You turn to look at Loki bringing back a cloth to clean you. You thought he went to the bathroom to clean himself and that it was a clue for you to leave.
“In general, I see your friends leave as soon as it’s over.”
“That’s true but this is not the same thing.”
“Loki, I thought we said”
“Yes, we did Darling but Valentine’s Day is not over yet so if you want to stay, you can, if you don’t, you don’t have to.”
“Can we cuddle?”
“You don’t have to ask.”
You go back to bed giggling. You let him clean you before taking you in his arms. It felt good, really good. You felt protected and loved. It was just for the night but it felt really nice to have someone to spend the night with.
After that night; you saw Loki more and more at the team events. It might have been just a movie, game nights or diner nights that often finished in stories time. It was nice to see him trying his best to integrate the team. His demeanour was changing slowly but surely. You liked to see him like this, accessible and kinder. You became closer and after you suggested one time to have another night together, it became something regular. You both were clear that it was only to release some tensions and for you to have nice intercourse with someone that was here for you. It was actually the perfect friendship. He was making sure that you learned new technics to not get hurt and you were making sure that he was not offending someone with his comments. He couldn’t help himself to sometimes be a bit too much of a God and not be careful enough with his sayings. The team was used to it but you still thought that helping him might be a good thing if he had to one day speak to the public.
It wasn’t until a few nights ago that you realised that it wasn’t enough for you. That night, you saw a woman leaving Loki’s bedroom. You felt jealous. You thought that things were good between you and didn’t actually expected for your friend to have someone else over. It made you feel insecure. Weren’t you good enough for him? Did he actually prefer her? Was he doing this just for you and wasn’t satisfied? After all, he was a God and you were a simple mortal, not as pretty as the woman leaving the building. You looked at yourself. Of course, he would prefer this other woman. How could he like a small, plus size woman with too much weight on her?
In the beginning, you thought that it was actually nothing. You weren’t really jealous and it will pass away. The problem is, it wasn’t just a thought that came that night. Now, when you were seeing him, you felt your heart beat faster and butterflies waking up when his eyes found yours, his smile widening when he realised that you were in the same room as him. You didn’t thought anything more that the fact that he was still seeing you as a friend when it was now clear that you felt more for him. How could you not? He was the person that you grew the closest to in the last five months. He was always here for you but now, everything felt different. It was just a friends with benefit relationship for him when you wanted more. So you decided that you needed to change that. You decided that it was time to find a boyfriend. Your relationship with Loki was a safety net. You didn’t need more until now.
After you told Loki that you had a boyfriend and couldn’t continue the agreement that you had with him, the God got confused. He didn’t understand why everything changed so suddenly. You didn’t tell him that you were looking for someone else. He tried to found answers from Natasha. You were close to her and he hoped she could help him but she didn’t know more than him. He tried to not show how much your decision affected him. He thought that you were happy with him and the way the things were between you. He never thought that you would stop everything without talking to him. You really did see him just as a friend that you slept with.
It has been four months since you started to date Stefan. Tonight was your anniversary. You told him that you had a surprise for him and to not plan anything. You brought him to Tony's party. You knew he was a big fan of him and all the Avengers in general. It was the occasion for Stefan to meet all of them. You told him to put a nice suit and to follow you.
Once you arrived at the party, you tried to find your friends. You could see some of them. You presented your boyfriend and they start to talk. After a while, you needed to fill your drink. You saw Loki at the bar, your heart stopped. You wouldn't get used to him being this magnificent. He was wearing a black suit with a green shirt. His eyes found yours and he smiled at you. He took his drink to meet you. You started to talk. It has been a while since you were just in his company. You missed him, you miss the way it was easy to talk to him about everything. You talked for a long time, laughing at what he was saying. Your boyfriend came to find you.
"Hey, I thought you abandoned me."
"No, sorry, I was just talking to Loki. Stefan, this is Loki, Loki, this is Stefan, my boyfriend."
"Nice to meet you."
“You too.”
After the three of you talked for a while, Loki would have never thought that you would fall for someone so small and so ordinary. You needed someone that was putting you first, that could make you see things, everything that you wanted. Your boyfriend seemed the opposite of what you told him that you wanted in a man. He could feel that something was off even if Stefan seemed nice. He was so confused of what could have made this happen. You deserved better. You deserved the world and all the galaxies. You deserved to be treated as a queen.
The night with your boyfriend went well. He finally met his heroes and everybody seemed to like him. Once he left for work, you decided to go back in the compound for an early training. You enter the kitchen happy of this new day.
"Hi everybody."
"Good morning."
You took a mug in the cupboard. You could feel the tension in the room. It was really strange. You turned to look back at your teammates.
"What's going on?"
"We don't want to intrude or anything."
"What are you talking about?"
Nobody really wanted to say. It wasn't really their place, but at the same time, you were their friend. Tony couldn't help himself. He knew that even if you lashed on him, you would forgive him on day. You didn’t always see eye to eye but you knew he had your back.
"Something with your boyfriend is wrong."
"What are you talking about?"
"He seemed false like he was hiding something."
"You don't even know him. He was just anxious to meet you."
"No, it felt like something else."
You looked at all of them. They seem to agree. You started to get mad. You knew he wasn't the perfect man, but nothing was wrong with him. You knew he wouldn't hurt you or anybody else. Like if the last nail needed to be put, Loki entered the room smiling.
"Good morning."
"Yeah yeah, good morning."
You left the room, too angry to talk. They saw him only once and they thought they knew what was happening. They didn't. How could they say things like? It seemed like things went very well and now, they talked about your boyfriend behind your back. You went to the gym to train yourself and relieve some tension. You couldn’t believe that they told you that. You shook your head. No, nothing was wrong with him.
You were back in the Quinjet walking with difficulties. A grenade with picks blew up in front of you and almost killed you. Loki threw himself in front of you to block the deadly picks coming toward you. You helped each other to leave the building and coming back alive. You didn’t expect the base to be full of traps. It seemed like Hydra was putting more efforts on trying to kill you.
Once everybody was on board, Steve went to talk to you.
“Y/N, what happened? You need to be more careful. If Loki hadn’t been here, you would probably be dead by now.”
“Mistakes happen Cap or did you never do one?”
Your tone was harsh, very different of what he was use to.
“Hey hey, I am just saying”
You interrupted him.
“Saying what? That I screw up? Yes, I did and this why we have teammates to help us. Not that I wanted to endanger anybody in the first place.”
Steve looked at you surprised. You never talked to him like this before. He knew that something was wrong put couldn’t say what.
“Do you want to talk about what’s bothering you?”
“Why do something has to bother me? Drop it Cap. It was a simple mistake.”
You didn’t want to lash on him. He was always the sweetest and he always tried his best to be a good captain. You just didn’t have it in you to talk. The picks were still hurting you. You started to remove them one by one, clenching your teeth.
It’s been two days since you came back from the mission. You were still on hinge, and you needed time for yourself. You weren’t still heal and you could still feel where the picks found their way inside your body. After your shower, you went to bed to read a little bit but stumble your toe in the foot of your desk. You started to curse and throw yourself on the bed, tears dripping.
Loki was passing by when he heard sniffles coming from your room. He hadn't really talked to you since the morning in the kitchen which was three months ago, but he wasn't about to let you be sad. He knocked at your door. You tried your hardest not to respond.
"Darling, it's me. Please let me know what is disturbing you. Would you open the door for me?"
You didn't want to. You knew that if you saw him, you would just want to hug him and feel his warmth. This is what you were longing for. He called your name another time, telling you that he would let himself in if he had to. You moved from your bed.
"Yes?"
"What is going on?"
"Nothing."
"You have been crying. I know that you don't want to talk to me anymore but I am here for you."
You touch his shirt, removing the hair that felt on it before looking at him. Your eyes fill with tears again.
"Y/N, I don't know what happened and what I did to you but please just let me apologize.”
“It’s nothing really, I just hurt my toe.”
“What else?”
“I can’t tell you.”
“Why not?”
Tears fall again on your cheeks. Talking was harder and harder.
“Can I see?”
You nodded. You knew that he wouldn’t leave you without having the full story. He touches your forehead softly. When he entered your memory, it seemed recent, like less than a week recent. He follows the images. He can see you in a leaving room.
“What are you talking about? Why do you want to break up? I thought we were happy.”
“I found someone better than you. Someone that take care of themselves, that isn’t fat like you and that isn’t always away. I never see you because you are always somewhere else.”
“Who is she?”
“It doesn’t matter.”
“It does to me. Who is she? You at least owe me that.”
“I don’t owe you anything but if you really want to know, it’s Alecia.”
“Apartment 54 Alecia?”
“Yes.”
Your shoulders fall. You had your suspicions but he told you that he wasn’t interested by her and that he only wanted you.
“You just used me to get what you wanted.”
You turned your back on him before looking him in the eyes again.
“Everybody told me that something was off with you. I thought they were wrong because they couldn’t say what it was. It appears that I was a fool to not trust them. You just wanted to meet Tony because you are a big fan, you wanted to meet the Avengers. You never cared about me. I am surprised that it took you so long to break up with me.”
You couldn’t get yourself to be angry, you felt like none of this really matter. Everybody was right, you were wrong. However, you needed to know one last thing.
“When I told you that she wanted to make a move on you, she already did, didn’t she? You were already sleeping with her?”
He couldn’t look at you. You took his head in your hands to make him look into your eyes.
“Yes, I was.”
You slapped him. You told him that you were coming back the next day to take your things and that it would be better if you didn’t saw him or her.
The memory faded. Loki was back in front of you, rage cursing into his veins. He hurt you. He hurt the sweet little thing that you are and he couldn’t accept it. He knew something wasn’t right with your boyfriend but he never knew what it was.
"I am going to kill him"
"You can’t, he is an innocent."
"He isn't innocent. He cheated on you and he lied to you."
You turned your back on the Prince.
“It doesn’t matter. It wasn’t like I thought I would spend the rest of my life with him anyway.”
“What do you mean?”
Loki touched your shoulder for you to finally look at him.
"There is one thing that you need to know. I can’t continue like this. It's not your fault. It’s not you, it's me."
Loki was anxious now.
"I heard that in Misgard, that means that it's actually my fault."
"Well, in general, yes, but not this time."
You took an inspiration.
"I started to date him because I knew that I couldn’t never be with you. I love you Loki, more than a friend should, and I know that I am not good enough for you. I am not as tall as you and not as slim. My thighs, my belly and my boobs are ten the size of the supermodels that you date and my life has been so boring that you couldn't find me interesting. I can’t pretend that I only want to be your friend or your teammate. I need to let you go and this is time. I was a fool to pretend that being with someone else will help me."
"And who decided that you weren’t what I wanted?"
You looked at him confused.
"You can't tell me that you don't want a supermodel like the one was with you at Tony’s Party.”
"Who decided?"
"I did, I guess."
"This is what I thought."
He took his time to look at you, all of you. He couldn’t believe what you told him before. He wasn’t mad that you liked him more than a friend or thought that you to shouldn’t see each other until you were over him. No, he was mad because you depreciated yourself. He was mad because you decided who he should like and be with.
"See, there is one thing that you don't understand Darling. It's that appearances are often a game. The supermodel she plays her part perfectly. She plays the sexy card that this world wants her to play, but you? You play the sexy and hot card that I love you to play. You are shorter than me? Great, I can kiss your head when you are angry, sad, or just because I want to. You have big tights, a big stomach and a big derriere? Good, that means that I have more to love, to look at, to admire, and to die into."
He brings you closer to him.
"You find your life boring when I find it fascinating. When I was thirty years old, I didn't do as many thing as you did. You live fast because you have a shorter amount of time to live but it doesn't mean that your life isn't interesting."
He kisses you softly, and you let yourself melt in his arms.
"I love you so much, and you didn't even realise it. You thought that was just something meaningless to me. In the beginning, it was, but I fell in love with you. I fell in love with your smile and with you laugh. I fell in love with the way you are moving and tackling things. I fell in love with the way your body responds to me. I fell in love with all of you. And if you let me, I will spend the rest of my life loving you and your beautiful body. I never want to hear you say that you are too big again. This man fat shamed you and made you doubt yourself. I want you to believe my words when I tell you that you are the most beautiful woman I ever saw and that I want to be every second with you. I love you like I never imagine I could."
"I love you so much Loki."
He kissed you again, pushing you into your bed. He caressed your face and your full body, telling you how beautiful you are and how long he has been waited for you to be his. He cuddle you until you fell asleep in his arms against his wet tee-shirt. You couldn’t stop crying between happy tears, sad tears and exhaustion.
He promised himself to go scare your ex boyfriend with the help of the other Avengers, making him pay for what he said and did to you. You might be his now but he needed to avenge you. If you weren’t ready to do it yourself, he will. He did not care that he would be seen as dangerous or cruel.
@mochie85 ❤️
