minty julia

Julia, 23, aquarius

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hi I'm new here. i actually have blog in another social media app, but tumblr brings me so much inspiration, so i want to become part of it and create beautiful world here

although my english can be bad sometimes, i will try to practice more here. i'm russian, and if you ok with this, you're welcome 🤍🦢

here you can find my literature student routine, little moments of my life, beautiful Moscow, my pics and thoughts. i hope we will have a lot of fun together!

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How do you know that you want to have children? For most of my young adult life, I've always said I never wanted them. Now I'm with a partner and I'm rethinking my stance, but I'm still so unsure. It's a serious thing to bring a new life into the world and be responsible for it....I go back and forth a lot now

Yes omg. I want a baby so bad, I want the experience of continuing human experience through my body and through shared love with my partner. I’m spiritually hungry for a baby. But realistically? It scares me. I’m so free, I move all the time, I go out to parties whenever I want, I work a million jobs because I find it fun, I sit in silence for hours each day watching the birds outside of my window. And all of that would change with a baby.

But I think being a mother is fated for me. I think it will make me a better writer, a better human, a better lover. I think that a lot of my fear around having a child, goes hand in hand with my fear of commitment. Even though… i am actually a very loyal and dedicated person once i decide on something.

Theres an aspect to motherhood that scares me because i think “woah ive never experienced myself in that shape, and i dont trust myself”. Anyways, i have a million things to say about it. But the thing that keeps me aligned with having a child? Being in love, and looking at a partner in bed and thinking, i want more of you in the world. I want more of us in the world. And how can we go wrong if this love is overflowing to the point that all we can do is create another body to hold onto love with us?

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another spring day

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its spring finally

i leave my uni at 6:45pm and sun is still shining and birds are singing

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my favorite hero? you mean, the hero I recognized as my shadow, whose image haunts me and reminds me of things I didn't do, but what he did? yes, there are some

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some wondering in snowy Moscow

it's getting warmer, but today I got caught in an incredible snowfall 🤍❄️ I was walking through the streets during my lunch break between classes while drinking some capuccino

today I had an extremely hard study day! in Literature institute classes were held from 10 a.m. to 6:40 p.m and THEN i had to rush in my second uni (where I study by correspondence) to study german till 8:20 p.m. so i had 10 hours for studying, but slept only 5 hours...

btw my classes were:

- music history

- russian literature

- written translation from german

I also had english classes, but I couldn't attend them because of music history in another uni

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studied with my bestie in a cafe because it's getting harder and harder to stay in front of my laptop at home. still writing my alchemic symbolism research – it is 55 pages long yet. professor told me to write at least 30 pages so I guess I tried a little bit too hard... anyways it wouldn't be so nervous if I hadn't to write my thesis till april. that's why i want to finish this one as soon as possible

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just made this collage for fun

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thank god i was so fucking weird and unpopular in high school because i just keep getting eleganter these days... i feel like i'll never peak and i love that

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some treasures from second-hand bookstore that i found in basement of the old house in Moscow. i buy the two from the last photo: the first one is the collection of poems by Maria Petrovyh (1908–1979) and the second one is the essays of Borges

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get done my curls today in this beautiful place

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just healing snow

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today is my birthday and i spend it wandering in the loveliest city – in Moscow 🤍🦢 it's a gift for me that today we have incredible amount of snow, because I was born far far away in the North and my soul is always longing for snow ❄️❄️❄️ i listen to Fleetwood Mac, drink coffe and receive all the love that Universe spending to me. i blessed with this beautiful life i was given 23 years ago

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all days long I'm writing my research about medieval alchemists and alchemic symbolism. also i need to write my novel for the diploma examination and i can't help thinking about it. it's scares me a little because i involuntary fall into the framework of other people's expectations. but all i wish is to create something meaningful for myself.

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today's sunset at 4:52 pm. i love our view. there in the forest you can see little church

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