The Road Back ( an epilogue)
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He stood looking from the bow of the ship. The somber fingers of fog shrouded the coastline. The storms had left the bay the color of gun metal. He squinted to see where one started and the other left off. The waters were still widowed of life this far north. The silence was thunderous.
The reports had crept in. Then, they were silent. The man, then a boy stood, unwavering on the minuscule beach watching for any movement on the water. None. For years.
Those first months were the hardest. His papa had warned him of it. The family tried to coax him into joining them. It failed. They were caring he knew. The mother fluttered over him in the beginning when he hurt so badly. He refused her efforts. His chant was the only thing that kept him going.
I will papa. I am the fire. I will not forget you.
Every day the boy took out the pieced map taken from his papa. He marked the new route. He made hash marks for the days trekked on its weary, worn back. The man was impressed that he had that knowledge. Something papa had taught him. To know where you have been and where you are going. To survive. He did it for him. Nothing for himself back then. He was empty.
The man had a box. Stained almost black from over use. He would turn the handle and talk into it at every nightfall. Another man answered him. He was the true rescuer. Telling the man which way to go . Where food would be. How long to walk. Where to sleep. And they shadowed the voice .
The boy heard it all. He asked the man if the voice was a good guy or bad. The man stared at him and said softly… Good.
The people would not leave food or shelter if they were bad.
The boy didn't truly trust this family. Too much seen in his short life made him as suspicious as a cornered animal. They still might eat him. He kept watching for flaws in their story. . He did not know if they were the good guys or the bad guys. He slept little. Twenty-two days later they saw the boat. The protected cove virtually undetectable from the road
The boy stood on a decaying dune and whispered… Oh papa twenty-two days. You should have tried harder. I am so alone.
The boat hovered in a swirling mass of ash. Its masts yawned and stretched like the burned stubble of the oaks they had passed. The captain steered them to where he had stashed several families. In the bowels of the ship. The crew saw to feeding them. With soap water and clean clothes given out the cracked voice of the captain roared commands for the ship to leave the tiny cove with a grudging shudder. Almost afraid of what lay ahead the boy stood squarely on the warped deck still undecided whether to leave his papa. There would be no one to answer his questions now. A dilemma. Should he stay. Would he survive. Will you be mad. He heard his papa say to take life. His gaunt chest heaved in defeat… realizing he had to leave this dying place.
The girl saw his suffering and held tight to his closed fist. The boy stared sightlessly at the receding shoreline and recited his litany. I will papa. I am the fire. I will not forget you.
The ship navigated through the murk and ash without another stop. The soupy seas and ash fogged skies never dissipating. The boy started to believe everything was futile. To have hope offered to you and accept it. Then when you started to believe the hand snatched it back. He refused to believe. Belief was cruel.
On the fourth day out the boy thought death had finally come to sink its venomous claws into him. His bones racked with palsy like spasms. His eyes dripped with a blinding viscous mucous. His belly could not keep down even the sips of water the girl gave him. He was in the throes of death. He did not mind. He would finally be with papa. He lay in a bath of exudation waiting to die. The girl’s cool hand on his feverish brow was the last thing he would remember of this existence.
Seven days later the boy stirred to a maelstrom of sound on deck. The girl helped him garner the swaying steps that led upwards. Something was different. As he drew his labored breaths he was reminded of something sugary. Sweet like the coke his papa had found. His cracked lips nearly broke into a smile at the memory of that wonderful delicacy. He struggled up the final steps. He shuffled to the distorted lip of the rail.
The tears brimmed in his eyes and made it hard to see. His papa would like this. To know it was not all gone. It was only a vein of color on the horizon but, the boy understood what his papa had meant by the word beauty. He and the girl stood transfixed. Sobs plagued his thin shoulders.
The woman dropped down. She drew him in. He could feel her inaudible cries against his neck.
I’m sorry Isaac. I’m sorry that your papa did not see this. But know that he treasured you beyond anything else. You must honor his sacrifice. You must live and make him proud. You must do as he asked.
I know. The boy looked again at the streak of blue. Deep inside he was nurtured by the comforting words. He knew then what he must promise for his papa.
I will papa. I am the fire. I will not forget you.
The ship and its treasure of life sailed another three days. Always south. Always bluer. It was the morning of the tenth day when land was spotted. All gathered at the warped rail. At first a small speck of land then an island. There were men and women. There were more children and some dogs.
A sanctuary the captain told them. Until we know that all is safe again we stay here.
The woman came to stand with the boy and her daughter. Are you better, Isaac?
Mary. My daughter is Sarah, my son is Jacob, and my husband James. You will be as ours. We will be your family, Isaac.
Isaac hefted the glass to his eye and searched the protected cove for any signs of life. Fifteen years and the cove still seemed devoid of life. Good that no human filth had staked their claim. After he made the fourth pass he was satisfied. Sarah came from behind, curled her slender arms around his chest.
It will be alright Isaac.
I know. It just has to be.
Then what’s wrong? The intelligence seems good.
I’m not certain the evil has ended and I don’t want you hurt. I don’t want you to know what I can’t forget.
Mary did not want to see this trip happen. She had lost her husband to the cough and her true son shortly after that. Isaac and Sarah was all she had left. She argued that she would have nothing to live for if they didn't make it back. But, Isaac convinced her there was no talking him out of his responsibility. He had waited fifteen long years and he owed everything to his papa. His papa’s memory and the promise he made to him was what kept Isaac alive during those first years
Isaac had made a daily pilgrimage to the coastline to thank his papa and to reiterate his promise that he would never forget him or what he had done for him. In those conversations he told his papa all about his new life. About the good people he was with. His papa was the first to know of his love for Sarah. His papa was the first to hear his plans of an expedition.
As he stood on the beach all these thoughts touched that place in him that no one else had been allowed. He was scarcely conscious of the dories transporting the provisions. Enough dried meat, fruits, vegetables and water for an inland reconnaissance party. The supplies should last two weeks in and back. Reports seem to think things were shifting for the good but, it was this group’s responsibility to confirm those rumors. Once landed Isaac could see the changes on the shoreline of this tiny inlet. There was a smidgen of green as he looked inland. At water’s edge tiny crabs were scurrying to get out of their intruders path. A beautiful symphony of vivacious insects had hailed their arrival on this once dead stretch of sand. It was encouraging.
Isaac was here for he knew which way to go. He had preserved his papa’s bits of map as though they were prized jewels or bars of gold. The captain had offered him newer ones but, Isaac would not give them up. He knew them to be precise. He had marked the path himself.
This foray was to have two purposes. One to search for the promises to come. One to fulfill the promises of the past.
The six people got underway at the following daybreak. Their goal, one hundred and fifty miles through what they remembered to be a wasted wilderness. They had trained hard. The captain was an unforgiving taskmaster. They each carried ninety pound packs with provisions and numerous pieces of testing equipment. The point carried their only rifle. Isaac carried a handmade bow and quiver of arrows.
Five days in. Four days reconnaissance. Five days back. After that the ship would leave them and head back home. Isaac planned to hike thirty miles each day, stopping only for five minute breaks. The air was crisp and tested fairly clean. Nothing alarming, no masks necessary.
Isaac and Sarah left their comrades on the fourth day. They would be going west from this point. They chattered of the things seen and of their confidence for the future of this land. Isaac told Sarah his papa imagined a place so incredible that words failed him in his description. He also told her that a hunger and avarice saturated this land. His father had warned it must not happen again for it would be mankind’s final doom. God would not see fit to deliver another savior. Isaac confessed his papa had conferred this duty on him.
Isaac and Sarah reached at the tiny hillock late the fifth day. The ginger glow of dusk assaulted the surrounding decay. The memories of his last days with his papa’s body inundated him. He recalled the man coming for him. He remembered wanting to take the tarp back and encase his papa’s frail form with it. He remembered the woman telling the man to take him back to his papa’s body. He remembered telling the man the task was his and only his. He remembered his farewell to his papa.
Isaac again accepted no help with the burial of his beloved papa. He took his chisel and hammer and engraved his message on a rock they had hauled to the head of his papa’s grave. The words could not express everything in Isaac’s heart. He left them brief instead.
As Isaac left his papa’s resting place he realized the road they had followed had survived the harshness of its new environment. Yes it was scabbed and scarred by an illness that man had brought down upon himself. It told the tale of man and his unwillingness to honor his guardianship of this world. Green was indeed thrusting upwards through this maimed landscape, but Isaac knew it would take generations to see full restoration, but he now knew why his father had claimed he was the fire. It would take a new kind of fire, a drive, a commitment to start over from the rubble the fires had bequeathed what was left of the human race. Wordlessly, walking hand in hand, with the woman carrying new life, Isaac looked heavenwards and spoke aloud for the first time. I will papa. I am the fire. I will not forget you.