Julian

He / him Viewer discretion advised

[julianlovesdustrr]

Intro post

WARNING : this account contains mentions of ED, SH and drug abuse. If you are uncomfortable with any of these topics please leave and block my account.

Helloo my name is Julian

If you’ve seen any accounts named anything similar to Julian loves duster or Jules loves duster in the past, it was most likely me

I’m polish

I’m also queer

I go by he / him pronouns

I really like movies, drawing, skating, street art, music, fashion (especially the 90’s and 2000’s), cowboys aaand I love cats

My favorite game is rdr2

This account is devoted to my ED aswell as my SH and drug addictions, though it’ll mainly focus on my ED.

Stats

Sw: 59kg

Lw: 40,9kg

Cw: 48kg

Gw: 45kg

Gw: 43kg

Gw: 40kg

Gw: 39kg

Ugw: 35kg

Tags

#julianyap - just regular thoughts n things i want to say

#juliancrashout - usually sort of vents or just posts made in distress

#julianisajunkie - posts mentioning my drug addiction

#julianbc - my bodychecks

#julianthinsp - thinspo threads

#julianmealsp - mealspo threads or my own meals

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Please god I need those 3 but I’ll freak out after the effect wears off n have to keep doing more to stay sane

God what do I do what do I do

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Only 3 bumps won’t hurt right

It’ll just have me on my feet again

Right

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Oh god the craving is bad. Rly bad. Ik if I do one I’m gonna have to keep redosing for the rest of the day or I’ll tweak out

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Just ripped out another piece of flesh off my nose !! 🥰🥰🥰

#methheadctivities💖💖💗💗

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Today was so bad lockin starts tomorrow I promise ok bmi 13 by the end of summer trust

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Jestem kurwa architektem

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Pic from skatepark today n this selfie I never posted ( I think)👍

Posting it rn cause I was wearing the same fit

Yes I repeat that outfit over n over again ok it’s fire don’t crucify me 😔😔

Actually I might’ve posted that selfie on my previous acc

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I have only ever loved one person

It was a childhood bestfriend, I think I’ve never rly gotten over that crush, as a kid I fancied him, once he came back into my life as a teen I fell for him again, as of rn we lost contact though I think it’s for the better.

He was straight, I think, so it’d probably never work out. It’s better not talking at all than me having even slight hopes he might like me

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I want to love but idk how

I want a relationship but at the same time I’m scared I’m gonna hurt them

And I can’t fall in love for some stupid reason idk whats that about

Ik im still young but dude everybody around me is getting girlfriends n boyfriends n I can’t even get myself to have a crush on someone it feels stupid

“when are u gonna bring around a girlfriend?” IDK DUDE IDKKKK I HAVE NO IDEA TEACH ME OR SOMETHING

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I think I’m going to see them for the last time before they go away tomorrow

After they’re back I’m gonna take them out to eat n finally end my shi

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Life is slowly starting to lose any meaning

I genuinely don’t have any hope left

I might just give up, Im thinking of lasting a few more days, once my 2 friends come back from their upcoming trip I’ll take them out to dinner so we can have one last meal together and just od

In the meantime I’ll write letters and pick out who gets what things of mine based on what they liked, I think they’ll appreciate my gesture.

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I genuinely look dead wtf

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No color editing btw 😭😭😭

I am GREY

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I genuinely look dead wtf

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4th day sober

I feel awful

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Also 3rd day sober survived

The craving is getting stronger but I manage

Hopefully I can finally drop this shit

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All I did today was drink at 11pm n fix my sims

So basically the mbappe special

I had cherry vodka w black monster ultra it was very nice