20-ish and wiser-ish

Has a bad habit of falling too hard.

[662244]

someone being patient with u is one of the softest forms of love

[julieyuuuh]

Please stop messing with my head.

[julieyuuuh]

I remembered hugging you that night. When you felt all the weight was on your shoulders. But I know it wasn't the kind of hug you were longing for so I let go.

And now, I'm seeing you break your bones again for someone who isn't even glancing back your way, it pains me. It pains me because you're the dream that I always have wished for and seeing you try to reach a hand that you will never hold is too much. Love, you don't know how much you deserve the world's affection. But there you are, helplessly standing in the cold, hasty rain, filling your broken heart with magic dust and alcohol just to have the courage of telling her that you still yearn for her even if you know she'll never come around.

And here I am, putting you on a pedestal, adoring you like you're a greek hero. Here I am, in the rain with an umbrella, wanting to run and keep you safe from the cruel, brutal truth. But I know I'm not and will never be enough. I know I will never be the hand you'll reach. So I stood there watching you in a distance. I silently stood there and prayed for you. I prayed and hoped you'd realize that you don't have to keep reaching for the same star. You deserve better, love. You deserve so much better.

//how cruel is the world that we want someone that wants someone else.//

[julieyuuuh]

Sobrang mahal na ng fastfood bhie! Isang kain ko 200+ na agad-agad! Single pa ko niyan ha! 😭😂

[julieyuuuh]

I think I'm attracted to a gay man. But I'm trying to ignore it. Anyway.

When I was younger, I was soooo impulsive, reckless, and wears my heart on my sleeves type of girl. Ganon ako magmahal dati, it's either I'm all in or I'm out

Now, I'm calculating every move, every feeling. Na parang naiisip ko, worth the risk ba to? It's like I'm always thinking na dapat kapag nagka-relationship ako, yun yung date to marry na. Ayoko na makipaglaro or masaktan kasi nakaka-trauma teh.

Butttttttttt at the same time I wanna explore din. I wanna have flings, ganernnnn, yung tipong gusto ko din ng konting drama sa buhay. Hahahaha. Yung tipo ng relationship tulad ng sa "After We Collided" na movie.

Parang napaka-mundane na kasi ng buhay ko. Work, school, and bahay na lang mhie! 😂

[missinyouiskillingme]

I loved you so much once. I did. More than anything in the whole wide world. Imagine that. What a laugh that is now. Can you believe it? We were so intimate once upon a time I can’t believe it now. The memory of being that intimate with somebody. We were so intimate I could puke. I can’t imagine ever being that intimate with somebody else. I haven’t been.

Raymond Carver, Where I’m Calling From: New and Selected Stories

[missinyouiskillingme]

I loved you so much once.

[missinyouiskillingme]

It may have been in pieces, but I gave you the best of me.

— Jim Morrison, Wild Child: Life with Jim Morrison

[julieyuuuh]

Tara, kape.

[missinyouiskillingme]

[missinyouiskillingme]

[lunamonchtuna]

"i have seen the way he looks at you"

"how does he look at me?"

"like he never wants to look away"

— Ana Huang, from The King of Wrath

[julieyuuuh]

With all the form of fuckery in this cruel world, betrayal hurts the most because it always comes from the people you trust.

[missinyouiskillingme]

I wanted to tell you that wherever I am, whatever happens, I’ll always think of you, and the time we spent together, as my happiest time. I’d do it all over again, if I had the choice. No regrets.

— Cynthia Hand, Boundless

[9710144]

IG : @ p.s.youarelove

[julieyuuuh]

I'm always addicted to the wrong things.

You for instance.

[julieyuuuh]

Hello, Tumblr

It was a struggle to open and retrieve this account. But here I am. Welcome back to me!

Made this account years ago, I was a teenager then. And heto, 26 na ko.

Ano na ganap tumblr? Dami ng nagbago.

Kumusta kayong lahat?

[julieyuuuh]

WHY DO I EVEN MISS YOU?!